//Food Part II//
I ate 3 Portugese Tarts...shared 1 Mango Ice with Mitchell and Everlyn...1 chicken wing...1 "slice of Chiang Mai Popian (i think i spelled wrongly)...1 MacDonald Chocolate Milkshake (potato starch!)...and 1/4 cup of MacDonald regular sprite....
Going to Bukit Ho Swee for comm serve makes me fat.
After comm serve, we would normally walk to Tiong Bahru Plaza to take MRT home...and before that we would usually go in to get food...and eating like this every week definitely makes me fat...
And to top that...I went home and had my dinner as usual...zai right? Eat so much....
But apart from eating so much....we talked a lot too...at Macs...Everlyn, mitch and I just talked a lot...and it's really a talking session...of course with me drinking my milkshake and everlyn eating her popian...I mean how can she be not eating?
And I realised the problem finally....as in not really problem...but I would say reason....reason why the class feels different than it did before the holidays....
At first I attributed it to the fact that we are all starting to get serious now...starting to mug more...and stopped having fun...but yuming was right...the fun only stopped cause we decided to stop having fun...so it wasn't really the fact that the first 3 months is over that make the difference.....
I realised...it's the lack of gossips and scandals! I mean you can't deny that those scandals and gossips we had in the first 3 month...despite being so lame and untrue and...well just lame...it was pretty entertaining...the SCANDAL CENTRAL on the class blog was funny while it lasted...our class has never been the ultra hyper and super high type....but we still had fun! But now....without all the scandals and stuff...basically the 新鲜感 is no longer there...
I was looking at some of the photos we took in the first 3 months...it was just so refreshing to see the girls in their sec sch uniform...and reading the blog archives in Jan and reading the entries now....the difference is obvious...
Who knows how important scandals and gossips can be? lol...
Well I think it's more than that though....since school reopened...I think I hardly had a really good talk with anyone at all....the conversations were mostly superficial....and talking with mitch and everlyn just now just made me feel alive again! Lol...dramatic I know...but true...it's like suddenly there's some substance in my life or something....before that I've been feeling pretty empty...
Enough about the class....the comm serve itself is interesting too...found myself loooking forward to comm serve each week more and more...ok...i'm lying...i don't really look forward to it before I go....cause of my obvious laziness and slackiness....
But each time I leave the centre....I look forward to visiting again next time (till the day itself...where I will feel slack and lazy again)....
The kids there are sweet...most of them...tutored Faizul (I just can't get his name right) today...and it was like when we entered the room....he was just starting at me...and later when I walked past to put my bags down...he said "Kor kor...teach me afterwards ok.."
Aww..so sweet right...I feel wanteed...lol....and most of the time before we leave...they will always ask..."when will you be coming again?"....for a long time in my life...I felt some value in me....
Teaching them can be quite frustrating too...when they don't want to learn...but somehow they just make me feel good each time I leave the centre...
"Da Vinci Code" was pretty exciting I must say...I seriously think I should pick up the habit of reading again....
Will try to write a review of it in my next entry....actually whenever I write reviews for movies or books..I always wonder why bother...it isn't exactly something which I wanna record down and look back in 10 years time and exclaim "oh tt's how i felt at that time"....
But I guess I will still write it anyway...cause it was really a good book...
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Reading
//Reading//
i have a sudden urge to read some books...
weird...
"Da Vinci Code" is still lying on my table...dying to be read by me....but somehow I just can't bring myself to read it....
But what I really wanted to read right now is "1984" by George Orwell...we were supposed to read in in sec 3...but i'm pretty sure although the entire class borrowed it...none (ok maybe a few) read it...but right now at this moment...i just feel like reading it...it's a weird feeling...
I think I'm inspired by "V for Vendetta"...it was really an interesting movie...and I was so bored yesterday that I decided to go read up more about...so googled it...read more about it on Wikipedia...then "1984" was mentioned somewhere in there....and suddenly I just feel like reading it....
Never have this kind of urge before....
School life seems different somehow....the class seems different....ok duh it IS different...but the whole feeling is drastically different I would say....that's what I mean by different....not just the different people I'm seeing....
Everytime i see ivan or qingyi or miao jing around sch or zhirong or fera or yingri when they come back...i just feel very warm deep inside...it's a weird feeling too...it's like seeing your long lost friend or something....i do like the new folks in the class...they are nice and friendly people...but maybe cause I haven't really talk to to them yet or something...the connection is just not there....and the worse thing is I don't have the urge to want to talk...like i did in the first 3 months....it's just me I guess...being passive and laid back....and somehow i was a different person in the first 3 month....
i think the different feeling i have has nothing to do with the old classmates' absence or presence of new classmates...it has more to do with the fact that the first 3 months is over...everyone's in hwa chong uniform now...and i just feel like the fun has ended and real work's just started...and i don't like that....i mean look at the 2nd intakers...the make-up lecture schedule is crazy....
