//Freak Out//
I'm in a semi-freaked out mode right now.
Of course you have guessed it, it's the eve of a test. Or rather 2 tests.
Econs time trial assigment sucks so bad I don't even know where to start.
What the hell...
Who cares if monopoly is good or bad?
Argh...I wish I would care less about these 2 tests tmr...and focus my energy on other more contrustive things like...finishing my tutorials...so that I can settle down and really start revising for promos soon...
At this rate, I'm going to screw both subjects up tmr too just like what I did with block tests for maths n chemistry...
And why am i whining here when I should be preparing for the 2 tests...
History just repeats itself every time it's an eve of a test...
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Reality TV
//Reality TV//
Despite the so many tests and deadlines going on right now, I still watch shows like Canadian Idol 4, Singapore Idol 2 and Big Brother All Stars.
It's been a devasting week thus far.
On Wednesday, my favourite contestant on Canadian Idol 4 got eliminated.
Although she was clearly one of the best on the show, she was the bottom three queen, getting into the bottom three every single week except Top 8 week. Yet, she survive every single time. But sadly, this week, Canada decided to send her packing for good.
She's really entertaining, and she manages to embrace every theme completely without losing herself. As one of the judges commented on one of her performance ,"that performance is sultry, it's sexy, it's sassy, it's Steffi."
But she got a big sent out on her elimination at least. The judges really like her too...
Right on the next day, on Thursday, Nurul Maiden, my fav contestant on Singapore Idol was ousted with Joakim alongside with her in the bottom 2.
Not as devasting as Steffi D's elimination, but still it's kind of saddening, cause there's really not much incentive for me to watch Singapore Idol anymore.
So just as I predicted, something bad would happen on Friday too, and I was right. Janelle lost the Head of Household competition in Big Brother All Stars.
And who did she lose to? Erika, the person who is the most likely to get Janelle out. At least Will and Boogie seemingly have a semi-alliance going on with Janelle, and George seem to really like Janelle and Danielle just made a one-week truce with Janelle as they agree not to put each other up for nominations if they win HOH. So of all people, Erika have to win.
I thought she was gone for sure this week. This is the 3rd time she's put up for nominations. How can she not be gone. But she didn't disappoint this week yet again.
SHE WON THE VETO!!
She's freakin' unbeatable! 3 HOHs and 4 Vetos thus far, it's almost impossible to get rid of her. Everytime she's nominated for eviction, she wins Veto, and takes herself off the nominations.
Finally a change of tide, for a moment, I thought she will suffer the same fate as my 2 other favourites. Fortunately, she OWNED the rest in the veto comp.
I actually couldn't concentrate on my work at all this afternoon as I was waiting for the veto comp results, despite having a lecture test and a time trial assignment tomorrow, and so much work to be done...
Back to econs time trial assigment....it sucks...
Despite the so many tests and deadlines going on right now, I still watch shows like Canadian Idol 4, Singapore Idol 2 and Big Brother All Stars.
It's been a devasting week thus far.
On Wednesday, my favourite contestant on Canadian Idol 4 got eliminated.
Although she was clearly one of the best on the show, she was the bottom three queen, getting into the bottom three every single week except Top 8 week. Yet, she survive every single time. But sadly, this week, Canada decided to send her packing for good.
She's really entertaining, and she manages to embrace every theme completely without losing herself. As one of the judges commented on one of her performance ,"that performance is sultry, it's sexy, it's sassy, it's Steffi."
But she got a big sent out on her elimination at least. The judges really like her too...
Right on the next day, on Thursday, Nurul Maiden, my fav contestant on Singapore Idol was ousted with Joakim alongside with her in the bottom 2.
Not as devasting as Steffi D's elimination, but still it's kind of saddening, cause there's really not much incentive for me to watch Singapore Idol anymore.
So just as I predicted, something bad would happen on Friday too, and I was right. Janelle lost the Head of Household competition in Big Brother All Stars.
And who did she lose to? Erika, the person who is the most likely to get Janelle out. At least Will and Boogie seemingly have a semi-alliance going on with Janelle, and George seem to really like Janelle and Danielle just made a one-week truce with Janelle as they agree not to put each other up for nominations if they win HOH. So of all people, Erika have to win.
