//Restless//
Been feeling rather restless the past week.
There were a lot of down time in camp last week...and I love free time for me to nua...but I just keep feeling very restless...
I mean I have things to do. I can make use of the time to prepare for tuition, read a book, read some newspaper, or even sleep! But I just don't feel like doing anything at all. I just don't feel motivated to do ANYTHING, not even sleep. It was so bad to the extent that see kiat has to give me advice on how to take a nap in the afternoon. "Close your eyes and focus all your energy on falling asleep". How ironic.
So when it's finally time to bookout, I was esctatic. But it turns out I'm not faring much better at home than when I'm in camp. I feel equally empty.
"Hopeless emptiness. Now you've said it. Plenty of people are onto the emptiness, but it takes real guts to see the hopelessness."
- Josh Givings (Revolutionary Road)
It's the sense of my life eroding away, and there's nothing I can do about it that scares me. I think for the first time in my 1.5 years in ns so far, the lack of purpose of it all is finally getting to me big time. I'm getting better at my job, but the better I get, the more meaningless it seems. I mean I always felt that what I was doing was meaningless, but I guess it's just becoming more and more apparent with time, and there's not a damn thing I can do except to wait for the day to come.
You got me begging you for mercy
Why won't you release me
- Duffy (Mercy)
I was looking through my friend's photos (taken while on overseas trip) on facebook...and I realised how badly I need a break. I think we all need one, we all deserve a good break from all these nonsense. Sadly, given the circumstance, leaves/offs don't seem to be an option at the moment. I guess I just have to make do.
Maybe it's the photos of the nice beaches, beautiful scenary...I really want to be close to nature (not in a sbo, camou on kind of way of cause). And since overseas leave is not possible now, I decide I will just settle for the tree-top walk! Ever since I went to that area for some navex exercise in Feb, I've been wanting to try out the tree-top walk.
Tree-top walk follows by a nice picnic at some scenic location. Sounds lovely doesn't it? So I smsed terence and cheng about my idea. I was greeted with a "you need a life" and "when when?" response. No prize for guessing who said what.
I guess at the end of the day, it's just one of those mood swings I have. My mood swings is like the cyclical nature of the business cycle. A sine curve. And I happen to be at the bottom at the moment.
I think I shall go run now.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
The Time Traveller's Wife
//The Time Traveller's Wife//
Just to add on to the list...
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: I just hope this movie doesn't end up like most movies adapted from books, which usually end up being disappointment.
Just to add on to the list...
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: I just hope this movie doesn't end up like most movies adapted from books, which usually end up being disappointment.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Movies 2009
//Movies 2009//
Looking at the left side column, you would realise that I've only watched 4 movies so far this year (of which, one isn't even watched in the cinema), and it's already june!
So I decided to take note of some upcoming movies that I'm going to watch when it comes out later this year...
Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince
Date of release: 16 July 2009
Comments: I shouldn't have problem finding people to watch this with me...but..well..I couldn't find anyone to watch Angels & Demons with me...so I better start finding people...like now.
Up
Date of release: 6th August 2009
Comments: I usually love Pixar animated movies. "Cars" & "Ratatouille" were my favourite movies in 2006 and 2007 respectively. "Wall.e" in 2008 wasn't bad either, so I definitely have high hopes for this.
The Proposal
Date of release: 20th August 2009
Comments: Looks funny enough from the trailer, and I always love light-hearted movies. But if I can't find people to watch this with me, I guess I won't mind watching it on the comp either.
My Sister's Keeper
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Seems emo enough, and to most, probably boring bah. I guess whether I watch this in the cinema depends on when it comes out, if it's a season with no movies to watch at all, I may very well catch it in the theatres alone, if not, it's another one of those movies that I will enjoy from the comforts of my room.
Shutter Island
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Definitely intriguing, the trailer kind of reminds me of "V for Vendetta", "Lost" & "Harper's Island" all mixed into one. Any takers for this?
Julie & Julia
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: This seems light-hearted without being too cliche and corny. Meryl Streep is a definite plus point to watch this too. I think I can already guess who would be interested in this movie.
New York, I Love You
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Looks promising, but probably not worth the 10 bucks bah.
500 Days Of Summer
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Reminds me of the movie "Amelie", only a bit less artsy. The concept of jumping around the 500 days should be interesting in this movie. I think I would want to catch this in the theatres.
The Ugly Truth
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Light-hearted yes, but seems a bit too fluffy, so not sure too if it's worth the $$$ to catch it in the theatres. I guess timing of when this movie comes out is important too.
Looking at the left side column, you would realise that I've only watched 4 movies so far this year (of which, one isn't even watched in the cinema), and it's already june!
So I decided to take note of some upcoming movies that I'm going to watch when it comes out later this year...
Harry Potter & The Half-Blood Prince
Date of release: 16 July 2009
Comments: I shouldn't have problem finding people to watch this with me...but..well..I couldn't find anyone to watch Angels & Demons with me...so I better start finding people...like now.
Up
Date of release: 6th August 2009
Comments: I usually love Pixar animated movies. "Cars" & "Ratatouille" were my favourite movies in 2006 and 2007 respectively. "Wall.e" in 2008 wasn't bad either, so I definitely have high hopes for this.
The Proposal
Date of release: 20th August 2009
Comments: Looks funny enough from the trailer, and I always love light-hearted movies. But if I can't find people to watch this with me, I guess I won't mind watching it on the comp either.
My Sister's Keeper
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Seems emo enough, and to most, probably boring bah. I guess whether I watch this in the cinema depends on when it comes out, if it's a season with no movies to watch at all, I may very well catch it in the theatres alone, if not, it's another one of those movies that I will enjoy from the comforts of my room.
Shutter Island
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Definitely intriguing, the trailer kind of reminds me of "V for Vendetta", "Lost" & "Harper's Island" all mixed into one. Any takers for this?
Julie & Julia
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: This seems light-hearted without being too cliche and corny. Meryl Streep is a definite plus point to watch this too. I think I can already guess who would be interested in this movie.
New York, I Love You
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Looks promising, but probably not worth the 10 bucks bah.
500 Days Of Summer
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Reminds me of the movie "Amelie", only a bit less artsy. The concept of jumping around the 500 days should be interesting in this movie. I think I would want to catch this in the theatres.
The Ugly Truth
Date of release: Unknown
Comments: Light-hearted yes, but seems a bit too fluffy, so not sure too if it's worth the $$$ to catch it in the theatres. I guess timing of when this movie comes out is important too.
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