And I'm really feeling the difference...today...early in the morning...I felt very stoned at the class bench...and during maths tutorial....felt damn happy and high for no reason....(i tink it's the classroom...it makes me high)...so it's like roller coaster ride....high low high low...(lol...like some milk like that)....and what really frustrates me is...I have no freakin idea why I feel so empty inside sometimes yet feel high for no reason like during maths tutorial....it's really tiring to experience such a wide range of emotions within such a short time....
And right now....life seems rather meaningless...without a clear direction....
I think I should mug more....at least it keeps my mind occupied....cause I absolutely do nothing during weekdays....my typical day would be....wake up...go school...lessons...end of lessons...play cards...play cards...lag and slack in sch....go home...eat dinner...watch tv...slack...surf net...sleep....and those slacking times make me feel so free...and I always feel like my life's wasting away...my youth is wasting away...so conclusion: do more tutorials!
as usual...another incoherent and totally random entry...and most of it doesn't even have anything to do with reading as the title suggests....
i guess i shall go read "da vinci code" right now...
i have a sudden urge to read some books...
weird...
"Da Vinci Code" is still lying on my table...dying to be read by me....but somehow I just can't bring myself to read it....
But what I really wanted to read right now is "1984" by George Orwell...we were supposed to read in in sec 3...but i'm pretty sure although the entire class borrowed it...none (ok maybe a few) read it...but right now at this moment...i just feel like reading it...it's a weird feeling...
I think I'm inspired by "V for Vendetta"...it was really an interesting movie...and I was so bored yesterday that I decided to go read up more about...so googled it...read more about it on Wikipedia...then "1984" was mentioned somewhere in there....and suddenly I just feel like reading it....
Never have this kind of urge before....
School life seems different somehow....the class seems different....ok duh it IS different...but the whole feeling is drastically different I would say....that's what I mean by different....not just the different people I'm seeing....
Everytime i see ivan or qingyi or miao jing around sch or zhirong or fera or yingri when they come back...i just feel very warm deep inside...it's a weird feeling too...it's like seeing your long lost friend or something....i do like the new folks in the class...they are nice and friendly people...but maybe cause I haven't really talk to to them yet or something...the connection is just not there....and the worse thing is I don't have the urge to want to talk...like i did in the first 3 months....it's just me I guess...being passive and laid back....and somehow i was a different person in the first 3 month....
i think the different feeling i have has nothing to do with the old classmates' absence or presence of new classmates...it has more to do with the fact that the first 3 months is over...everyone's in hwa chong uniform now...and i just feel like the fun has ended and real work's just started...and i don't like that....i mean look at the 2nd intakers...the make-up lecture schedule is crazy....
And I'm really feeling the difference...today...early in the morning...I felt very stoned at the class bench...and during maths tutorial....felt damn happy and high for no reason....(i tink it's the classroom...it makes me high)...so it's like roller coaster ride....high low high low...(lol...like some milk like that)....and what really frustrates me is...I have no freakin idea why I feel so empty inside sometimes yet feel high for no reason like during maths tutorial....it's really tiring to experience such a wide range of emotions within such a short time....
And right now....life seems rather meaningless...without a clear direction....
I think I should mug more....at least it keeps my mind occupied....cause I absolutely do nothing during weekdays....my typical day would be....wake up...go school...lessons...end of lessons...play cards...play cards...lag and slack in sch....go home...eat dinner...watch tv...slack...surf net...sleep....and those slacking times make me feel so free...and I always feel like my life's wasting away...my youth is wasting away...so conclusion: do more tutorials!
as usual...another incoherent and totally random entry...and most of it doesn't even have anything to do with reading as the title suggests....
i guess i shall go read "da vinci code" right now...
Sunday, March 19, 2006
Food
//Food//
Never underestimate the power of a good meal.
Imagine you are stuck at home the entire land, trapped in mugmug land mugging like a true blue mugger...you don't have any breaks...the occasional toilet trips and the trips to the fridge becomes your only entertainment....
Then you start to get hungry....and you get grumpy....you yearn for food...you want your dinner....and you continue to press on...mug on...and finally you hear the magic words "Dinner's ready!"
You are so excited that you rush to the dinning table...only to be served with some crappy noddle ee mee kinda thing....
Disappointment.
Food can be that influential....eating too little make me feel unsatisfied...eating too much makes me too bloated....but I never know what's just nice and enough....
Very grumpy and irritated this couple of days...all cause of food?
A hungry man is an angry man....true indeed....
Slips right back into muggerwonderland...
Never underestimate the power of a good meal.
Imagine you are stuck at home the entire land, trapped in mugmug land mugging like a true blue mugger...you don't have any breaks...the occasional toilet trips and the trips to the fridge becomes your only entertainment....
