Monday, September 25, 2006

Promos

//Promos//



Mugging for promos have its perks too...

At least I get to eat Bo Bo Cha Cha from lots of foodcourts around Singapore...



And in case you are thinking "hey! it's the eve of an exam! that's why he's here to freak out and whine!"...

YOU ARE WRONG!

It's the eve of the eve of the econs paper...and I'm freaking out in advance, cause tomorrow night at this time, I would be too busy trying to finish mugging my econs to freak out at all...so I guess I better do it in advance...

I will treat myself to lots more $2.30 bo bo cha cha if I get promoted....if I do...hopefully...

I used to aim for 100 marks in primary school...aim for A1s and A2s in secondary school...now I'm aiming for a "D" for all subjects...and I don't even think I can do it...what the fuck is wrong with me...

And it's only the promos...it's not even prelims or a levels...

I need to think of all the bo bo cha cha i will eat after the promos right now to take my mind off the possibility of getting retained....or dropping subjects....

Friday, September 15, 2006

Wonders of Mugging

//Wonders of Mugging//

Blogging has became something that I do only when I'm very free and have nothing better to do...

Of course this doesn't mean I'm very free or have nothing better to do now...it just so happens that I don't feel like doing anything else...

Promos is coming...and the pressure is definitely on...never really felt this way before...

Last time, despite not putting in 100% effort, I know I can at least get a past and get promoted...but somehow things are not as simple now...without my best effort, I ended up getting "S" and "U"..and it's really do or die considering the weightage for promos...

People keep telling me to relax...telling me that getting promoted is not that hard...I guess I took the advice to heart too much and ended up relaxing too much for block test...won't happen again this time...and it's not like I'm aiming for 4 "A"s or something...I'm just hoping for a minimum of "D" in all subjects...I would die of joy if I can pass my maths...

So I've been out mugging...or rather I should say attempting to complete all my tutorials/work/practicals or whatsoever that needed to be done since the start of Sept hols, and sad to say, after almost 2 weeks of mugging....they are still not all completed....still left with Tutorial 7B and 7C for maths...

On the first Sat of the Sept hols, I was mugging with ming wei and ying cheng...first half of the day at amk library and second half at Sumo house...

After that session...I was waiting for the bus at the interchange....and while waiting...of course my eyes will wonder about...and then I saw a someone who look vaguely familiar (couldn't see properly as the person was back facing me) standing in front..at the queue for another bus...

So after looking closely...I realised it's Qingyi...with someone else obviously...haven't seen her since May...didn't really know what happened to her after she left school...or what she has been doing...etc...

For that few moment...lots of questions were running through my mind...like what has she been doing...is she fine...and so on....I wanted to say hi to her...and asked her all those questions

Then I chickened out.

I started to wonder...what if the bus takes forever to come...what if I have nothing to say to her after she answer me with one word answers...

So I didn't even said hi to her...in fear of the awkward silence that may happened....

So I continue waiting for the bus...and occasionally glancing at her...hoping that she won't see me...then in a distance...I saw my bus coming...

Then...I just decided to called out to her...it's just not right to treat it as if I didn't see her at all..considering the fact that she left rather abruptly...she seemed very shocked...like she did not expect anyone to recognise her or something...stared at me for about 5 seconds...then said hi...but by then...I was already on my way to get up the bus...

Throughout the journey home...I keep thinking...it's only been like 4-5 months since she disappeared from school and our lives...how come she seems like such a distant memory...seriously...when I saw her...it feels like seeing a primary school classmate whom I have not met for years...

JC life has zoomed past so fast that friends that faded out of my life months ago seemed like they disappeared from my life years ago...I have not seen Zhirong for only 6-7 months...and it seems like years already to me...I'm sure the class still remembers them...I know I do...but to me...they are really slowly fading away from my life....

Same goes for the TIP ppl...it's been actually only 5-6 weeks since they went back....but it really does seems like they have left for quite some time....

It's not an issue of whether we are making effort to stay in touch with each other or not...or whether we are too busy with our own lives to keep in touch...because even with the best effort...things still happen this way....eventually...both parties will put in lesser effort...and before you know it...no more contact....
As time goes by...people just fade away from my life...some faster than others...and some....I can say have already disappeared totally from my life...I really wonder...10 years later...how many of the people I know now will I still be keeping in constant contact with...cause clearly, right now, I have lost almost all contact with people I know 10 years ago...
It's like throughout the past 10 years...some new people enter my life...some left...but what remains constant is no one stays...and anyone who knows me well would know how much I detest changes....so this is a rather saddening fact....

