//Choices//
Clinton or Obama?
NTU or NUS?
It's kind of funny how things turned out, considering the fact that I wasn't even thinking about NUS 2 months ago when I applied for university.
I spent days reading about the modules in mass comm for NTU and other courses like NTU biz, etc, and spent a lot of time debating on which course I should put as my first choice and so on. And I finally chose mass comm as my first choice after much delibration.
NUS...the whole application probably took me half an hour (inclusive of reading about the modules in the various courses)...cause..it has always been a backup for me, I knew for sure at that time I wanted either NTU mass comm or NTU biz. So who cares about NUS, I just randomly applied for some courses, and some double degree courses.
Then came the interview, I was asked to go for an interview for the ddp in NUS that I applied for. I mean, I didn't even remember that I applied for some DDP when I signed up for that interview. I was actually thinking "great..bookout!" When I finally remembered that I applied for that DDP, I actually had the mentality of using that interview as an preparation for my mass comm interview in NTU which I deemed more important. So you can probably tell that I totally didn't even try to prepare myself mentally for that interview.
Even when the acceptance letters came for both university, I was so ready to accept mass comm in NTU. But over the past week or so, I've been receiving advices from quite some people, from friends to university prof to even friend's bosses. And I can say they definitely made a very very strong case for NUS's double degree programme.
I mean, I admit, I am more inclined towards NUS now. But still, there are so much to take into consideration and so much holding me back from accepting NUS right now, like is the extra year for the DDP worth it, will I be able to cope with the workload, and most importantly, the fact that NTU mass comm has been my choice since the beginning, made it very hard for me to reject it now. It's like abandoning something you've believed in for so long. At the same time, it's very hard to reject NUS too, since apparently it's very very hard to get into the DDP.
Everyone I've asked have given me some pretty good advice I think, but it's their personal opinion afterall, like a friend actually told me that he believed it doesn't matter what degree one end up with, if that person's good, he/she won't have trouble finding a very decent job (which is one of the reason for rejecting mass comm, cause apparently, job prospects of mass comm graduate is not too promising).
He's not entirely wrong to say that, but does it apply to me? I guess I just have to take in all the advices I received, process them and decide if it applies to me.
NTU's mass comm is like Clinton, more established and experienced and started with more support..but gradually losing support till she finally lags behind. NUS's DDP on the other hand, is like Obama, new (which is always a scary thing), but he managed to win over the supporters gradually and is now leading.
Actually to be honest, I think I've made up my mind. I'm just not committed to my decision 100%. I am still holding on, hoping that maybe between now and 2nd June, there would be some dramatic happenings that would sway me to the other side, just like how Clinton refuses to give up although all odds are against her.
That's just me I guess. Indecisive and can't commit.
On a totally unrelated note, 1SIR, here I come! The fact that I'm going to see familiar faces in a totally unfamiliar environment does comfort me a little, but still, I'm worried like hell. Let's just hope I'm worrying over nothing, and things will turn up fantastic.
Monday, May 19, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
佐贺的超级阿嬷
//佐贺的超级阿嬷//
I know this is waaay overdue, since my signals course ended like a week ago exactly, but still, it's something that I would like to jot down, so that when I do read my older entries in the future, I will actually remember how I felt about the course.
It's really funny cause I was just reading some of my old entries, and there were some entries that really brought me back to the time I was writing it, I actually remembered very very clearly how I felt then and why I wrote what I wrote, but some entries, it just felt like someone else wrote it, and I just feel weird reading it.
Back to my point.
The 6 weeks in stagmont, probably my best 6 weeks in my 24 months in NS? There are lots of things I will miss, like the daily shitting session in the ever so clean CSTH toilets followed by the slacking around at the benches at CSTH while waiting for the PRs to start, or the daily snacking session at level 1 lobby after RO at night (i totally agree with chi weng that Hello Panda is the best snacks on earth), or lazing around in e-plaza waiting for lessons to start.
And it's great to lame around with yenshan, robert and so on, especially on depressing days. They just made the bad days tolerable and the good days even better. I will miss my nickname sluticia (only robert n yenshan calls me that, and since they won't be going 1 sir...it will be kind of lost i guess), which is totally random since I am obviously the least slutty, or rather the only non-slutty one around, especially compared to slutella and sluterina...haha.
I guess this 6 weeks in stagmont is the closest to a student life you will get in NS, which is probably why I enjoyed it so much, which reminds me, god i miss hwa chong!
