100th Entry

//100th Entry//

The title says it all.

Initially, I wanted to blog about my long long day on Racial Harmony Day, or the interesting convo I heard on the train today. I also told yc that I will dedicate one entry to Lingky, whom we all miss dearly. (no sacarsm whatsoever)

But I realised it's the 100th entry.

So I decided to make it more special by dedicating it to 3 dear friends of mine.

meng, cheng, terence. (in no order of merit, but I think subconsciously some name just happen to appear at the end...lol)

4 years ago, 4 f us happened to join the same CCA.

Come to think of it, I can't remember how we've gotten to be such good friends, afterall it's been 4+ years.

But I do remember the 4 of us ponning recrea together that day, haha, most of the people go for training, endure the tough training just for the recrea at the end of it. But at that time, 4 of us happened to pon recrea together, cause it's a really hot day, and I guess all of us were really tired after the training, that we rather slack at the side of the basketball court than to play and get more tired.

Seng Choon didn't make it compulsory for us to play, you can't have all 21 of us in the basketball court at the same time anyway, so the 4 of us started to crap with each other.

I still remember Stefanie Sun's "Start" album just came out, and "Gan Lan Shu" was her first single, and the four of us just started singing, and terence began making all the weird weird ugly ugly "dance" movements to fit the song.

And we were crapping, chatting, and Liu Xing Hua Yuan was very popular at that time. And H4 was born.

Later on, we decided that the name is too song and disgusting, so we wanted to change it. Out of the many horrendous names we came up with, "Pi sa Dan Ta" is the only one I can remember for some weird reason.

St John training suddenly became much more bearable after that.

We would spend most of the times before Friday training discussing what would happen today. We would talk about all sorts of stuff.

Then one fine day (it's Saturday), we were having PT, we ran past this red building, SIM. One of the four of us (I think it's cheng), commented that they sell great Peach Tea or juice or something. And being extremely thirsty at that time, we decided to come back after training to try the Peach Tea.

On the way there, we met Seng Choon, who decided to join us for lunch.

That was our first time eating at SIM. And no, they don't sell very nice Peach tea, it's just the normal Peach tea.

Since then, we started to eat together after Saturday training a lot, sometimes with other squadmates too. It's a pity that there are no more Sat trainings cause of the 5 day week.

I can't remember when was the first time we went out together. I think it's a movie, I remember going to the arcade. I think it's after a Sat training. I can't remember.

But one thing I know for sure, I enjoyed it.

I won't go to the extent to say that I'm very anti-social, but the truth is, in my 4 years in Chinese High, they are the first people I went out with together, and subsequently, I only go out with either the 3 of them, or other squadmates.

I also remember the quarrel I had with anyone from school was Cheng. I never really argued with any classmates or schoolmates before in primary school.

We argued over a trivial matter, I think it's about some token being stuck in the machine of the arcade, and cause we shared the token, he wanted to ask the person in charge to help us retrieve it while I don't, so we started arguing.

At that time, I kept a lot of things to myself, I don't talk to others much about how I feel, but with them, I feel very much at ease. I felt comfortable telling them a lot of stuff that I don't tell other people. Those stuff may not be a big deal, but I'm just not comfortable talking about it to other people.

During recess, we would meet at one of our classroom most of the time and hang out together. Most of the time, we don't go down to the canteen, cause of the atrocious queue and the short time we have. We would talk about NCOs, talk about seniors, talk about Lingky, talk about anything.

They basically pulled me through my sec 1 year.

Come sec 2, I was selected to join the comp team as reserve.

I hated it.

I remembered one of the Saturday, I thought there would be comp team training after morning training, so I formulated a "Pon afternoon comp training" plan. During one of the water breaks, I stuffed all my stuff into meng's bag. And I stuffed my empty bag into cheng's bag. Right after dismissal, I would quickly run to the college side toilet and hide. They will then pass me my stuff over there. This is to prevent any NCO from stopping me if they see me carrying a bag going.

Hilarous, just thinking about it makes me laugh at myself.

I hated comp team training so much cause I had so much difficulty keeping up with the sec 3s at that time, and training just ain't the same without them, it is so much more boring, and it got to a point that I decided to just quit.

Ironically, I ended up in comp team in sec 3...but this time round, all 3 of them are in the team too, together with Jeremy. It is just so different as compared to sec 2, mainly because of the company I have during training. They make training tolerable for me I guess.

I can seriously say that I would not have survived 4 years of SJAB if not for the 3 of them and the rest of the squad.

