//Quiet Day//
I really should be studying for Bio SPA now, since it's really important cause it's counted as part of our A level results for Bio...but I just have this sudden urge to blog, like I always do when I'm supposed to be mugging or doing something important. I had a urge to blog during Promos last year, but right after promos, blogging doesn't seem so appealing anymore.
Been feeling quite depressed this few days...maybe depressed is not the right word...it's just a mega fluctuation of emotions everyday...feeling high, feeling sad, feeling bored...
Why do things have to change
I am a brushstroke on a big canvas
That's not by me
- Quiet Day (George)
It really sucks to see changes happening around me, beyond my control. I really do feel like "I'm a brushstroke on a big canvas, that's not by me"....it feels as if I totally have no control over my life...like I'm just part of a painting that's painted by someone else.
It sucks not being in control, but being in control sucks too. I just spent my days sometimes wishing I have more power over my emotions, not allowing the actions or words of others affect mentally, but it's not possible for me...i am just that weak, and sometimes I wished I have more control of how I want to live my life...
And it's funny how I absolutely dread the feeling of being in control, cause I hate to make decisions for others, to the point that I dread making suggestions sometimes. Maybe I should really isolate myself.
Self-isolation. (somehow this reminds me of "wilsoooon!" cause Miss Lim always talk about the movie Castaway when she mentioned "wilsoooon!" ok...a bit no link I know)
I think I can classify myself as being in a weird mood now.
Really weird.
I remembered when we played the adjective game during CT session, I stepped forward when she mentioned temperamental. How true. The slightest and insignificant thing can spoil my day, but I can feel indifferent about major important stuff.
Seriously, there hasn't been much exciting stuff in my life lately, so the ramblings above isn't about anything in particular, it's just everything that has been going on, school, family, relationships with people...
To look past this hour, this day
It's exciting but it is
too big to imagine for me
- Quiet Day (George)
I am really living my life, day by day now...as in I don't dare to think too far into the future, cause it's really a scary thought when I did think about what's gonna happen by the time this year ends...so I'm just trying to live in the present, enjoy the moment (though I don't really seem to be doing so at this very moment) and just hope times don't pass so fast this year.
Kind of weird right, I'm complaining about my life now, yet I know very well myself that I don't want the year to end so fast.
That is why I hope its okay
For me just be now
I just need to have a quiet day
Watch things fade away
I think I'll just sit here
And watch you all go by
- Quiet Day (George)
I really like this song "Quiet Day" from "George" (some Australian band), it has a therapatic effect on me, especially on days when I'm like extremely busy, or when I'm feeling really down, cause it provides an outlet for me to really imagine myself in that scenario in the song...a quiet day...
It's on such days that I really crave for a quiet day...to just let it all go, not just all the work, but all the emotional baggages and so on too...how nice would it be to be totally free from all the crap in life...
Ok, I should stop living in my little fantasy and get back to reality.
Bio SPA, here I come.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Friday, January 19, 2007
Flag The Bus Early Campaign
//Flag The Bus Early Campaign//
"One of the most common complaints made to the SBS Transit customer hotline is that Bus Captains drive off from the bus stop -- without picking up passengers.
But it's not always that the Bus Captain is at fault. Investigations, including eyewitness accounts, have shown that commuters are sometimes to blame as well – they don't flag the bus early enough and wait till the bus is moving off before waving frantically."
- SBS Website
While I agree with what was written up there, and I admit that I was guilty of that sometimes, I never get pissed with the driver when such incidents happened. I only get pissed with myself for not flagging the bus in time.
BUT when there are a lot of buses at the bus stop, and your bus is the one right at the end, such that you don't get a chance to flag for it, neither can you walk towards it since it's so far away that it's not even in the bus bay yet, you have the right to be pissed at the driver if the bus left just like that, without even checking to see if there's anyone at the bus stop who wants to board the bus.
You have even more rights to be angry if this happened to you twice in 2 weeks, and it didn't even happened during peak hour.
It's when such things happened to you that you would feel that campaigns like "Flag The Bus Early Campaign" is a total joke, and is totally a waste of resource. Such resources can be used to upgrade some of the non-aircon bus to aircon ones, or to increase the frequency of buses during peak periods, or hire better drivers that have more common sense.
By the way, if such things happen to you, DO NOT HESITATE to feedback this to SBS or TIBS.
For SBS, you can send them a feedback form at this URL: http://feedbk.sbstransit.com.sg/INTCFMS.NSF/internet?openform
Alternatively, you can call up their customer service hotline at 1800-287 2727.