I take 190 and switch to 151 at raffles town club whenever I book out from stagmont, and I happened to run into 2 HC guys on the bus a few weeks ago, J1 I presume, since one of the guys is from tkd too and he's just a white belt. Made me kind of "school-sick" for a while, especially listening to them talk about tutorials..lecture tests and so on (and no, I did not intentionally listen in to their convo, the bus was so packed and I was standing beside them, so it's inevitable)
I miss stoning at the class bench, playing bridge after school, taking hours to decide where to eat or go, and so much more. I even miss the times I spent mugging for all the exams with my friends at KAP/class bench/SRC/marina square foodcourt (the list is simply too long..haha...i mugged in all parts of singapore).
But yea, things are always better when we look back at them. School life seems so exciting, St John is so full of memories, BMT came and went by so quickly and 6 weeks in stagmont is just so fun. Yea, cause I guess we only remember the good things, we choose to keep the beautiful memories, and throw away all the bad ones.
Like right now, when I look back on my 6 weeks in stagmont, the first things I remember are the good times as mentioned above, the ridiculous behaviour of some scums? Not so much.
Selective memory maybe.
Ok, enough about all this. Right now, I am in some Ops, which is apparently such a big secret that I am not supposed to blog about it. Oh well.
Let just say my job scope now allows me to have even more time to read as compared to my days in stagmont. Which is why I read about 4-5 sets of newspaper daily, and I will finish reading at least 1 book daily. I guess that explains why the list of books I read on the left column has been increasing quite steadily.
I realized the books I have been reading are either bimbotic or bitchy. Like “Fashion Babylon”, it is so bitchy, and it’s basically about sex, booze, drugs, gays, and oh yea fashion. But I can’t deny it’s a nice read since it’s pretty funny, though I am totally not into fashion so I got kind of lost here and there.
"Romantically Challenged" on the other hand, is all about dates, dates and more dates. They are all bad dates though, which made it so hilarious and fun to read.
But the book that really left a deep impression is probably “佐贺的超级阿嬷”. Yes, I am very shocked myself that I actually managed to finish reading 1 chinese book too. Didn’t know I still had it in me.
It’s just one of those books that will make you laugh and cry at the same time, because it’s based on the personal experience of the author, which made it so real, and relatable at times. Seeing how the grandma lives with such optimism despite the bad living conditions is really uplifting, but there are also so many parts that made me feel like crying (but of course I didn’t, it would be too embarrassing since I’m in the bunk while reading)
Some interesting extracts from the book:
阿嬷对于贫穷的看法：
“阿嬷，虽然我们家现在穷，以后有钱就好了。”
可是外婆这样回答我：
“什么话？穷有两种：穷得消沉和穷得开朗。我们家是穷得开朗。而且啊，我们跟由富变穷的人不一样，你不用担心，要有自信。因为我们家的祖先可世世代代都是穷人。做有钱人很辛苦，要吃好东西，要去旅行，忙死了。而且，穿着好衣服走在路上，还要担心摔一跤。光从这一点来看，穷人习惯穿着脏衣服，淋了雨，坐在地上，摔跤也无所谓。啊，贫穷真好！”
……
我只能说：
“阿嬷，晚安。”
阿嬷的的考试秘诀:
“阿嬷，我英语都不会。”
“那，你就在答案纸上写‘我是日本人’。”
“对啊，在日本不懂英语也不会特别麻烦啊。”
“是啊，是啊。”
“可是，我也不太会写汉字哪。”
“那你就写‘我可以靠着平假名和片假名活下去’。”
“哦？是有人只认得平假名。”
“是啊，是啊。”
“我也讨厌历史……”
“历史也不会？”
讲到这里，外婆终于有些傻眼。
我以为外婆会叫我“赶快去读书”，但她毕竟是外婆，想了一下，冒出这句话：
“那就在答案纸上写‘我不拘泥于过去’。”
帅呆了！
乐观的的阿嬷：
外婆利落地指挥学弟他们，稳稳地把黑板摆作我们和隔壁邻居的围墙。
隔天，外婆要我从学校拿些不用的粉笔头回家，开始把黑板当作留言板用。
我放学回家时，黑板上都有给我的留言：
“昭广，我晚点儿回来，阿嬷。”
“昭广，去买瓶酱油，阿嬷。”
有一次回去时，看见黑板上大大地写着：
“昭广，钥匙在大门旁的盆栽里，阿嬷。”
再怎么说，写出藏钥匙的地方，不是太不安全了吗？我提醒外婆小心：
“阿嬷，写出放钥匙的地方，很危险哪。”
“哪会啊？小偷看了，说不定会烦恼：‘去偷这么亲切的人家妥当吗？’‘不行，其中可能有诈。’阿嬷是要给小偷改过自新的空间。而且就算进来了，也没有东西可偷，说不定因为我们一无所有，反而留下一点东西才走呢！”
这件事让我觉得，学校里谈恋爱的老师、借故调皮捣蛋的我虽然厉害，但都比不上外婆。
Oh well, as much as I like my current job, it’s not going to last long I think. I would probably be out of this camp by end of the week, and by next tue, I should be in Mandai Hell Camp, I mean Mandai Hill Camp.