The 3 of them really made my secondary school life so much more memorable.

They influenced me a lot too, as all 3 of them watched Survivor and Amazing Race, I sort of started watching too and got hooked. And Cheng being the reality junkie, watched American Idol at that time too, and not long after he let me listen to some clips, I got hooked onto the show too. And then American Idol doesn't seem to be enough and we started watching Idol shows from other countries.

I refused to call them my best friend. Cause I don't think there's such a thing as "best" friend, it's kind of weird to rank your friends, best friends, good friends, etc, everyone means something to me, and it's very different for everyone.

Hence, I would prefer the term "close friend"

Ain't it good to know that you've got a friend
When people can be so cold
They'll hurt you, and desert you
And take your soul if you let them
Oh, but don't you let them

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend
- Carole King (You've Got A Friend)

*p.s The entry is mushy...the lyrics is really mushy...i'll never write such an entry again I guess...it took me 4 days to write this....cause there's such too much to say...and i don't even know where to start...

Nothing In Particular

//Nothing In Particular//

Don't really feel inspired to blog this few weeks. There are stuff that I want to write about, but the mood is just not there.

Tkd grading, National Comp, Friday night eating at Newton Circle, watching Pirates on Monday night, getting back most of the Block Test papers, the TIP rehearsals and the fact that the day that the Taiwanese are coming is really approaching soon, there are actually stuff going on in my life.

Lots of things other than the usual mundane stuff happening, but nothing really that striking and memorable...I guess this will be few weeks in my life that I will totally forget 10 years down the road....

Tkd grading, nothing interesting, same as last time, except this time round, I did with a whole bunch of really young kids, like 4-6 years old. Cause we do the pattern in groups of 6, and I just so happen to end up in a group of little kids. Unlike last time, I don't think I will fail this time round. No screwups = pass! Double promos...it depends on the judge's mood in my opinion, so I doubt I would get lucky 2 times in a row.

National comp, for me, the competition itself isn't really the highlight of the day. They got 3rd and 7th, not as good as we hoped, but good effort nonetheless. Competitions are like that, you may train very very hard, but if you don't step up on the actual day, it's as good as nothing. Not everyone can do that, that's what seperates the champions from the rest cause I believe everyone trained hard, they step up when they are required too. I guess that's what happen.

The dinner at Macs after the comp is the highlight of the day for me though. To quote xin yi, "squadmates are the best". I don't think I'm the only one feeling this way, and I'm glad for that. A squad of 21...now 20 after Shengjia went Australia, really hoped that we can have some overseas trip or something at the end of this year, even it's just going to someone's house in Malaysia. The mass convo with Shengjia was hilarous, from the convo itself, it seems like he already changed a lot, much to our speculation and expectation..haha...for one, he types in PERFECT ENGLISH now. And I'm freakin' envious of him. He drove in a valley! How cool is that? And he's building his own house....

Moving from squadmates to classmates...went to Newton Circus to eat with mitch, ever and wilson last friday night. We all LOVE FOOD. Quote again..this time from everlyn "i love fridays! i can waste time away without feeling guilty" which is so true. Basically wasted time all the way from 4pm to 8pm waiting for her interact stuff to end. Maybe not really wasted, since I managed to learn how to play "Yu Jian" with one hand on piano...and since I never had any music BG and the only instrument I ever learnt was recorder in primary school, I'm pretty proud with myself...

And went to watch "Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest" on Monday night. Again, wasted time from 3.30 to 6+ waiting for Yuming and Wilson's Bio Olympia talk to end. Good movie I thought, but didn't really leave a very deep impact on me, it disappeared from my mind about half hour after watching it, unlike "Cars"...movie ended around 11pm, reached home at about 11.45pm...fortunately didn't get bitched by my mum other than a "ming tian bu yong du shu huh? (tomorrow no school huh?)

Now for the not so pleasant stuff...block test results...

Bio - Unknown
Chem - U: 38/100
Maths - U: 39/100
Econs - B: 67/100
GP - B3: 67/100

Econs...16/25 for essay and 22/30 for case study...I heard it's essay 60% and case study 40%, hence 67/100, if it's 50 50, it would be 69/100...close to a "A"...the cloest I will ever get I guess..

GP is another pleasant surprise..33/50 for essay and 34/50 for compre...both are the highest grade I ever got for essay and compre. So so satisfied with my compre...thought the fact that I didn't finish my AQ will cost me lots of marks, and it did, 5/10 for AQ...but the rest...especially symmary pulled the marks up...