I thought she was gone for sure this week. This is the 3rd time she's put up for nominations. How can she not be gone. But she didn't disappoint this week yet again.
SHE WON THE VETO!!
She's freakin' unbeatable! 3 HOHs and 4 Vetos thus far, it's almost impossible to get rid of her. Everytime she's nominated for eviction, she wins Veto, and takes herself off the nominations.
Finally a change of tide, for a moment, I thought she will suffer the same fate as my 2 other favourites. Fortunately, she OWNED the rest in the veto comp.
I actually couldn't concentrate on my work at all this afternoon as I was waiting for the veto comp results, despite having a lecture test and a time trial assignment tomorrow, and so much work to be done...
Back to econs time trial assigment....it sucks...
Monday, August 14, 2006
Fly Away
//Fly Away//
Admist chaos, they came.
Chaos as in I was totally busy with tutorials, EOM, PW, SPA, and the endless list of work basically. My room was in a total mess, then before I can get everything ready and in order, it's already 29th July, and in a total disorientated state, I met my buddy Kendall.
2 weeks fast forward just like in the movie "Click".
Admist chaos, they left.
Chaos as in I was feeling totally tired , feeling rather detached from my own life, yet I don't want it to end, I don't them to go back, my mind was just in a huge mess basically...
Then they flew away in the plane...and it just ended.
I did not cry at the airport. I did not cry at the farwell dinner too.
But I cried at a part in the movie "Click".
Weird isn't it?
Watching a movie, crying over a sad scene, it's very direct and straightforward, I'm just sitting there, absorbing in everything, so yes, I cried.
But at the airport, at the farewell dinner, my mind is in a total mess.
There are people crying, there are people feeling ok, but if you ask me what do I feel at that time, I couldn't answer you. I was feeling lost I guessed, I don't want it to end, I don't want them to go, but I start thinking about the work that I can complete once they are gone, how I can finally catch up with my friends, how I can finally get some sleep, it's just very very conflicting, and it just left no room in me to cry.
It's not like movie, where it's direct, it's sad hence you cry, it doesn't work this way in reality, there are a lot other emotions other than sadness that I am feeling at that point.
People are talking about staying in contact, not forgetting each other, and I would very very very much like to say that and to actually do that too. But in reality, how long can this last?
Terence mentioned in his blog before, we are afterall strangers from 2 different parts of the world who got to know each other in a short amount of time, a bond is formed, but time will break this bond eventually. Sooner or later, we would stop chatting on MSN, stop writing to each other...we have to move on eventually....
And in this case, it's even more saddening, cause it's not just a simple get-to-know-each-other in a short period of time, it's living with a person for 2 weeks, and such close bonds are formed.
Yet despite all the promise to keep in touch and so on, you know deep down in your heart that the ending would be the same - it won't last.
This hurts even more than the actual goodbye.
So on that day, I was feeling frustrated too, among all the other emotions I was feeling. A lot of frustration mixed with saddness and a tiny winy bit of relief. I don't know what word to use to describe this feeling, I can just say it's not a good feeling.
I spent my entire Friday sleeping away, partly cause I was really physically tired, but also because I wanna stop thinking about it, cause the more I think about it, the more *wadeva it is* I feel.
Ever since Friday, it was kind of like a withdrawal stage..
Saturday passed with PW meeting...and Sunday passed with a whole day of mugging at Changi Airport...
I was feeling slightly better, then suddenly this song on my playlist started playing...
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
- Fly Away (Corrinne May)
This was the song that was playing at the hotel during our farewell dinner, before the dinner started, and when it ended as we left the place....
It sort of hit me a little.
I wanted to go the Taiwan so so bad, but chances are we won't be the same 20 people again since we are all attached to different school, and I really don't want to go through this whole farewell thing again...mind at conflict again...
And there's still promos in between, and PW, and god knows what else...
I thought I have sucessfully put this TIP behind me and have moved on, with PW on Sat and mugging on Sun, never was I so productive for a weekend...
I guess I was wrong...I just supress it by keeping myself busy so that I don't think about it...
The song is really bringing me down...yet I'm putting it on repeat...so ironic...I am just the kind that want to listen to sad songs when I'm sad to make myself even sadder...