The whole “going-to-1SIR” thing has been quite an emotional roller coaster. I basically went from 抗拒to恐惧to愤怒to沮丧to finally 认命 in a matter of 6 weeks.
抗拒because who would want to go to a infantry unit? And to announce it on the very first day of the course when we haven’t even settle into stagmont is not the best choice in my opinion.
恐惧because of all the scary stories by the 1SIR people in the platoon, and “sim lim square” isn’t really helping us feel at ease about going 1SIR at all.
愤怒because I was denied of a chance to express interest for the overseas posting, that I really want to go for, which would actually kind of grant me immunity from going 1SIR. (though I must say this is only a very minor factor)
沮丧when I realized yenshan and robert got the overseas posting, life in 1SIR seems more bleak than ever with the 2 of them gone, and joshua and kian hong possibly deferring due to medicine in NUS and PSC.
认命…oh well, what else can I do other than to认命.
Then they gave us hope. We are not going 1SIR afterall due to some conflicts up there. We were excited for like 2 days, then rumours (which are from very very credible sources) that we are going there afterall start to circulate around again.
They simply love to play with our minds don’t they. Like the “go Taiwan, not going Taiwan” deal and the “Driving course, no driving course” issue.
Whatever it is, I’m way past the认命stage already. Currently at the麻木stage.
Too numb to even feel anything about this news anymore.
I know this is waaay overdue, since my signals course ended like a week ago exactly, but still, it's something that I would like to jot down, so that when I do read my older entries in the future, I will actually remember how I felt about the course.
It's really funny cause I was just reading some of my old entries, and there were some entries that really brought me back to the time I was writing it, I actually remembered very very clearly how I felt then and why I wrote what I wrote, but some entries, it just felt like someone else wrote it, and I just feel weird reading it.
Back to my point.
The 6 weeks in stagmont, probably my best 6 weeks in my 24 months in NS? There are lots of things I will miss, like the daily shitting session in the ever so clean CSTH toilets followed by the slacking around at the benches at CSTH while waiting for the PRs to start, or the daily snacking session at level 1 lobby after RO at night (i totally agree with chi weng that Hello Panda is the best snacks on earth), or lazing around in e-plaza waiting for lessons to start.
And it's great to lame around with yenshan, robert and so on, especially on depressing days. They just made the bad days tolerable and the good days even better. I will miss my nickname sluticia (only robert n yenshan calls me that, and since they won't be going 1 sir...it will be kind of lost i guess), which is totally random since I am obviously the least slutty, or rather the only non-slutty one around, especially compared to slutella and sluterina...haha.
I guess this 6 weeks in stagmont is the closest to a student life you will get in NS, which is probably why I enjoyed it so much, which reminds me, god i miss hwa chong!
I take 190 and switch to 151 at raffles town club whenever I book out from stagmont, and I happened to run into 2 HC guys on the bus a few weeks ago, J1 I presume, since one of the guys is from tkd too and he's just a white belt. Made me kind of "school-sick" for a while, especially listening to them talk about tutorials..lecture tests and so on (and no, I did not intentionally listen in to their convo, the bus was so packed and I was standing beside them, so it's inevitable)
I miss stoning at the class bench, playing bridge after school, taking hours to decide where to eat or go, and so much more. I even miss the times I spent mugging for all the exams with my friends at KAP/class bench/SRC/marina square foodcourt (the list is simply too long..haha...i mugged in all parts of singapore).
But yea, things are always better when we look back at them. School life seems so exciting, St John is so full of memories, BMT came and went by so quickly and 6 weeks in stagmont is just so fun. Yea, cause I guess we only remember the good things, we choose to keep the beautiful memories, and throw away all the bad ones.
Like right now, when I look back on my 6 weeks in stagmont, the first things I remember are the good times as mentioned above, the ridiculous behaviour of some scums? Not so much.
Selective memory maybe.