Chem and Maths are disappointing, and those are the first 2 content subjects I got to know my marks. Double blow. Never would I imagine my Chem to be worse than my Maths, never. But things happen.

Amount of effort put into studying the subjects is really proportionate to the marks this time round, since Econs is the only subject I fully studied all the chapters, I don't expect my Bio grades to be much better than my Maths and Chem, but I definitely hope it's better, since I did put in that little bit of extra effort.

That taiwan guy I'm hosting is coming really soon, and I can feel the excitement already. Seriously, this is the only thing that I'm really looking forward to this term. And the indian dance practice ain't that bad too, it's actually quite fun. Haha.

10 more days.

Funny how I titled this entry "Nothing in particular" and ended up blogging about a lot of stuff. I hate to just recount the events, cause it's boring to write...but I just did, oh well...

I have been thinking about it, I think I should revert back to my stone-like personality...

10 Ways To Improve The School Canteen

//10 Ways To Improve The School Canteen//

I ponned the second half of entrepreneurship day. Expected CS. But nope, Mr Pang decided to get creative this time. The punishment is to write a 500 word essay, and the title is "10 ways to improve the school canteen". Since I wrote it, I might as well post it here:

I used to love to come to the college side canteen to eat when I was studying in Chinese High because the variety of food offered by the college canteen is so much more diverse than that of the high school canteen. However, with the closure of a lot of stalls and the addition of a lot of new stalls recently, the standard of the canteen dropped significantly. Because of that, a lot of students decided to seek alternatives for the below average food in College canteen (such as High School canteen, café at SIM, Coronation, etc) Hence, I proposed these 10 ways to improve the school canteen.

#1: Decrease the rent for stall holders
One of the many reasons why students do not like to eat in the College canteen is the high price. Yes, compared to foodcourt food, it is definitely much cheaper, but compared to a lot of other schools, or even the high school canteen, it is considered quite expensive. Take “Asian Delight” for example, the price is pretty unreasonable for the shockingly small portions. The “Cai Fan” stall also charges the students higher than the high school canteen “Cai Fan” stalls do.

Hence in view of this, I strongly believe that the stalls should lower prices. It would be a win-win situation for both the students and for the stall vendors. Students can enjoy the food at a lower price, and the stall vendors can enjoy better business.

To achieve that, the school will have to lower the rent. By lowering rent, the cost of production would decrease, and this decrease in cost of production would cause the supply to increase (supply curve shifts right). Increase in supply will cause the market price to drop, and at the same time causes the quantity demanded to increase. As canteen food are very price elastic (due to the large number of substitutes), the quantity demanded will increase more than proportionately than the decrease in price, hence total revenue would increase for the stall vendors.

#2: Bring back the favourites
As I mentioned, the college canteen used to be so much of a higher standard. Hence, to improve the canteen, the easiest way would be to bring back the favourite stalls of many students and staff. The orange plate stall that sells fried carrot cake (now the Japanese Food stall) comes to mind immediately. It serves delicious yet cheap food ($1.20 per plate if my memory does not fail me). The noodle stall that sold fantastic laksa ought to be brought back too. Even the Muslim stall is better than a lot of new stalls now. The Ramily burger was one of the best finger food sold in the Hwa Chong canteen.

#3: Increase variety
If the plan to bring back previous stalls fails, then it is about time to ask the current stalls to improve. Take the Japanese food stalls for example, they only sell a few types of Japanese food, compared to RJC Japanese food stall that sells at least twice as much type of Japanese food. Hence, they should try to increase the variety of food they sell.

#4: Sell what you say you would
I also strongly believe that they should sell what they state they would. Look at the “Asian Delight” stall, exactly what “Asian” delights are they selling? Instead, what I see is western food. Look at the Western food stall now, yes they do sell Western food, but why are they selling Nasi Lemak too? Yes, I did mention that they should increase the variety of food, but when I said that I meant to increase the variety of food within the limit of what you are selling (like Jap food, western food, etc).

#5: Presentation is important
Sometimes, it is not just about the food, it is also about how you present your food. Styrofoam bowls and plates hardly do any favours to make your food more desirable. I would really appreciate it if we were served with proper plates and bowls, etc.

#6: Eliminate stalls that really cannot make it
R&B Food Hut – you do not call a bowl of noodle soup with chilli oil laksa. I wonder how this stall got the permit to sell in the canteen in the first place. I suggest that more stringent selection to take place so that such unfortunate incidents like R&B Food Hut somehow getting the permit to sell in the canteen to happen again.