Then you start to get hungry....and you get grumpy....you yearn for food...you want your dinner....and you continue to press on...mug on...and finally you hear the magic words "Dinner's ready!"
You are so excited that you rush to the dinning table...only to be served with some crappy noddle ee mee kinda thing....
Disappointment.
Food can be that influential....eating too little make me feel unsatisfied...eating too much makes me too bloated....but I never know what's just nice and enough....
Very grumpy and irritated this couple of days...all cause of food?
A hungry man is an angry man....true indeed....
Slips right back into muggerwonderland...
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Me
//Me//
Was reading Kai Herng's blog...tumbled across this quiz...which I find quite interesting...in the sense that the questions are asked in a very "imagery" kind of way...like "you are walking and saw something on the floor..what do you see?"....so I decided to give it a try...you can try it too here: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
Note: Down to earth I agree...but I am definitely NOT a straightforward person...lol...ok...the listen to both sides of an argument is pretty accurate...
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Note: Hmm...woa...I am attractive in many people's eyes huh? Haha...good-looking people aren't necessarily my style...but if she can be smart, serious, determined AND pretty...all the better!
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
Note: Hmm...I don't think so....
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Note: Lol...so funny...maybe I do have sensible tactics...but I never use only...
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
Note: WTF is this question doing here? Who cares about my views on education....ok I may find education important...I may want to study hard...but I definitely don't like to study! Nor am I good at it...
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
Note: Finally something that makes some sense....
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
Note: Woa...2 accurate statements in one go...this quiz has pontential man!
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Note: So very true...or at least I feel....but who don't want to be accepted by others?
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Note: Lol...another funny one...I give good advice? Maybe I do...hey...I wanna be an advice columnist or counsellor or social worker or psychologist one day lor!
I am actually doing my Chemistry tutorial right now...can't believe it! When I have the mood...I shall come blog about the "Interact Camp"....for now...back to mugger wonderland!
Was reading Kai Herng's blog...tumbled across this quiz...which I find quite interesting...in the sense that the questions are asked in a very "imagery" kind of way...like "you are walking and saw something on the floor..what do you see?"....so I decided to give it a try...you can try it too here: http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
Note: Down to earth I agree...but I am definitely NOT a straightforward person...lol...ok...the listen to both sides of an argument is pretty accurate...
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Note: Hmm...woa...I am attractive in many people's eyes huh? Haha...good-looking people aren't necessarily my style...but if she can be smart, serious, determined AND pretty...all the better!
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
Note: Hmm...I don't think so....
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Note: Lol...so funny...maybe I do have sensible tactics...but I never use only...
Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
Note: WTF is this question doing here? Who cares about my views on education....ok I may find education important...I may want to study hard...but I definitely don't like to study! Nor am I good at it...
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
Note: Finally something that makes some sense....
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
Note: Woa...2 accurate statements in one go...this quiz has pontential man!
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Note: So very true...or at least I feel....but who don't want to be accepted by others?
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
Note: Lol...another funny one...I give good advice? Maybe I do...hey...I wanna be an advice columnist or counsellor or social worker or psychologist one day lor!
I am actually doing my Chemistry tutorial right now...can't believe it! When I have the mood...I shall come blog about the "Interact Camp"....for now...back to mugger wonderland!
My Perfect Lover
//My Perfect Lover//
Instructions: The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover. Specify the gender of the target. Tag 8 victims to join this game and leave a comment on their page saying they've been tagged. If tagged the 2nd time, there's no need to post again.
Tagged by Terence...lucky me...actually I don't really have any specific qualities that I'm looking for in my partner....so I wonder how I'm going to crap 8 qualities out...
Gender: Female
Qualities
1. Must be talkative
I'm a very stone person by nature, so if she stone I stone than we will die of boredom. So she must talk!! Talk a lot!! While I just sit and get entertained listening to her talk....lol...typical lazy me...
2. Must have a busy life
Meaning she must have a life of a own larz, the busier the better...I mean my dating experience is like zero? But then I just don't envy people who have to constantly dig time out of their ever so busy schedule to go out with bf/gf. I always feel that finding time to go out with your gf/bf is very troublesome..my view may change once I start dating or something...but for now the busier she is...the less we have to meet up...the more time I have to slack...the better it is...
3. Must love to sing and be tolerant towards my singing
If not she will be bored to death when we go KBox....and she have to endure my terrible singing not to forget....so she must have a high tolerance level for my singing....
4. Must be a good listener
Yea, I mentioned she must talk a lot....but she cannot be those self-centered bitch too, she must have the patience to listen to me whine cause I love to whine. And when I whine and bitch and complain about my life...I hate it when that person is totally uninterested or give too much comments....she must know how to achieve a delicate balance of showing concern, yet not showing too much...