Ok, enough about all this. Right now, I am in some Ops, which is apparently such a big secret that I am not supposed to blog about it. Oh well.
Let just say my job scope now allows me to have even more time to read as compared to my days in stagmont. Which is why I read about 4-5 sets of newspaper daily, and I will finish reading at least 1 book daily. I guess that explains why the list of books I read on the left column has been increasing quite steadily.
I realized the books I have been reading are either bimbotic or bitchy. Like “Fashion Babylon”, it is so bitchy, and it’s basically about sex, booze, drugs, gays, and oh yea fashion. But I can’t deny it’s a nice read since it’s pretty funny, though I am totally not into fashion so I got kind of lost here and there.
"Romantically Challenged" on the other hand, is all about dates, dates and more dates. They are all bad dates though, which made it so hilarious and fun to read.
But the book that really left a deep impression is probably “佐贺的超级阿嬷”. Yes, I am very shocked myself that I actually managed to finish reading 1 chinese book too. Didn’t know I still had it in me.
It’s just one of those books that will make you laugh and cry at the same time, because it’s based on the personal experience of the author, which made it so real, and relatable at times. Seeing how the grandma lives with such optimism despite the bad living conditions is really uplifting, but there are also so many parts that made me feel like crying (but of course I didn’t, it would be too embarrassing since I’m in the bunk while reading)
Some interesting extracts from the book:
阿嬷对于贫穷的看法：
“阿嬷，虽然我们家现在穷，以后有钱就好了。”
可是外婆这样回答我：
“什么话？穷有两种：穷得消沉和穷得开朗。我们家是穷得开朗。而且啊，我们跟由富变穷的人不一样，你不用担心，要有自信。因为我们家的祖先可世世代代都是穷人。做有钱人很辛苦，要吃好东西，要去旅行，忙死了。而且，穿着好衣服走在路上，还要担心摔一跤。光从这一点来看，穷人习惯穿着脏衣服，淋了雨，坐在地上，摔跤也无所谓。啊，贫穷真好！”
……
我只能说：
“阿嬷，晚安。”
阿嬷的的考试秘诀:
“阿嬷，我英语都不会。”
“那，你就在答案纸上写‘我是日本人’。”
“对啊，在日本不懂英语也不会特别麻烦啊。”
“是啊，是啊。”
“可是，我也不太会写汉字哪。”
“那你就写‘我可以靠着平假名和片假名活下去’。”
“哦？是有人只认得平假名。”
“是啊，是啊。”
“我也讨厌历史……”
“历史也不会？”
讲到这里，外婆终于有些傻眼。
我以为外婆会叫我“赶快去读书”，但她毕竟是外婆，想了一下，冒出这句话：
“那就在答案纸上写‘我不拘泥于过去’。”
帅呆了！
乐观的的阿嬷：
外婆利落地指挥学弟他们，稳稳地把黑板摆作我们和隔壁邻居的围墙。
隔天，外婆要我从学校拿些不用的粉笔头回家，开始把黑板当作留言板用。
我放学回家时，黑板上都有给我的留言：
“昭广，我晚点儿回来，阿嬷。”
“昭广，去买瓶酱油，阿嬷。”
有一次回去时，看见黑板上大大地写着：
“昭广，钥匙在大门旁的盆栽里，阿嬷。”
再怎么说，写出藏钥匙的地方，不是太不安全了吗？我提醒外婆小心：
“阿嬷，写出放钥匙的地方，很危险哪。”
“哪会啊？小偷看了，说不定会烦恼：‘去偷这么亲切的人家妥当吗？’‘不行，其中可能有诈。’阿嬷是要给小偷改过自新的空间。而且就算进来了，也没有东西可偷，说不定因为我们一无所有，反而留下一点东西才走呢！”
这件事让我觉得，学校里谈恋爱的老师、借故调皮捣蛋的我虽然厉害，但都比不上外婆。
Oh well, as much as I like my current job, it’s not going to last long I think. I would probably be out of this camp by end of the week, and by next tue, I should be in Mandai Hell Camp, I mean Mandai Hill Camp.
The whole “going-to-1SIR” thing has been quite an emotional roller coaster. I basically went from 抗拒to恐惧to愤怒to沮丧to finally 认命 in a matter of 6 weeks.
抗拒because who would want to go to a infantry unit? And to announce it on the very first day of the course when we haven’t even settle into stagmont is not the best choice in my opinion.
恐惧because of all the scary stories by the 1SIR people in the platoon, and “sim lim square” isn’t really helping us feel at ease about going 1SIR at all.