#7: Improve the canteen atmosphere
Like I mentioned, it is not always about the food. The dining environment is very important too. How are we supposed to enjoy our meals when it is always so warm, there are always birds flying around, and you always can’t find a place to sit during peak hours? Hence, I propose that more fans to be installed in the canteen. Air conditioning would be better, however I understand that it would increase the overall costs, which would in turn transferred to the stall vendor through higher rent, and to us through higher price, hence more fans will do. It would be very advisable to increase the size of the canteen. The school population is increasing, and I can see this trend to continue for the next few years, hence a bigger canteen is definitely necessary.

#8: Shame the worst stalls
A vote should be carried out monthly via EMB (or any other means) to determine the worst stall of the month. If Stall A is the worst stall for January, it will NOT be eligible for the votes in February. The worst stall of the month will be labeled. This can prevent unsuspecting victims from buying from that stall (I feel so bad for the high school boys who bought from the R&B Food Hut the other day). It can also prevent patrons of that stall to buy from it. Hence, with so few costumers for that month, the stall will be spurred to increase the quality of the food and service. They may think of promotions to attract costumers too.

#9: Increase the efficiency
One of the problems of the current canteen is the lack of efficiency in many stalls. They are quite slow in serving the food and so on, and this causes long queues to occur, causing the already small canteen to be even more crowded. Hence, a time limit should be imposed to each stalls for serving the food, if they exceed the time limit, a 50% discount would have to be given.

#10: Transfer of resource
If all else fails, I highly recommend the school to shut down the canteen and use the maintenance fee of the canteen to charter buses for free to various eating places around the school, like the High School Canteen, SIM, Beauty World, Bukit Timah Plaza, Bukit Timah food centre, Adam Road food centre, etc.

AND FOUND

//AND FOUND//

And the wallet was found.

I really can't seem to lose this wallet, lost it in Hougang when I was in sec 3, and 3 months later it wind up at Jurong Police Post.

Zeqi/Yu Ming found it under the chain in audi ytd after CT session, and brought it to the General Office. And today, the first thing they asked me when I came school was "Is there any money in the wallet you lost" and once I said no, they told me it's in the General Office.

So it's found! Woohoo!

On a sadder note, my favourite guy and girl from Canadian Idol 4 are both eliminated tonight. They just missed the top 10 by this tiny bit.

Sad but true.

LOST

//LOST//

Lost my wallet today!

Not the one with my EZLink, Tapz Card, and all the funny funny stuff that I got from my angel as Vdae gift.

It's the one that I've been using since primary 5 till Feb this year.

As I'm collecting money for Maths TYS this few days, AND keeping money for Taiwan Immersion program (TIP), I decided to bring an extra wallet so as not to mix up my own money, class money and TIP money. So I used this old wallet to keep the class Maths TYS money, and ALL the receipts for TIP.

In case you're from 06S71, and are freaking out right now cause you thought I lost ALL the money too, rest assured it didn't happen. I already paid for the Maths TYS this afternoon, hence there's zero dollars in the wallet when it got lost.

Which leads me to the point: I wouldn't even have lost it if I did not go to pay for the TYS! BOTH the receipts and the money WOULD NOT be gone! Cause it would have been in my bag and not in my pocket (i put it in my pocket after paying in the bookshop), and I strongly believed that it dropped out of my pocket somehow (how can it not drop when there are 2 wallets in 1 pocket).

But I didn't even know where I dropped it, in audi, in the bookshop, at the class bench, on the bus? I already called the bus interchange to ask them let me know if someone found an empty wallet with 4 receipts inside. I also got a friend's friend to check the bookshop too. No luck yet.

I guess I won't be as lucky as I was the last time I lost this old wallet. The last time I lost it (in hougang), I reclaimed it back at a police post at Jurong 3 months later.

And the receipts are really important.

They are worth 335 bucks, 80 bucks for shawls, 38 bucks for fabric to make sari top, 172 bucks for sari tops, 45 bucks for accessories. June Yang fork out the money so that we can pay for all these stuff first, and we are supposed to pass her the receipts so that she can claim money from school, and now I lost the receipts. Great.

Fortunately, the 80 bucks shawls and 172 bucks sari tops' receipts are handwritten, so I can probably go back to the shops and BEG the owner to write me another receipt. I'm gonna BEG the shop owner to help me cheat too by writing receipts for the accesories and fabric too.

Best thing is if I can find the wallet.