5. Must be practical
Ok, treating her movies or dinner, sometimes is fine...but I expect her to be practical too..I mean I'm still a student..I don't have a steady income...so she mustn't expect it every single time...which brings me to my point why start dating now? Hmm...and I want her to be practical as well, in the sense that don't waste money buying useless stuff for me for my Bdae or Vdae...and I hope she don't expect flowers or whatever....so useless...at least chocalate still can eat right....
6. Must look decent
Definition of decent here simply means ok/average/so-so....don't need to be ultra pretty...as long as kan de shun yan can liaoz...
7. Must watch Lost/Depserate Housewives/etc...
ok...I am seriously running out of things to say liaoz....ok...she must watch at least one of these shows I watch...then got something more to talk about....
8. Must have very limited SMS per month
If she got very limited number of SMS...then it means I don't have to keep sms-ing her...I prefer msn-ing...
I sound like the boyfriend from hell don't it? Lol...
Ok...can I don't victimise anyone anymore? Ok...cannot...must target someone...if not then not fair...here are my targets:
1) Edmund
2) Everlyn
3) Jason
4) Mann Ying
5) Wilson
6) Kai Herng
7) Yan Han
8) Jia Ling
Saturday, March 11, 2006
A Series Of Unfortunate Events
//A Series Of Unfortunate Events//
Actually, it isn't really that unfortunate.
But you can't deny that bad things tend to happen in a row. It's really the case, once something bad happens, more will follow suit. But I must admit I tend to take note and focus a lot more on these bad stuff when they happen together, if they are isolated cases, I probably wouldn't care so much.
So let me go back 4 days ago....
8/3/ Wed: 2 pm
Ivan's appeal back to Hwa Chong worked! But he's now in S75? Weird huh? But as much I like to stay and see what I can do to help, I have to go to the High school to see Vincent tan for rehearsal for SSEF.
Met him, but sadly no computer! There's something wrong with the poster, thus it has to be edited but there's no computer with Publisher....finally found a teacher with Publisher in his laptop...wasted about 1 hour there? All the editing and dilly dallying around...
Nevermind...so let's rehearse! But guess what...there's no com...so how we rehearse? It's ok...we very zai...can remember the powerpoint and poster by heart...so we can rehearse even without it...but isn't it like a bit waste of time...go there present without the poster and powerpoint, what kind of rehearsal is that?
Then comes the best part...while I thought I can go print the poster on Thur....Mr Tan think it should be done on Wed! I mean it's reasonable, what if something goes wrong on Thursday...but still I dun wanna go print! I got Bio test on Thur you know! But no choice...have to go...
8/3/ Wed: 4 pm
So very sadly..I set off to Peace Centre at Dhoby Gauht. Took 171...which by the way the air con's spoilt...nevermind about that...by right should reach in half hours time...but of course things wouldn't go so smoothly...of all times...I choose to oversleep this time...by the time I wake up...I am in Cityhall liao. But being blur blur, I thought haven't pass by Dhoby Gauht, so I went to ask the driver...and he was like "Heh, Dhoby Gauht pass by long ago liaoz.." in a ultra super bitchy tone, I should slapped him on the spot...but I just woke up and I didn't really expect that kind of attitude from him...so nevermind...I alighted...took a train back to Dhoby Gauht.
Things seem fine right, reach Dhoby Gauht liaoz...but I have to mess things up by coming out of the wrong exit. I mean 171 stops at the exact place which I can walk to Peace Centre directly, MRT's much troublesome...and I have to make it even more so by coming out of the wrong exit...
So I started to walk towards Peace Centre...and the distance was much further than I remembered, it was about Chinese High swimming pool to Coro...esp with the construction work going on in the area...I have to walk the longer way...
8/3/ Wed: 5 pm
A half hour journey ended up being 1 hour, but I reached the place nevertheless. Found the shop, but what seems like an half hour printing job lasted 3 hours. All sorts of problems came up, like the computer not being able to detect the thumbdrive, then the poster was too big, then the graph lines were too light, then the printer isn't working, then the computer refuses to print...all sorts of problems happened....and when we finally got it working and printing...it's 8pm! I mean can you believe it, I'm stuck at Peace Centre for friggin' 3 hour...alone! And by no means am I a Publisher pro...I am even amazed by myself how I solve those problems there...
8/3/ Wed: 8 pm
Decided to screw it and take a cab home, I definitely don't want to walk back to the MRT...ironically, the song that I heard on the taxi is this...
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down
and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
- Daniel Powter
how fitting for my day...reached home...decided that I was not in the mood to study Bio...watched American Idol instead...finally started studying at 10pm....studied till about 12+ before I fell asleep while studying on my bed...luckily for me, I anticipated that and had set my alarm to 5am....but still I did not manage to finish studying...completely ignored the "proteins" section....