愤怒because I was denied of a chance to express interest for the overseas posting, that I really want to go for, which would actually kind of grant me immunity from going 1SIR. (though I must say this is only a very minor factor)
沮丧when I realized yenshan and robert got the overseas posting, life in 1SIR seems more bleak than ever with the 2 of them gone, and joshua and kian hong possibly deferring due to medicine in NUS and PSC.
认命…oh well, what else can I do other than to认命.
Then they gave us hope. We are not going 1SIR afterall due to some conflicts up there. We were excited for like 2 days, then rumours (which are from very very credible sources) that we are going there afterall start to circulate around again.
They simply love to play with our minds don’t they. Like the “go Taiwan, not going Taiwan” deal and the “Driving course, no driving course” issue.
Whatever it is, I’m way past the认命stage already. Currently at the麻木stage.
Too numb to even feel anything about this news anymore.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
p.s. i love you
//p.s. i love you//
This 6 weeks of heaven in stagmont, before I officially enter hell on 7th May, actually managed to get me to pick up the books and start reading again. And by reading, I'm not actually refering to the thick manuals or pointless powerpoint slide, I'm refering to real fictional (how oxymoronic!) books. The long admin time at night, breaks in between lessons, or the ridiculously long waiting time for the practical test are all perfect time for reading.
Of course this is only one of the few factors that pushed me to start reading again. I guess the mass comm interview/selection test a few weeks ago kind of got to me a little. I just felt like I really really have to start working on my language or something if I ever wanna do well in mass comm because everyone there just seems so...outstanding. I admit I was intimidated, and in fact, I just felt like a fish out of water. It was like a science student being randomly thrown together with a bunch of humanities students. Maybe I'm really just a science student at heart?
Oh well.
Been talking a lot about uni education and future careers and so on with my bunkmates, and ironically it made me feel even more unsure about everything. I thought I had it all mapped out, guess I was wrong, since I feel like I'm right back at square 1 right now. Why do I even apply for mass comm in the first place? What exactly do I want? Journalism? Advertising? Social work? Teaching? It's driving me nuts thinking about it.
Maybe I should just heed my own advice that I gave my friend, stop thinking so much and just go with your gut feeling. Sometimes, overthinking isn't too healthy huh? I guess I just need more guts and have more confidence in myself.
Ok, enough of deviation. This is supposed to be about "p.s. i love you". robert recommended me this book after I casually asked him to recommend me some good books a couple of weeks ago. yenshan described it as "really sweet and would make you wanna fall in love" kind of book. And yea, it's really pretty sweet, but maybe cause I haven't really experienced the feeling of losing a loved one, it just didn't quite strike a chord with me.
I mean I do feel sorry for Holly, and it's nice reading about her times with Gerry and so on, I just can't relate to those stuff. What I really like about this book though, are the interactions Holly had with her best friends Denise and Sharon. I think for me, it's more of a book about friendship rather than love? And I particularly like the karaoke competition part, where she sung "With a little help from my friends".
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
- With A Little Help From My Friends (The Beatles)
Well, I guess that's kind of what I'm feeling right now. A bit lost just like Holly in the book, not really knowing what I want in life, and what to do with it, but I guess I will get by with a little help from my friends.
So Jiahua was asking me if I felt sad after reading the book, cause he thought the story is those classic tragic case, I actually wasn't, cause it kind of made me feel a bit more hopeful about life. Weird but oh well, that was how I felt.
I guess I should really count myself lucky for having the friends I have now, be it my classmates, h4 or bunkmates I have now, cause they really made my NS a lot more fun and I always felt a lot better after talking to them.
On a separate note, ex VHF this week turned out to be really fun. HQ work was really hectic and it can get a little stressful with the commanders around all the time, but it's actually kind of exciting when I press the PTT button, a lot of times not knowing what to say or how to relay a msg, but still doing it anyway cause the commander is hurrying us to make some annoucement or something.
Of course there were lots of funny episodes, like v11 getting lost, v77's exercise msg about their punctured tires that we all thought was real, and v44's long matrix msg which we took damn long to decode only to realise it's something really lame (cbhaha).
drawing and returing of stores before and after the exercise is still a bitch as usual, and once again, it proved to me some ppl just can't be bothered. if i can walk up and down 5 storeys to carry stores for 7 friggin times, there's no reason why you can't do it. and if you don't wanna help, at least hide at some corner so that people cant see you, instead of walking around acting sick.
sometimes i really wonder if it's my problem but not theirs. I mean if i'm whinning and complaining about so many people so often, maybe I'm the one with the problem? Oh well.