And the most ironic thing is I started to think about all these...in the midst of all these mugging and preparation of promos..when I'm supposed to be the busiest and most occupied with work...

Been mugging at KAP with wilson and everlyn till late at night for the past 3 days ...the good thing about mugging together is other than the fact that we can consult each other regarding concepts we were unsure about it...we can talk to each other or play dumb games when we're sick of mugging....which is a good form of recharge...cause obviously for me...I am not the type that can sit down for 6 hours straight and mug non-stop...

We talked about rather weird topics I would say...weird as in these are topics that we wouldn't talk about normally...like....cancer?? We were discussing about us getting cancers....and what we would do if we only have like a few months to live...

Then we realised it's kind of sad to know that you only have limited amt of time left...cause you may want to live those last few months to the fullest...doing things you wanted to do but haven't....but where are you going to find companions to do it with you...everyone's still got lives to live...where can you find the money...so probably you will end up living life as per normal...counting down your days...

Must be the stress from mugging that is causing us to talk about all these...

Played a really dumb game today too...PICTIONARY! And I won!! With 12 points! We took turns to draw and so on while the other 2 will guess...We all had some weird drawings..and guesses...

The most amazing guess I had...was during the round wilson drew...and the phrases are all about our class...drew a whiteboard and tables....I guessed "ee loong sleeping during lessons" and bingo! I got it!

The most atrocious drawing...or rather the most atrocious intepration of a word is of course by everlyn....she wanted us to guess "Beauty World"...so she drew Earth...which was fair enough since the word is "World"...

Then she have to draw something to let us guess "Beauty" and guess what she drew? A girl...wearing ear rings...and she keep emphasizing on the ear ring....when we couldn't guess it...she drew some castles....then she drew a dog....

Guess what?? The girl she was drawing was herself!! In other words...she was trying to imply that she exemplifies the word "Beauty"...wilson and I couldn't stop laughing when she told us...then the castles were supposed to mean Walt Disney...and the god's supposed to be the beast..."Beauty and the Beast"...ring ring!

As much as I hate mugging...it seems like I'm actually having some fun here and there...and i am actually having more proper conversations with my friends while mugging as compared to times when we're not mugging tgt....like with mw and yc...or wilson n ever....

So there's good in it afterall...

Friday, September 08, 2006

Intellectual Conversations

//Intellectual Conversations//

Ever thought about how control of prokaryotic and eukaryotic genome can be fitted into our everyday's conversation?? See HERE

Yesterday, during dinner at my house with my PW mates, wilson and ever...

wilson: i don't want to take that direct bus home...it's damn long...
ever: what's the bus number? oh wait...let me think...I think I can remember...5....5....5...
me: it's 51...
ever: oh...I thought it's 52...
wilson: there's 52 here??
me: no..but there's 53...
ever: *suddenly sits up and exclaims* p53...that gene thing...read it in cancer notes...

*all 4 of us stares at her....speechless...

Today, during lunch at Thai Noodle house with 9 other classmates....

mitch: should i eat the dessert huh??
me: well, you will have to look at the marginal benefit and the marginal cost of eating the dessert...is mb>mc...if it is then you eat lor........

*mitch stares at me in horror

I believe we have all sunk to a new low...

Saturday, September 02, 2006

These Are The Days

//These Are The Days//

I used to be able to blog those really long entries, heartfelt ones, even on the eve of a exam or a test, or even when I have a million things to do, I can still heck those and come blog when I feel like it...but somehow, recently, I can't seem to be able to do it...

So it doesn't really help, when I finally have something I really want to blog about...my mind refuses to let me to....I cannot let go of the fact that I've got 101 other things to do...so I put it off...thinking that I would blog about it some other times...but I've came to realise it doesn't work that way, once the moment is gone, the feeling is not there, you can't really blog about the same thing anymore...

Lots of entries that were supposed to exist didn't materialise in the end...kind of a pity I think...

So finally after such a long term..of doing god knows what...I had a rather relaxing 3 days...

These are the days that I've been missing,
give me the taste, give me the joy of summer wine
- Jamie Cullum (These are the days)

Went out with 4 groups of different people in the last 3 days...something unusual for a person like me...

Wednesday was a good day, only because it was sort of considered the last day of school since Thursday was meant for Teachers' Day celebration and Friday's a holiday. Went back for St John training finally after so long of wanting to go back...

It always feel great to meet the squad as a whole...played basketball with them...and it's just nice, 10 people, 5 vs 5...it's been ages since i played basketball with them...I seriously think it dates all the way back to sec 1...