9/3/ Thur: 8 pm
For some weird reason, 71 was singled out as being noisy though the hundreds of other students were making as much noise... nevermind about that...but after the Bio test....I was quite sad...cause I could have sleep much earlier...there is absolutely no point in studying for this test...I would have done as bad even if i don't study....just regretted waking up at 5 to study...such a waste of time....
9/3/ Thur: 2 pm
Supposed to go to Science Centre to set up the booth for SSEF....went to the high school library to transfer some files...and take the laptop...kh and mw are supposed to meet me at the library before going to the carpark for the bus...and I was abandoned by them...again. Nevermind, I missed the bus...ended up taking a cab there....
9/3/ Thur: 5 pm
Poster setup was full of hiccups too...rush here rush there to buy stuff...when it's finally time to go....it started raining...how nice...shared an umbrella with kh..but it's basically useless...and my whole pants is entirely DRENCHED....kh and I were talking about there would be rainbow after a storm...and we hope we can do well in ssef....
Jurong and Hougang is pretty far away...decided not to take the train...cause firstly at that kind of time, there would be absolutely no seat...secondly...if I take bus...I can find some seats right at the back...and I can roll up my pants...cause the wet pants is friggin' irritating...
So I took 51....and guess what...it took be a total of 2 hours to reach home!!! It's friggin' 92 stops! I passed by like West Coast, Pasir Panjang, Haw Par Villa, Queenstown, Clementi, Commonwealth, Clark Quay, Bugis, passed by so so so many MRT station...Queenstown, Clementi, Clark Quay, Bugis, Lavander, Eunos, Paya Lebar, Aljunied....the bus went from fully packed to literally empty to fully packed again so many times during my ride....
10/3/ Fri:
SSEF judging!!! The judges were pretty nice except the last one who seem very uninterested....Finally I have a day that goes well....but life can't be perfect can it? At night...I got this ultra bad cough...
11/3 Sat:
Woke up with body aches all over the place...the kind of body aches that you experience when you are about to get a flu or fever....reached the Science Centre...it got worst...so I sat on the chair beside the booth and...sleep...lol..ok I know I probably shouldn't...but I didn't sleep much though...the official there woke me up....so I went to a quiet corner...and continue sleeping...and I ended up waking up with a headache....which I am still having now....and no I refuse to eat Panadol...I've relied on Panadol way too much....
Results came in at about 3pm +....got SILVER!!! Totally unexpected....I mean you never know how they will judge your project...and I knew that last year...a lot of groups only got "Participation"...kind of expected this kind of result too....so our aim is to get merit...anything above that is bonus....and man we got a big bonus! Seems like there's indeed rainbow after the storm...
But the rainbow was shortlived though...this time round...I decided to take the train and not 51...no one in the right mind would take a bus that will pass by 92 stops to reach your house....took a train down to outram park, and from there took to Habourfront cause I want a seat....and I got it...I slept....and slept...and slept...and when I woke up...I was already at Seng Kang! Which means I have already passed by Kovan....sad isn't it...so I alighted wanting to cross the Platform to take a return train....but after I alighted....I realised the train at the opposite platform goes to Punggol....and the train that I was on actually goes to Kovan!! If you still don't get what's happening...it means that I have slept from one end (Habourfront) to the other end (Punggol), missing Kovan station....and the train is going back to Habourfront, which means if I had not alighted the train I would have reach Kovan too...
Headache's killing me right now...I totally cannot get excited over the SSEF results which this kinda headache...
someone please kill me now...
Actually, it isn't really that unfortunate.
But you can't deny that bad things tend to happen in a row. It's really the case, once something bad happens, more will follow suit. But I must admit I tend to take note and focus a lot more on these bad stuff when they happen together, if they are isolated cases, I probably wouldn't care so much.
So let me go back 4 days ago....
8/3/ Wed: 2 pm
Ivan's appeal back to Hwa Chong worked! But he's now in S75? Weird huh? But as much I like to stay and see what I can do to help, I have to go to the High school to see Vincent tan for rehearsal for SSEF.
Met him, but sadly no computer! There's something wrong with the poster, thus it has to be edited but there's no computer with Publisher....finally found a teacher with Publisher in his laptop...wasted about 1 hour there? All the editing and dilly dallying around...
Nevermind...so let's rehearse! But guess what...there's no com...so how we rehearse? It's ok...we very zai...can remember the powerpoint and poster by heart...so we can rehearse even without it...but isn't it like a bit waste of time...go there present without the poster and powerpoint, what kind of rehearsal is that?
Then comes the best part...while I thought I can go print the poster on Thur....Mr Tan think it should be done on Wed! I mean it's reasonable, what if something goes wrong on Thursday...but still I dun wanna go print! I got Bio test on Thur you know! But no choice...have to go...