And yenshan told me that "you shouldn't help people who don't help themselves" if I were to become a social worker next time cause of some incident that happened in camp. and it kind of got me thinking. though i agree that some people don't deserve the help like the ones I was attempting to help the other day, but isn't it the responsibility of the social worker to get the people who are not helping themselves at all, to start to helping themselves.
so putting it back into the current scenario i'm in, instead of helping them clean the fans, I should encourage them to start cleaning it? But honestly speaking, I can't be bothered to do that, cause it's really a chore to even to talk any sense into them. Guess I'm not cut out to be a social worker too...haha..
This 6 weeks of heaven in stagmont, before I officially enter hell on 7th May, actually managed to get me to pick up the books and start reading again. And by reading, I'm not actually refering to the thick manuals or pointless powerpoint slide, I'm refering to real fictional (how oxymoronic!) books. The long admin time at night, breaks in between lessons, or the ridiculously long waiting time for the practical test are all perfect time for reading.
Of course this is only one of the few factors that pushed me to start reading again. I guess the mass comm interview/selection test a few weeks ago kind of got to me a little. I just felt like I really really have to start working on my language or something if I ever wanna do well in mass comm because everyone there just seems so...outstanding. I admit I was intimidated, and in fact, I just felt like a fish out of water. It was like a science student being randomly thrown together with a bunch of humanities students. Maybe I'm really just a science student at heart?
Oh well.
Been talking a lot about uni education and future careers and so on with my bunkmates, and ironically it made me feel even more unsure about everything. I thought I had it all mapped out, guess I was wrong, since I feel like I'm right back at square 1 right now. Why do I even apply for mass comm in the first place? What exactly do I want? Journalism? Advertising? Social work? Teaching? It's driving me nuts thinking about it.
Maybe I should just heed my own advice that I gave my friend, stop thinking so much and just go with your gut feeling. Sometimes, overthinking isn't too healthy huh? I guess I just need more guts and have more confidence in myself.
Ok, enough of deviation. This is supposed to be about "p.s. i love you". robert recommended me this book after I casually asked him to recommend me some good books a couple of weeks ago. yenshan described it as "really sweet and would make you wanna fall in love" kind of book. And yea, it's really pretty sweet, but maybe cause I haven't really experienced the feeling of losing a loved one, it just didn't quite strike a chord with me.
I mean I do feel sorry for Holly, and it's nice reading about her times with Gerry and so on, I just can't relate to those stuff. What I really like about this book though, are the interactions Holly had with her best friends Denise and Sharon. I think for me, it's more of a book about friendship rather than love? And I particularly like the karaoke competition part, where she sung "With a little help from my friends".
Oh, I get by with a little help from my friends
Mm, I get high with a little help from my friends
Mm, gonna try with a little help from my friends
- With A Little Help From My Friends (The Beatles)
Well, I guess that's kind of what I'm feeling right now. A bit lost just like Holly in the book, not really knowing what I want in life, and what to do with it, but I guess I will get by with a little help from my friends.
So Jiahua was asking me if I felt sad after reading the book, cause he thought the story is those classic tragic case, I actually wasn't, cause it kind of made me feel a bit more hopeful about life. Weird but oh well, that was how I felt.
I guess I should really count myself lucky for having the friends I have now, be it my classmates, h4 or bunkmates I have now, cause they really made my NS a lot more fun and I always felt a lot better after talking to them.
On a separate note, ex VHF this week turned out to be really fun. HQ work was really hectic and it can get a little stressful with the commanders around all the time, but it's actually kind of exciting when I press the PTT button, a lot of times not knowing what to say or how to relay a msg, but still doing it anyway cause the commander is hurrying us to make some annoucement or something.
Of course there were lots of funny episodes, like v11 getting lost, v77's exercise msg about their punctured tires that we all thought was real, and v44's long matrix msg which we took damn long to decode only to realise it's something really lame (cbhaha).
drawing and returing of stores before and after the exercise is still a bitch as usual, and once again, it proved to me some ppl just can't be bothered. if i can walk up and down 5 storeys to carry stores for 7 friggin times, there's no reason why you can't do it. and if you don't wanna help, at least hide at some corner so that people cant see you, instead of walking around acting sick.
sometimes i really wonder if it's my problem but not theirs. I mean if i'm whinning and complaining about so many people so often, maybe I'm the one with the problem? Oh well.