To be more dramatic, send them a complaint letter at:
205 Braddell Road, Singapore (579701)
"One of the most common complaints made to the SBS Transit customer hotline is that Bus Captains drive off from the bus stop -- without picking up passengers.
But it's not always that the Bus Captain is at fault. Investigations, including eyewitness accounts, have shown that commuters are sometimes to blame as well – they don't flag the bus early enough and wait till the bus is moving off before waving frantically."
- SBS Website
While I agree with what was written up there, and I admit that I was guilty of that sometimes, I never get pissed with the driver when such incidents happened. I only get pissed with myself for not flagging the bus in time.
BUT when there are a lot of buses at the bus stop, and your bus is the one right at the end, such that you don't get a chance to flag for it, neither can you walk towards it since it's so far away that it's not even in the bus bay yet, you have the right to be pissed at the driver if the bus left just like that, without even checking to see if there's anyone at the bus stop who wants to board the bus.
You have even more rights to be angry if this happened to you twice in 2 weeks, and it didn't even happened during peak hour.
It's when such things happened to you that you would feel that campaigns like "Flag The Bus Early Campaign" is a total joke, and is totally a waste of resource. Such resources can be used to upgrade some of the non-aircon bus to aircon ones, or to increase the frequency of buses during peak periods, or hire better drivers that have more common sense.
By the way, if such things happen to you, DO NOT HESITATE to feedback this to SBS or TIBS.
For SBS, you can send them a feedback form at this URL: http://feedbk.sbstransit.com.sg/INTCFMS.NSF/internet?openform
Alternatively, you can call up their customer service hotline at 1800-287 2727.
To be more dramatic, send them a complaint letter at:
205 Braddell Road, Singapore (579701)
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
School
//School//
I realised my life has always revolved around school.
Ms Lim was asking us whether we remember the things we did when we were 3 years old during GP lessons, cause we were talking about Singapore education system and somehow, the topic on Kindergarden came up...
Then I tried to recall my life when I was 3 years old, and what keeps popping into my mind was the first day in school in Kindergarden...
I remembered certain "scenes" particularly clearly, like how I was sitting there with all the other kids, with parents crowding around the classroom...
The next thing I can remember was we did colouring that day. We were supposed to colour the elephant black, so I did, and in fact I was one of the first ones in class to finish. But I accidentally coloured the eyes too, so what's lying in front of me in the colouring book was a pile of black mess. I looked around, realising all the other kids are still colouring, then I looked back at my black mess, and I freaked out. I don't know why, but I just feel like "Shit, I screwed up on my first day of school already." and I started crying.
Like really loudly and attention seeking kind.
And I remembered I kept crying, and the next scene I remembered was the classroom was empty (with no kids that is), and my mum and aunt were there with my teacher (Miss Ang!) trying to comfort me (who was still crying).
Kind of freaky how I can remember my first day of school in Kindergarden in such great details.
It's even freakier for me to realise that I cannot remember anything about my life before I went Kindergarden. So in other words, the "earliest memory" I have about my life was my first day of school in Kindergarden.
See, I told yout my life revolves around school.
I also remembered my first day of school in primary one and secondary one, but ironically I cannot really remember to great details what happened during my first day in Hwa Chong JC, except for the fact that there were a lot a lot of academic talks, and that my OG played Whacko for ice breakers. What I do remember about my orientation in Hwa Chong wasn't the games we played or the programme organised by the council, it was all the times spent learning and rehearsing the dance with the class for the Campfire performance.
Speaking of class, I was really excited about meeting the Junior Class. But now that we've met them, the excitement is gone. Back to the mundane and monotonous life. Nevermind, there's still campfire to look forward to. Some of them (or maybe most?) looked really sad to be in that class...maybe cause most of them don't know each other very well at all, yes even the Chinese High guys look like they don't know each other at all.
Hopefully this will change with time, it doesn't really affect us that much, but for me, if I were to suffer in class that I don't like for 2 years, I would die, so I think it's better to make the best out of it and try to be more enthusiastic about stuff.
Back to what I was saying, my life really revolves around school.
I don't have much friends outside of school, all my friends are either primary school, secondary school or JC friends. I don't have church friends, neighbours around the same age, I'm not close to my cousin, so basically, all my friends are met through school (as in ones that I still keep in contact with that is). It's really sad and pathetic.
And I found myself most comfortable talking about school-related stuff. Gossips about teachers, schoolmates, talk about subjects, how I hate Maths, and so on. All of them are school related. Probably cause I talk to people in school mainly anyway.
I need to reflect.