Went RJC today for TIP rehearsal. It beats HC in size (the college side so tiny compared to RJC), food in canteen (with the closure of so many stalls, HC canteen sucks big time, it used to have nice food, like when I was in sec 2-3, not anymore), uniform (HC uniform makes gd-looking ppl looks uglier, and ugly people looks even more ugly).

BUT I can proudly says HC beats RJC in one aspect.

DOU HUA

RJC's canteen's dou hua sucks big time, looks like it's been kept overnight, a bit nua nua like that, the syrup thing is totally not sweet, and it's so not cold when it's supposed to be.

Met 3 ppl I knew too.

A primary school classmate (haven't been in contact for years), a secondary school classmate (for 4 years somemore), and someone I just know this year.

Pri sch classmate: I was so shocked to see him at first, I was like "omg", cause I really have not seen him in a long long time. Didn't chat that much anyway, he told me he almost signed up for TIP, lol...

Sec sch classmate: I didn't see him, but he saw me, was really excited to see him, and he just proves the point that HC uniform is ugly. Showed us the way to J8 too.

Smo I just knew this year: Saw him, but he was talking to his friend, plus I don't know him that well, so decided not to go say hi, since he might not even recognise me. But later he came say hi while talking on the phone, and I was sort of in a daze cause I was discussing with Aik Leng all the possible places I might have lost my wallet.

You've Got A Friend

//You've Got A Friend//

When you're down and troubled
And you need some loving care
And nothing, nothing is going right
Close your eyes and think of me
And soon I will be there
To brighten up even your darkest night
- Carole King (You've Got A Friend)

Some time ago, a friend of mine was complaining to me about his class, how he don't feel close to his class at all, how he don't have much close friends in the class and so on...and while chatting with him, I came up with a list of "Types Of Friends We Have", which actually translates to "Types of Friends I Have" since different people have different ways when it comes to interpersonal relationships...

I was actually trying to console him by telling him that it's impossible to be close to all your friends, it depends on the chemistry and whether the 2 of you click...

Type 1: "Hi-Bye" Friend
A better word would be acquaintance. These are the people whom you will wave or smile at them when you see them when you're in better mood, and will pretend not seeing them when you're in a bad mood. People falling under this category are mainly ex-classmates that you didn't talk more than 10 sentence with before, and your friends' friends whom you know exists, but hardly talks.

Type 2: "Big-group" Friend
These are the people who you normally hang out with only if it's a big group thing. In the big group, you usually don't speak more than 10 sentence with him each time. If you happen to sit opposite him during lunch/dinner outings, you will tend to talk to people on his left or right more than to him. When you do talk to him, topics such as "How's the food?", "Have you done your tutorial?", "What do you think of this tutor?", etc are the usual topics, and one word or short answers are to be expected. If somehow you end up on the same bus as him on the way home, the awkward silence may just kill both of you.

Type 3: "Something-in-common" Friend
These people are similar to type 2, not very close, BUT difference is with type 2, you talked about weather, with this type of people, you talked about the something in common between the two of you, for eg two of you went for same camp/attachment/course or both of you happen to like this show or something. The conversation tends to last longer, with longer replies, and when one topic fails, another would come up. If somehow you end up on the same bus as him on the way home, you would probably die of killing too much brain cells to think of topics to talk about, when you exhausted the list of topics you have. (but for me, I won't even attempt most of the time)

Type 4: "Online" Friend
This won't apply to a lot people I guess, but these are the people that you will tend to chat a lot online, but will have nothing to chat about face-to-face. This kind of thing usually happens when both parties are reserved and quiet and have difficulty expressing himself.

Type 5: "Yo Brother" Friend
These are the people you will go "Hey dude!" when you see him in school, and the 2 of you can basically talk crap with each other the whole day, but the things you talked about as I mentioned are purely crap, all superficial talk, never will you talk about person stuff...and once school holiday starts or once graduated, he will be very very fast off your radar.

Type 6: "Activity" Friend
People whom you will go out and do stuff with, like KBox, Mahjong, play sports, etc (since these stuff are not everyone's cup of tea). Other than going out and doing stuff with them, personal stuff are seldom talked about.

Type 7: "Close" Friend
This is a tricky one. If he shows characteristics from type 3 to type 6, he may very well be your clsoe friend. But close friends are the people you will never have awkward silence with (cause the silence just wouldn't feel awkward). Close friends are the people you will not mind doing stupid stuff with. (but this vary, some people are juz so thick skin that they don't mind doing stupid things in front of everyone). Close friends are people are the first person you think of when you want to rant at something. Close friends are people who will definitely be there when you desperately needs help. Close friends are people whom you hope to see their greeting sms on birthdays, but won't feel mad if they forgot to send you one. And for me, close friends are the people that I dare to say no to. Let's say someone ask me to go out, and I don't want to, I would squirm and find all sorts of excuses (cause that's just me), but for close friends, I could just say no I don't want to.