And yenshan told me that "you shouldn't help people who don't help themselves" if I were to become a social worker next time cause of some incident that happened in camp. and it kind of got me thinking. though i agree that some people don't deserve the help like the ones I was attempting to help the other day, but isn't it the responsibility of the social worker to get the people who are not helping themselves at all, to start to helping themselves.
so putting it back into the current scenario i'm in, instead of helping them clean the fans, I should encourage them to start cleaning it? But honestly speaking, I can't be bothered to do that, cause it's really a chore to even to talk any sense into them. Guess I'm not cut out to be a social worker too...haha..
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Growing Up
//Titleless//
Been ages since I last updated this blog. Nothing really major much has been going on in camp recently, other than the constant emo-ing of "omg, i m going 1SIR!" or "omg! i wanna down pes!". Well, but truth be told, I don't think any one of us would actually end up down pes-ing or anything like that. I guess you must have that "chao geng" gene in you to really actively seek ways to down pes, and sadly, none of us possess that important gene.
The most major event that happened in the last 3 weeks in camp..is probably the lines summary exercise. But wait! That's classified information! So oh well, not like it was ultra exciting and deserve a paragraph by itself anyway.
What's more "blog-worthy" is probably be the post-exercise recovery period, where we have to wheel back all the lines through the night right after the exercise. This kind of thing just reinforce my dislike for certain people in the platoon, and it's really very obvious who actually bothers to put in that tinnie winnie pit of effort, and who just don't care at all.
A certain someone want us to gel and work together as a platoon, which is fair enough I guess, but I guess it's impossible to work together, if some people don't work at all to start with?
My past 2 weekends have been spent with meng, cheng and terence, and yes, it does feel a bit loser-ish initially, like "don't I have other friends?! why am i seeing the same people 2 weekends in a row!" But oh well, anything beats staying at home, so I went out with them anyway, and I really enjoy their company too, so why not?
Watched this movie called "Untraceable" last week, before heading down to some pub in Clarke Quay. I admit, I never club, I don't even go pubs cause I just don't drink, so when they suggested it, I was like "okay..." but I still went anyway. Had Vodka with Sprite, which is like pretty mild I guess, but I just conclude I don't like to drink at all. In fact, I don't like any food with alcoholic content, like I don't even like Rum & Rasin.
This week, we decided to head down to Marina South for some steamboat, only to realise it's all gone?! So headed to Lau Pa Sat instead, stuffed ourselves with food, and it was actually a great nights out, if not for the super annoying bell ringing thing every hour. Now we know why the whole place is so void of customers.
Food we ordered!
Went over to Harry's...and this time round, I sticked to plain water.
Ok, I think my blog is turning into some horrible report of my life in chronological order. Bad bad. There are actually lots of things on my mind over the weeks, but I just don't feel motivated to write them out.
Oh well, till next time, out.
Been ages since I last updated this blog. Nothing really major much has been going on in camp recently, other than the constant emo-ing of "omg, i m going 1SIR!" or "omg! i wanna down pes!". Well, but truth be told, I don't think any one of us would actually end up down pes-ing or anything like that. I guess you must have that "chao geng" gene in you to really actively seek ways to down pes, and sadly, none of us possess that important gene.
The most major event that happened in the last 3 weeks in camp..is probably the lines summary exercise. But wait! That's classified information! So oh well, not like it was ultra exciting and deserve a paragraph by itself anyway.
What's more "blog-worthy" is probably be the post-exercise recovery period, where we have to wheel back all the lines through the night right after the exercise. This kind of thing just reinforce my dislike for certain people in the platoon, and it's really very obvious who actually bothers to put in that tinnie winnie pit of effort, and who just don't care at all.
A certain someone want us to gel and work together as a platoon, which is fair enough I guess, but I guess it's impossible to work together, if some people don't work at all to start with?
My past 2 weekends have been spent with meng, cheng and terence, and yes, it does feel a bit loser-ish initially, like "don't I have other friends?! why am i seeing the same people 2 weekends in a row!" But oh well, anything beats staying at home, so I went out with them anyway, and I really enjoy their company too, so why not?
Watched this movie called "Untraceable" last week, before heading down to some pub in Clarke Quay. I admit, I never club, I don't even go pubs cause I just don't drink, so when they suggested it, I was like "okay..." but I still went anyway. Had Vodka with Sprite, which is like pretty mild I guess, but I just conclude I don't like to drink at all. In fact, I don't like any food with alcoholic content, like I don't even like Rum & Rasin.