8/3/ Wed: 4 pm
So very sadly..I set off to Peace Centre at Dhoby Gauht. Took 171...which by the way the air con's spoilt...nevermind about that...by right should reach in half hours time...but of course things wouldn't go so smoothly...of all times...I choose to oversleep this time...by the time I wake up...I am in Cityhall liao. But being blur blur, I thought haven't pass by Dhoby Gauht, so I went to ask the driver...and he was like "Heh, Dhoby Gauht pass by long ago liaoz.." in a ultra super bitchy tone, I should slapped him on the spot...but I just woke up and I didn't really expect that kind of attitude from him...so nevermind...I alighted...took a train back to Dhoby Gauht.
Things seem fine right, reach Dhoby Gauht liaoz...but I have to mess things up by coming out of the wrong exit. I mean 171 stops at the exact place which I can walk to Peace Centre directly, MRT's much troublesome...and I have to make it even more so by coming out of the wrong exit...
So I started to walk towards Peace Centre...and the distance was much further than I remembered, it was about Chinese High swimming pool to Coro...esp with the construction work going on in the area...I have to walk the longer way...
8/3/ Wed: 5 pm
A half hour journey ended up being 1 hour, but I reached the place nevertheless. Found the shop, but what seems like an half hour printing job lasted 3 hours. All sorts of problems came up, like the computer not being able to detect the thumbdrive, then the poster was too big, then the graph lines were too light, then the printer isn't working, then the computer refuses to print...all sorts of problems happened....and when we finally got it working and printing...it's 8pm! I mean can you believe it, I'm stuck at Peace Centre for friggin' 3 hour...alone! And by no means am I a Publisher pro...I am even amazed by myself how I solve those problems there...
8/3/ Wed: 8 pm
Decided to screw it and take a cab home, I definitely don't want to walk back to the MRT...ironically, the song that I heard on the taxi is this...
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down
and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
- Daniel Powter
how fitting for my day...reached home...decided that I was not in the mood to study Bio...watched American Idol instead...finally started studying at 10pm....studied till about 12+ before I fell asleep while studying on my bed...luckily for me, I anticipated that and had set my alarm to 5am....but still I did not manage to finish studying...completely ignored the "proteins" section....
9/3/ Thur: 8 pm
For some weird reason, 71 was singled out as being noisy though the hundreds of other students were making as much noise... nevermind about that...but after the Bio test....I was quite sad...cause I could have sleep much earlier...there is absolutely no point in studying for this test...I would have done as bad even if i don't study....just regretted waking up at 5 to study...such a waste of time....
9/3/ Thur: 2 pm
Supposed to go to Science Centre to set up the booth for SSEF....went to the high school library to transfer some files...and take the laptop...kh and mw are supposed to meet me at the library before going to the carpark for the bus...and I was abandoned by them...again. Nevermind, I missed the bus...ended up taking a cab there....
9/3/ Thur: 5 pm
Poster setup was full of hiccups too...rush here rush there to buy stuff...when it's finally time to go....it started raining...how nice...shared an umbrella with kh..but it's basically useless...and my whole pants is entirely DRENCHED....kh and I were talking about there would be rainbow after a storm...and we hope we can do well in ssef....
Jurong and Hougang is pretty far away...decided not to take the train...cause firstly at that kind of time, there would be absolutely no seat...secondly...if I take bus...I can find some seats right at the back...and I can roll up my pants...cause the wet pants is friggin' irritating...
So I took 51....and guess what...it took be a total of 2 hours to reach home!!! It's friggin' 92 stops! I passed by like West Coast, Pasir Panjang, Haw Par Villa, Queenstown, Clementi, Commonwealth, Clark Quay, Bugis, passed by so so so many MRT station...Queenstown, Clementi, Clark Quay, Bugis, Lavander, Eunos, Paya Lebar, Aljunied....the bus went from fully packed to literally empty to fully packed again so many times during my ride....
10/3/ Fri:
SSEF judging!!! The judges were pretty nice except the last one who seem very uninterested....Finally I have a day that goes well....but life can't be perfect can it? At night...I got this ultra bad cough...
11/3 Sat:
Woke up with body aches all over the place...the kind of body aches that you experience when you are about to get a flu or fever....reached the Science Centre...it got worst...so I sat on the chair beside the booth and...sleep...lol..ok I know I probably shouldn't...but I didn't sleep much though...the official there woke me up....so I went to a quiet corner...and continue sleeping...and I ended up waking up with a headache....which I am still having now....and no I refuse to eat Panadol...I've relied on Panadol way too much....
Results came in at about 3pm +....got SILVER!!! Totally unexpected....I mean you never know how they will judge your project...and I knew that last year...a lot of groups only got "Participation"...kind of expected this kind of result too....so our aim is to get merit...anything above that is bonus....and man we got a big bonus! Seems like there's indeed rainbow after the storm...