On a totally random note, I realised for me, good things come in 4.

I give up, there are just so many types of people, so many types of friends, and all these overlaps. I mean there are people I know now, that I may be quite close too, talked about all sorts of stuff, but don't expect to keep in contact after graduation. There are people I don't talk to as much, but expects to keep in touch in years to come.

Anyway, since I'm on this topic, let me talk about 2 other related stuff, class chalet, and st john nat competition.

Class chalet on Mon to Tue, turnout was, how can I describe it? sad? bad? (funny how both ends with ad) It feels terribly awful when 5 of us were sitting in the foodcourt having dinner and another class from HC of around 20 people walks in to have dinner too.

The chalet was so cheap and it's such a great deal, but the number of people that turned up are fewer than I can count with my fingers. Wheras for the other class, what they EACH have to pay for 3d2n is more than what everlyn paid in TOTAL for the 5d4n, yet so many people turned up.

I guess I just have to convince myself that many in the class take Chinese. And that it's very last minute thing, so they all have fantastic plans for post-blocks activities already.

I'm not pissed or mad or anything by the way, if you think I am, from reading the above paragraphs. I just feel that it's very wasted. Nevermind, it's not like we are going to have a class outing or chalet anytime soon anyway. I guess I should just rely on having a few type 7 friends rather than having a whole bunch of type 2 and 3 friends. I have more fun that way.

St John nat comp, it's tomorrow! I'm really excited for them, hope they do well. Meng told me that around 15 people from the squad are going (out of 20 left in Singapore). I just feel a sense of happiness. Lol, don't ask me why. I think the fact that we all still care about St John makes me happy. Maybe we don't really care, but we bother to go down and show some support for the juniors at the very least. And it's not like only the comp team members in the squad care, those who weren't in comp team last time are going down too, as I quote from minghao's nic "TCHS SJAB for DOUBLE CHAMP"...well...a bit impossible, but as long as they tried, I'm happy.

Damn tkd grading for falling on the same day.

Oh, and I know the name of the taiwan student I'm hosting! Kendall You Zhi Qun. He's skinny! 28 inch waist.

The End

//The End//

Before anything else, let me declare the end of block test finally after a long gruelling week. The word "gruelling" is very misleading, cause it made it sounds like I mugged so hard for the tests.

The only paper I'm fully prepared for is Econs, but it is also one of the most unpredictable subjects for me cause I never know how well/bad I did for my essay, so it's not a sure pass for me.

Something that's definite though, is my Maths and Chemistry. Double kill in one day.

I spent my entire wednesday muging maths with yc at Sumo House (with free flow of green tea!) only to fail it the next day, and I do mean fail when I say it, cause it's not possible to pass a test when the marks for the questions you left blank is more than half the total marks.

And Chemistry, I started studying on Wed night at 9pm (started as in never even read the notes at all throughout the hols), and fell asleep at 11pm. Which means I only studied 2 chapters, organic chem and alkanes. I went to school with 6 topics left to go..and it's really a sad thing, cause Chemistry paper, is not that hard in the sense that there are lots of questions that you can score if you studied. So basically I screwed up those questions. Tuff questions, I can't possibly not screw them up. Extremely easy questions, my only hope is screwed too when I misread the question and did the whole question wrongly. It's the "Identify A and B" type of qns then the rest of the questions will be based on A and B, I actually went to identify C and D...no wonder fluorine and neon don't form oxides...

Biology, surprisely, may be my only hope at passing, and no, before you start thinking I studied hard to Bio, let me reassure you that it's cause what was tested was what I studied, what I didn't studied happen not to be tested.

So it's the end of the block test. Well, it's really the end. It is not impossible for me to fail all my subjects, with 2 confirmed down and 2 unpredictable papers, I wouldn't actually be surprised if I fail all 4 subjects. But please don't let me fail GP! I know I didn't finish my AQ, but I thought I did ok in my essay...I don't think I can take the blow of failing literally EVERYTHING.

It's kind of disgusting that I am typing so much about block test which is already over anyway. I think a part of me just can't get over it. Must get over it.

Chalet tomorrow...it's a sad sad thing...