I seriously suck...i suck in all the sports i play...squash...table tennis...badminton...basketball...
tennis (though i only played once)...but that day...it doesn't really matter, cause i was playing with them...and it's with them that i can feel at ease with everything i do, i won't fear playing too badly and getting judged by them...

It really feels good to be able to be 100% me...cause half the time..i will be worried about how others perceive me..and sometimes being too self-consicious can be really tiring at times...that's probably why I have more fun with the squad...

After training...we TRIED to buy presents for Miss Yap and Mr Loh...but ended up in Action City...and someone just randomly suggested "let's take a neoprint and give miss yap!" then everyone just agreed without hesitating! I think we all have the "since-we-want-to-crazy-mite-as-well-crazy-together-since-it-is-the-squad" mentality...

It's a pretty hilarous sight...13 guys trying to squeeze to take neoprint...and shouting and making lots of noise cause no one knows how to operate the machine...and it doesn't help when there's a very short time limit for all the choices we have to make regarding the design etc....and it certainly didn't help when it's all in Japanese....

We made so much noise that the sales person in Action City had to come and scold us...lol...but we're acting reall sua ku....and we tried to make it as gay as possible with all the stars...glitter...hearts...and so on....and here's our PROUD PRODUCT:



Since it was pretty late and all the shops are closing...we just quickly settled on a gift for Miss Yap and Mr Loh...but the neoprint taking experience is still pretty much the highlight of the night...

Teachers' Day Celebration was pretty uneventful...but going back to visit the secondary school teacher was actually more fun than I expected...I was pretty shocked that most of the 4A people met and visited the teachers together...I thought it would be more fragmented...kind of funny and ironic that we showed slightly more class spirit and unity now that we have graduated...

We were never a very crazy class...we have lots of crazy people...nice people..but for a class as a whole...we're never that united I think...the fact that we only have one pathetic class outing (with a turnout of 30/36) says it all...

Part of the blame lies with a lousy CMC with me as a lousy chairman...part of it lies with the disgusting huge numbers...how can a class bond truely as class with so many people...you can have big groups or rather big cliques of people bonding, etc...but it's really impossible to bond 36 people and make them like each other...so it ended up being big cliques of people or in this case I would use "factions" of people against each other...mutual hatred/dislike = no class spirit.

Though we may not be that united, but like Mdm Loke, she hasn't seen one class quite like ours...we (as in around 18+ of us) went around teacher-visiting in the staff room...met Mdm Loke whom I think we all really respect...she's really an awesome English teacher...I don't think I've seen one teacher quite like her too...she's got AMAZING memory too...I think the reason why Chinese High is full of cynics and sacarstic people is cause of teachers like her...haha...no one can beat her in terms of sacarsm...Ms Sunita will be on par I guess...but not anyone else...

Ms Sunita's still the same...and I really pity her that she has to mark so many MRPs...but at least she got no EOY papers to mark...and just like last time, we don't have much to say to Mrs Ooi...except a "Happy Teachers' Day"...we did tell her our Maths grade now...she must be so proud of all the 'A's and 'B's our class produced in the block test..except for maybe me...who told her "mrs ooi! I'm still failing my maths!"

Mrs Har's been promoted...now she got a bigger cuibicle...and more space for us to squeeze inside...to talk to her....she's still owning with her project groups in Projects Day...Chen Lao Shi is still a bit nutty like she was...fortunately she didn't get us to do the "shuai shuai shou" thing...

It's really a pity that miss ng...mr lam...and miss mok are all overseas now...easily 3 of the more memorable teachers we had...

Went J8 later and ate at Cafe Cartel after that with the 4A peeps...this is second class outing we had in these 3 years...and for the first time...we played zhong ji mi ma till someone (weixin) vomitted...probably cause we added butter with wasabi with lemon and lettuce...feel kind of bad...

Left at about 4pm with Kai Herng to meet up with the Taiwan Immersion peeps at Orchard...in the end...only 5 out of 20 ppl turned up..me, kai herng, bing qian, chio and chuan han...I guess everyone's busy...so the 5 of us ended up at Food Republic Food Court at Wisma....and we talked and talked and talked....about all sorts of stuff...gossips...our siblings...our taiwan buddies...etc.. and luckily bing qian brough his guitar, which entertained us for quite a while...

We left to dinner at Cine basement at around 7...and after that we continued talking...about horror movies...ghost stories and Chinese High and River Valley...etc...which creeped chio and chuan han out a lot I think...we just kept talking till around 10...which makes 6 hours of talking time! Amazing isn't it...