But the rainbow was shortlived though...this time round...I decided to take the train and not 51...no one in the right mind would take a bus that will pass by 92 stops to reach your house....took a train down to outram park, and from there took to Habourfront cause I want a seat....and I got it...I slept....and slept...and slept...and when I woke up...I was already at Seng Kang! Which means I have already passed by Kovan....sad isn't it...so I alighted wanting to cross the Platform to take a return train....but after I alighted....I realised the train at the opposite platform goes to Punggol....and the train that I was on actually goes to Kovan!! If you still don't get what's happening...it means that I have slept from one end (Habourfront) to the other end (Punggol), missing Kovan station....and the train is going back to Habourfront, which means if I had not alighted the train I would have reach Kovan too...
Headache's killing me right now...I totally cannot get excited over the SSEF results which this kinda headache...
someone please kill me now...
Thursday, March 02, 2006
Emotion Part II
//Emotion Part II//
took long for me to be inspired to write this post again...initally i wanted to talk abt me being emotional yet devoid of emotions sometimes...i mean that was what i wanted to blogged about the other time but in the end got too caught up with the "x" factor...
but now i am just a bundle of emotions again....i mean maybe that's why i decided to blog now....i mean i have been quite free the last few days...i could have easily blogged about it...but somehow i am just not inspired to type about it...
but now...i am just feeling very depressed....(i dun wanna use the word "sad" cause it sounds too much like qingyi)
ok larz...this post is gonna be totally random...so juz try to make some sense out of the whole thing yourself...
I mean I am a weird person larz....I cry at all the wrong times....I feel emotionless when I'm supposed to be very emotional...
Let's see....I mean I can shed tears while watching "Survivor"...when this contestants got a visit from her son...and she was crying like mad...and I started crying too...but then during my grandma's funeral..I did not shed a single tear throughout the whole thing....I mean I think I was more worried about my EOY exams at that time....
She passed away the day before my EOY started last year...and I was like studying about heart structure and so on during the funeral...and I'm never the kind to start preparing for exams early....so I was pretty scrooed at that time...cause I was expected to be down at the funeral place there every day and night....but I just go down like 15 mins each night?
It's just screwed up larz.....and everyone was crying like mad...and I was like...staring at them while they cry....for a moment I even think I don't feel ANYTHING at all...it was a pretty scary feeling actually...not feeling anything about someone's death....i'm not very close with my grandma...but it's still a bit heartless not to feel anything you know...ok...i do feel a sense of lost...but my life got on track very very soon after the funeral....i still remember studying for chem after her funeral....
that period of time....it was like i have time to mourn over the loss....the first 3 papers are physics bio then chem...and the funeral was held over those few days...it just feels weird larz....that i cry over movies...over shows...but not over the loss of my grandma....
also...i remembered at the end of sec 2....my mum found out she got cancer....she just told me the news on the way to sch....(during the hols)....it was my first com team training in St John you know....and she broke the news....and undoubtly I was very shocked and just...shocked...sad...depressed...but that feeling is just indescribable....it's like well it's just cancer..not like cannot be treated...but at the same time...was thinking what if hers was really bad?
but similarly no tears at all. weird rite? i think it's easier to cry about things that isn't real, like movie and so on....but when the problem is so real and in your face....i am sort of lost....not knowing how to react....
i think everyone's life is just sad.....everyone appear happy in school....everyone smiles....but deep down somewhere....everyone is just sad for some of the things in their lives....i've seen/heard/read qte a lot of such cases lately...that led me to this conclusion: Everyone in this world is sad by nature...we are only happy at certain moments...but our lives are mainly made up of sad stuff....
my life's well...it seems good doesn't it....good grades in pri sch....pretty ok grades in sec sch....life's seem pretty ok...but then there are sad stuff too....it may seem good on the surface....but some things can be pretty sad....(omg...i m like keep using the word sad...damn u qingyi...)
i dun wanna talk abt all my problems here....sigh...i think i supressed all the bad stuff all a little too well....i dun really get into states of depression as bad as some of my frenz do....maybe i do? maybe that's why i stone everyday? i run away from my problems...i dun wanna think about it...i procrastinate...so my problems always seem so distant...but that doesn't mean they don't exist...but i just don't keep thinking about it...that's why i haven committed suicide yet i guess? lol...ok...not funny...but seriously i dun think i will ever think of committing suicide...people who have suicidal thoughts just scare me....
what am i doing with my life!?! i don't know....my teenage years are wasting away....2 years is fast...before I know it...i may even be working already....but what work can I do? My passion don't meet my talent...but come to think of it...i don't excel in anything in particular?
Adulthood scares me a lot a lot....jobs work career apart...what about my love life? I have a sick feeling I'm gonna be still single at the age of 50 (if i live tt long)...