But I would probably spend the time catching up with my ever lagging studies, or the probable thing I would do with my time is to idle it away.
I would try to sleep before 12 everyday from now onwards! Sleeping at 3+ almost everyday over the past 3 years have reduced my health level so much that I would get sick once a month. (Don't ask me why I sleep at 3+ everyday, I just idle my time away.) Though it's not some major illness, I'm tired of getting a sore throat, followed by a blocked nose and a cough almost every month.
So since the doctor advised me to sleep early, sleep early I shall!
I just realised the last few paragraphs have totally nothing to do with what I wrote in this entry at all...
I realised my life has always revolved around school.
Ms Lim was asking us whether we remember the things we did when we were 3 years old during GP lessons, cause we were talking about Singapore education system and somehow, the topic on Kindergarden came up...
Then I tried to recall my life when I was 3 years old, and what keeps popping into my mind was the first day in school in Kindergarden...
I remembered certain "scenes" particularly clearly, like how I was sitting there with all the other kids, with parents crowding around the classroom...
The next thing I can remember was we did colouring that day. We were supposed to colour the elephant black, so I did, and in fact I was one of the first ones in class to finish. But I accidentally coloured the eyes too, so what's lying in front of me in the colouring book was a pile of black mess. I looked around, realising all the other kids are still colouring, then I looked back at my black mess, and I freaked out. I don't know why, but I just feel like "Shit, I screwed up on my first day of school already." and I started crying.
Like really loudly and attention seeking kind.
And I remembered I kept crying, and the next scene I remembered was the classroom was empty (with no kids that is), and my mum and aunt were there with my teacher (Miss Ang!) trying to comfort me (who was still crying).
Kind of freaky how I can remember my first day of school in Kindergarden in such great details.
It's even freakier for me to realise that I cannot remember anything about my life before I went Kindergarden. So in other words, the "earliest memory" I have about my life was my first day of school in Kindergarden.
See, I told yout my life revolves around school.
I also remembered my first day of school in primary one and secondary one, but ironically I cannot really remember to great details what happened during my first day in Hwa Chong JC, except for the fact that there were a lot a lot of academic talks, and that my OG played Whacko for ice breakers. What I do remember about my orientation in Hwa Chong wasn't the games we played or the programme organised by the council, it was all the times spent learning and rehearsing the dance with the class for the Campfire performance.
Speaking of class, I was really excited about meeting the Junior Class. But now that we've met them, the excitement is gone. Back to the mundane and monotonous life. Nevermind, there's still campfire to look forward to. Some of them (or maybe most?) looked really sad to be in that class...maybe cause most of them don't know each other very well at all, yes even the Chinese High guys look like they don't know each other at all.
Hopefully this will change with time, it doesn't really affect us that much, but for me, if I were to suffer in class that I don't like for 2 years, I would die, so I think it's better to make the best out of it and try to be more enthusiastic about stuff.
Back to what I was saying, my life really revolves around school.
I don't have much friends outside of school, all my friends are either primary school, secondary school or JC friends. I don't have church friends, neighbours around the same age, I'm not close to my cousin, so basically, all my friends are met through school (as in ones that I still keep in contact with that is). It's really sad and pathetic.
And I found myself most comfortable talking about school-related stuff. Gossips about teachers, schoolmates, talk about subjects, how I hate Maths, and so on. All of them are school related. Probably cause I talk to people in school mainly anyway.
I need to reflect.
But I would probably spend the time catching up with my ever lagging studies, or the probable thing I would do with my time is to idle it away.
I would try to sleep before 12 everyday from now onwards! Sleeping at 3+ almost everyday over the past 3 years have reduced my health level so much that I would get sick once a month. (Don't ask me why I sleep at 3+ everyday, I just idle my time away.) Though it's not some major illness, I'm tired of getting a sore throat, followed by a blocked nose and a cough almost every month.
So since the doctor advised me to sleep early, sleep early I shall!
I just realised the last few paragraphs have totally nothing to do with what I wrote in this entry at all...
Monday, January 01, 2007
2007
//2007//
I guess I better blog before 1st Jan 2007 is over.
I've been going out the past 2 days...Saturday it was with wilson ever and pauline...to sing and mug...and Sunday it was with the TIPpers...
It has been long since I last saw my classmates...I guess I was being a little irritating with my constant "In taiwan...blah blah blah..." talk but I just couldn't help it...apparently I'm still not back yet...
All sorts of things remind me of Taiwan...the basketball machine in arcade (which you can see EVERYWHERE from night market to arcade)...the doll-catching machine (which we love to play there..esp the yu cheng peeps cause of the tips we got from this master when we went for the recording of Guess^3)....