I wouldn't say it's super fun....cause we didn't do much...didn't go KBox, or movies, pool or anything...but I did enjoy myself a lot truely that afternoon...afterall..how often do you get to sit down...and just chit chat with your friends non-stop...not caring about anything else in the world...

Nowadays, everyone is so busy with all the things in the world...block tests...PW...and all the crap...that even sitting down and talking to friends become a luxury....so I would consider myself really lucky to have 6 full hours of that that day...add that to the unexpected gathering with the 4a peeps...I must say I like days like this...

These are the days of endless dreaming,
troubles of life are floatin away like a bird of flight
- Jamie Cullum (These are the days)

Not an exciting day...but definitely a fulfilling one...

Friday was a different kind of outing...went Klunch with ever and wilson...I was late as usual...haha...it was supposed to be mugging day for us...as in we were supposed to mug after Klunch...but of course...being us...of course we didn't.....we simply resist the temptation to play pool...

Paradiz is a great place actually...there's KBox that is pretty much deserted so there won't be much people and you won't be face with the problem of not having enough rooms and being turned away...there's pool...there's arcade that I think is pretty cheap...there's 90 cents LAN (though I don't play LAN)...and the foodcourt there is totally quiet and deserted...which makes it an ideal place for mugging!

A good mugging place for me is a place with food..and preferably LOTS of food...which is why I don't think fastfood restaurants are the best mugging places....of course there must be stuff like aircon..it must be quiet etc...and the food court at Paradiz fits the bill totally...

So you can imagine...we went Klunch from 11 to around 2.30...played pool from 3 to 4....mugged from 4 to 8.30...with occasional chit chatting here and there...what a well-balanced and fun-packed day! There's fun! There's mugging! That's how a student should live his/her life!

All 3 of us happened to be mugging bio...and doing the virus tutorial....I came to the conclusion that viruses lead pathetic life...all they do is to reproduce..reproduce and reproduce...though I don't think I'm in the best position to comment on their life...cause it's not as if I have a much more fulfilling life than them...

The good thing about mugging at Paradiz...at least for yesterday when we were there...was that at night, from around 7.30 onwards...there's a couple of lounge/bar singer (or whatever you call them) performing outside the food court..for the people eating at the restaurant...so at around 7+ to 8+...we could go out to listen to them sing (they have really soothing voices) when we're tired to looking at the viruses...

Had our dinner at the foodcourt at 8+, the Western Food stall there has the BEST MUSHROOM SAUCE! I melted on the spot when I saw the picture of the chicken chop with the mushroom sauce...after dinner...in view of the fact that ever mugged till she had fever...we decided to packed up...go out and just sit there and listen to the performances...a great end to a great day...

These are the days that bring new meaning,
I feel the stilness of the sun...and i feel fine.
- Jamie Cullum (These are the days)

We talked quite a fair bit about Singapore Idol and other general stuff too while sitting out there...as much as I don't think Joakim deserves to be in the top 5...I really think Mediacorp has went overboard with what they did...especially during the week Nurul was eliminated...it was so discriminating...that I was so hoping he would make the final 2...and piss all the judges and producers off...

I like chatting with them...cause with them...I feel like I can speak my mind freely...about almost anything..just like how i feel at ease with my squadmates...cause most of the time, with most other people, I always make a conscious effort to make sure I know what I'm talking about, so I don't say things that I'm not supposed to say...it's generally more relaxing with them...

My friend (yes, it's you again, I just don't like to publish your name out here..unless you don't mind) and I were discussing the other day...how we both have the tendancy to behave differently with differnt groups of people (which I think is the same case for most people)...he even said that he have the ability to change his personality to suit whoever he is with....

I don't quite agree with him on that though...cause I don't see how one can change his personality just like that...unless he/she is one big hypocrite...I think it's more of like with differnet people...different sides of your personality comes through....instead of you totally changing your personality to something that you are not...

With different people, I will tend to behave differently...just take the 4 outings for example...I can be totally talkative...and do all sorts of crazy stuff with st john squadmates...but with the 4a peeps...i am generally the wallpaper...the flower pot of the group...kind of invisible in the background...not giving much input most of the time...while with the TIP peeps..we share this common experience...and that always make having conversations much easier...and with ever n wilson....there's lots of common interests so there's always lots of talk about...

Am I talkative? Yes...Am I crazy? Yes...Am I quiet? Yes..It just depends on who I'm with...cause they will bring out the different sides of me...

What a long and boring entry...I think I have officially lose my ability to write anything remotely interesting after my 2-3 weeks hiatus of non-writing...