I had this song in my playlist for a long long time, but it never meant much to me till now...
I really want to blog down what happenend in the past 2 weeks, don't want to forget it...but not today I guess...
.十二月的约定. [hCI]*[06A11] says:
time really flies..the whole thing came n went so quickly
.十二月的约定. [hCI]*[06A11] says:
wat's left is a pile of untouched hmwrk
So true...time just flew away like they did...
Admist chaos, they came.
Chaos as in I was totally busy with tutorials, EOM, PW, SPA, and the endless list of work basically. My room was in a total mess, then before I can get everything ready and in order, it's already 29th July, and in a total disorientated state, I met my buddy Kendall.
2 weeks fast forward just like in the movie "Click".
Admist chaos, they left.
Chaos as in I was feeling totally tired , feeling rather detached from my own life, yet I don't want it to end, I don't them to go back, my mind was just in a huge mess basically...
Then they flew away in the plane...and it just ended.
I did not cry at the airport. I did not cry at the farwell dinner too.
But I cried at a part in the movie "Click".
Weird isn't it?
Watching a movie, crying over a sad scene, it's very direct and straightforward, I'm just sitting there, absorbing in everything, so yes, I cried.
But at the airport, at the farewell dinner, my mind is in a total mess.
There are people crying, there are people feeling ok, but if you ask me what do I feel at that time, I couldn't answer you. I was feeling lost I guessed, I don't want it to end, I don't want them to go, but I start thinking about the work that I can complete once they are gone, how I can finally catch up with my friends, how I can finally get some sleep, it's just very very conflicting, and it just left no room in me to cry.
It's not like movie, where it's direct, it's sad hence you cry, it doesn't work this way in reality, there are a lot other emotions other than sadness that I am feeling at that point.
People are talking about staying in contact, not forgetting each other, and I would very very very much like to say that and to actually do that too. But in reality, how long can this last?
Terence mentioned in his blog before, we are afterall strangers from 2 different parts of the world who got to know each other in a short amount of time, a bond is formed, but time will break this bond eventually. Sooner or later, we would stop chatting on MSN, stop writing to each other...we have to move on eventually....
And in this case, it's even more saddening, cause it's not just a simple get-to-know-each-other in a short period of time, it's living with a person for 2 weeks, and such close bonds are formed.
Yet despite all the promise to keep in touch and so on, you know deep down in your heart that the ending would be the same - it won't last.
This hurts even more than the actual goodbye.
So on that day, I was feeling frustrated too, among all the other emotions I was feeling. A lot of frustration mixed with saddness and a tiny winy bit of relief. I don't know what word to use to describe this feeling, I can just say it's not a good feeling.
I spent my entire Friday sleeping away, partly cause I was really physically tired, but also because I wanna stop thinking about it, cause the more I think about it, the more *wadeva it is* I feel.
Ever since Friday, it was kind of like a withdrawal stage..
Saturday passed with PW meeting...and Sunday passed with a whole day of mugging at Changi Airport...
I was feeling slightly better, then suddenly this song on my playlist started playing...
You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
- Fly Away (Corrinne May)
This was the song that was playing at the hotel during our farewell dinner, before the dinner started, and when it ended as we left the place....
It sort of hit me a little.
I wanted to go the Taiwan so so bad, but chances are we won't be the same 20 people again since we are all attached to different school, and I really don't want to go through this whole farewell thing again...mind at conflict again...
And there's still promos in between, and PW, and god knows what else...
I thought I have sucessfully put this TIP behind me and have moved on, with PW on Sat and mugging on Sun, never was I so productive for a weekend...
I guess I was wrong...I just supress it by keeping myself busy so that I don't think about it...
The song is really bringing me down...yet I'm putting it on repeat...so ironic...I am just the kind that want to listen to sad songs when I'm sad to make myself even sadder...
I had this song in my playlist for a long long time, but it never meant much to me till now...
I really want to blog down what happenend in the past 2 weeks, don't want to forget it...but not today I guess...
.十二月的约定. [hCI]*[06A11] says:
time really flies..the whole thing came n went so quickly
.十二月的约定. [hCI]*[06A11] says:
wat's left is a pile of untouched hmwrk
So true...time just flew away like they did...
Thursday, August 10, 2006
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