And coincidentally...when we walked from Suntec to Marina Square, I saw Conrad Hotel...the place where we had the Welcome Dinner when they were here...I've been to Suntec and Marina Square lots of time after they went back..but I never really did see Conrad Hotel again cause I always choose to walk via Citylink...just brings back memories...it seems like they came so long ago...
Sunday was an outing with the Taiwan Immersion peeps at Dhoby Ghaut...chio, kai herng, yuxiang, bing qian, alvin, chuan han and xinwei turned up...we wanted to catch a movie...but couldn't get tickets for the movie we wanted...so we ended up singing at KBox at Paradiz from 4.30 to 9...
After dinner...we just sat around talking at Istana Park...sharing "stories" would be the more appropriate term I think...at around 11..we decided to proceed to City Hall area to see the fireworks...and once again...I saw Conrad Hotel while walking to Esplanade...
The fireworks was...just a really special moment...
It wasn't like spectacular or really impressive...but it just felt so special...
I remember when the Taiwanese came to Singapore, we got to see fireworks display too when we were at Marina Bay...and I very clearly remembered my thoughts at that moment...
It's so beautiful, yet short-lived...
We were all enjoying the beautiful fireworks at that time...but before we know it, it's over...
So yesterday...at Esplanade...while watching the fireworks...the exact same thoughts were going through my head...except that I realised something else this time round...
Because it's short-lived, it's even more beautiful...
I learn to treasure it more...cause I know the fireworks display will be over soon...and that's what makes it even more beautiful...
36 days of TIP is just like fireworks...short but beautiful...
While watching the fireworks...I was wondering...is my buddy watching fireworks too? Since there's no time difference between Singapore and Taiwan...they must be celebrating New Year at that instant too I guess...
And it's really a great to end 2006 and start 2007 with people who share this wonderful memory with me...at least for this once...
To quote Chuan Han:
"A new year begins but memories of the past year stay..."
*I will be editing the entry with photos once I get them
I guess I better blog before 1st Jan 2007 is over.
I've been going out the past 2 days...Saturday it was with wilson ever and pauline...to sing and mug...and Sunday it was with the TIPpers...
It has been long since I last saw my classmates...I guess I was being a little irritating with my constant "In taiwan...blah blah blah..." talk but I just couldn't help it...apparently I'm still not back yet...
All sorts of things remind me of Taiwan...the basketball machine in arcade (which you can see EVERYWHERE from night market to arcade)...the doll-catching machine (which we love to play there..esp the yu cheng peeps cause of the tips we got from this master when we went for the recording of Guess^3)....
And coincidentally...when we walked from Suntec to Marina Square, I saw Conrad Hotel...the place where we had the Welcome Dinner when they were here...I've been to Suntec and Marina Square lots of time after they went back..but I never really did see Conrad Hotel again cause I always choose to walk via Citylink...just brings back memories...it seems like they came so long ago...
Sunday was an outing with the Taiwan Immersion peeps at Dhoby Ghaut...chio, kai herng, yuxiang, bing qian, alvin, chuan han and xinwei turned up...we wanted to catch a movie...but couldn't get tickets for the movie we wanted...so we ended up singing at KBox at Paradiz from 4.30 to 9...
After dinner...we just sat around talking at Istana Park...sharing "stories" would be the more appropriate term I think...at around 11..we decided to proceed to City Hall area to see the fireworks...and once again...I saw Conrad Hotel while walking to Esplanade...
The fireworks was...just a really special moment...
It wasn't like spectacular or really impressive...but it just felt so special...
I remember when the Taiwanese came to Singapore, we got to see fireworks display too when we were at Marina Bay...and I very clearly remembered my thoughts at that moment...
It's so beautiful, yet short-lived...
We were all enjoying the beautiful fireworks at that time...but before we know it, it's over...
So yesterday...at Esplanade...while watching the fireworks...the exact same thoughts were going through my head...except that I realised something else this time round...
Because it's short-lived, it's even more beautiful...
I learn to treasure it more...cause I know the fireworks display will be over soon...and that's what makes it even more beautiful...
36 days of TIP is just like fireworks...short but beautiful...
While watching the fireworks...I was wondering...is my buddy watching fireworks too? Since there's no time difference between Singapore and Taiwan...they must be celebrating New Year at that instant too I guess...
And it's really a great to end 2006 and start 2007 with people who share this wonderful memory with me...at least for this once...
To quote Chuan Han:
"A new year begins but memories of the past year stay..."
*I will be editing the entry with photos once I get them
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