Can anybody find me somebody to love
Ooh, each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
- Queen
And no...I'm not desperate for love now....in fact I don't want a relationship right now....it's too much of a burden for me i guess...i dun wanna put myself through the whole horrors of a relationship just yet...looking down the long and winding road of my life....it just scares me to think what will I do if i really do end up like that 50 years down the road....
then sadly tmr is the posting results...sadly 71 will never be the same again....life's full of sad things isn't it...so crying is actually good...but how come i m not crying now? am i not sad enough?
x seems like nothing out of sudden....
life's so randmon....just like this entry...
took long for me to be inspired to write this post again...initally i wanted to talk abt me being emotional yet devoid of emotions sometimes...i mean that was what i wanted to blogged about the other time but in the end got too caught up with the "x" factor...
but now i am just a bundle of emotions again....i mean maybe that's why i decided to blog now....i mean i have been quite free the last few days...i could have easily blogged about it...but somehow i am just not inspired to type about it...
but now...i am just feeling very depressed....(i dun wanna use the word "sad" cause it sounds too much like qingyi)
ok larz...this post is gonna be totally random...so juz try to make some sense out of the whole thing yourself...
I mean I am a weird person larz....I cry at all the wrong times....I feel emotionless when I'm supposed to be very emotional...
Let's see....I mean I can shed tears while watching "Survivor"...when this contestants got a visit from her son...and she was crying like mad...and I started crying too...but then during my grandma's funeral..I did not shed a single tear throughout the whole thing....I mean I think I was more worried about my EOY exams at that time....
She passed away the day before my EOY started last year...and I was like studying about heart structure and so on during the funeral...and I'm never the kind to start preparing for exams early....so I was pretty scrooed at that time...cause I was expected to be down at the funeral place there every day and night....but I just go down like 15 mins each night?
It's just screwed up larz.....and everyone was crying like mad...and I was like...staring at them while they cry....for a moment I even think I don't feel ANYTHING at all...it was a pretty scary feeling actually...not feeling anything about someone's death....i'm not very close with my grandma...but it's still a bit heartless not to feel anything you know...ok...i do feel a sense of lost...but my life got on track very very soon after the funeral....i still remember studying for chem after her funeral....
that period of time....it was like i have time to mourn over the loss....the first 3 papers are physics bio then chem...and the funeral was held over those few days...it just feels weird larz....that i cry over movies...over shows...but not over the loss of my grandma....
also...i remembered at the end of sec 2....my mum found out she got cancer....she just told me the news on the way to sch....(during the hols)....it was my first com team training in St John you know....and she broke the news....and undoubtly I was very shocked and just...shocked...sad...depressed...but that feeling is just indescribable....it's like well it's just cancer..not like cannot be treated...but at the same time...was thinking what if hers was really bad?
but similarly no tears at all. weird rite? i think it's easier to cry about things that isn't real, like movie and so on....but when the problem is so real and in your face....i am sort of lost....not knowing how to react....
i think everyone's life is just sad.....everyone appear happy in school....everyone smiles....but deep down somewhere....everyone is just sad for some of the things in their lives....i've seen/heard/read qte a lot of such cases lately...that led me to this conclusion: Everyone in this world is sad by nature...we are only happy at certain moments...but our lives are mainly made up of sad stuff....
my life's well...it seems good doesn't it....good grades in pri sch....pretty ok grades in sec sch....life's seem pretty ok...but then there are sad stuff too....it may seem good on the surface....but some things can be pretty sad....(omg...i m like keep using the word sad...damn u qingyi...)
i dun wanna talk abt all my problems here....sigh...i think i supressed all the bad stuff all a little too well....i dun really get into states of depression as bad as some of my frenz do....maybe i do? maybe that's why i stone everyday? i run away from my problems...i dun wanna think about it...i procrastinate...so my problems always seem so distant...but that doesn't mean they don't exist...but i just don't keep thinking about it...that's why i haven committed suicide yet i guess? lol...ok...not funny...but seriously i dun think i will ever think of committing suicide...people who have suicidal thoughts just scare me....
what am i doing with my life!?! i don't know....my teenage years are wasting away....2 years is fast...before I know it...i may even be working already....but what work can I do? My passion don't meet my talent...but come to think of it...i don't excel in anything in particular?
Adulthood scares me a lot a lot....jobs work career apart...what about my love life? I have a sick feeling I'm gonna be still single at the age of 50 (if i live tt long)...
Can anybody find me somebody to love
Ooh, each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
- Queen
And no...I'm not desperate for love now....in fact I don't want a relationship right now....it's too much of a burden for me i guess...i dun wanna put myself through the whole horrors of a relationship just yet...looking down the long and winding road of my life....it just scares me to think what will I do if i really do end up like that 50 years down the road....
then sadly tmr is the posting results...sadly 71 will never be the same again....life's full of sad things isn't it...so crying is actually good...but how come i m not crying now? am i not sad enough?
x seems like nothing out of sudden....
life's so randmon....just like this entry...
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