This week, we decided to head down to Marina South for some steamboat, only to realise it's all gone?! So headed to Lau Pa Sat instead, stuffed ourselves with food, and it was actually a great nights out, if not for the super annoying bell ringing thing every hour. Now we know why the whole place is so void of customers.
Food we ordered!
Went over to Harry's...and this time round, I sticked to plain water.
Ok, I think my blog is turning into some horrible report of my life in chronological order. Bad bad. There are actually lots of things on my mind over the weeks, but I just don't feel motivated to write them out.
Oh well, till next time, out.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
First Week
//First Week//
Life in stagmont is pretty good compared to BMT.
I mean there's of course the initial "i-hate-this-new-place" blues on the first day when you don't know anyone, and you don't know the place well, and you are forced to study all the physics stuff that I personally HATE to the core. Luckily, it only lasted like for a day, because the whole atmosphere there is just so...happy that it's hard to feel sad there. Yes, everyone is sian of mugging and studying (and mind you, we really study A LOT, like from 8 to 6 almost everyday) but all in all, it's a happy place, even for the commanders, so it's really hard to feel depressed over there.
Not that we are happy 24/7 there also lar, especially when certain news are made. News like where we are going to posted to after the 6+ week course definitely manage to make most of us feel -_- for quite some time, but oh well, there's nothing good food can't solve, so I'm really glad my bunk decide to just "emo" over it over food every night by going down to the food vending machine to pig out.
Speaking of my bunk, there's a whoopin 5 hwa chongians out of 9 people in my bunk! So there's definitely loads to talk about, especially GOSSIPS! Oh man, hwachong is such a happening and horny place. Haha, shan't discuss too much here. But there's good and bad to it I guess, because of the fact that there are 4 other HC guys around that I can hang out with and speak to, there's no motivation in me to try to mix around with other people that much, and if I really did ended up in that place after my course, I definitely definitely need to mix around more with the platoon, even those that I feel are on a complete different frequency as me. But oh well, it's only the first week, shall see how it goes.
Was talking with mingwei on the phone that day while in camp, and we were whinning to each other as usual, and I came to the conclusion that there's really no point being envious of people for their vocation. I mean he's staying out, and he's complaining, I'm in signals, and I'm complaining. Bottomline, we are all human, we will never be 100% satisfied, and what's more, this is NS, where no one in the right mind would be happy to serve, so actually no matter where you are posted to, there are bound to be stuff that you won't be happy with cause it's army afterall. So, oh well, just count down to the next bookout!
Speaking of bookouts, got to bookout on Sat morning instead of Fri which is the standard in SI thanks to guard duty. Talk about lucky. But it's a 12 hour duty, so it's not that bad I guess compared to those who got weekend 24 hour duty.
Met up with meng, cheng n rence yesterday to celebrate meng's birthday. Ate at Billy Bombers, which well cost me a bomb but the ribs are nice. Highlight of the day should be this $10Family KTV at Chinatown which is superhard to find. When we finally found it, we were led to this small room just beside their kitchen. Though small, it's really cosy and the sofa's comfortable, and there's free flow of drinks and even shark fins' soup (seriously!), though it tasted like...hmm..nevermind. But all these only for $10++ for 7 to 10, which is seriously quite cheap, and the songs there are actually very updated, and for some reason, we just got very high randomly over random songs. The 2pm to 7pm slot is even cheaper cause it's 10 bucks nett. Highly recommended!
Life in stagmont is pretty good compared to BMT.
I mean there's of course the initial "i-hate-this-new-place" blues on the first day when you don't know anyone, and you don't know the place well, and you are forced to study all the physics stuff that I personally HATE to the core. Luckily, it only lasted like for a day, because the whole atmosphere there is just so...happy that it's hard to feel sad there. Yes, everyone is sian of mugging and studying (and mind you, we really study A LOT, like from 8 to 6 almost everyday) but all in all, it's a happy place, even for the commanders, so it's really hard to feel depressed over there.
Not that we are happy 24/7 there also lar, especially when certain news are made. News like where we are going to posted to after the 6+ week course definitely manage to make most of us feel -_- for quite some time, but oh well, there's nothing good food can't solve, so I'm really glad my bunk decide to just "emo" over it over food every night by going down to the food vending machine to pig out.
Speaking of my bunk, there's a whoopin 5 hwa chongians out of 9 people in my bunk! So there's definitely loads to talk about, especially GOSSIPS! Oh man, hwachong is such a happening and horny place. Haha, shan't discuss too much here. But there's good and bad to it I guess, because of the fact that there are 4 other HC guys around that I can hang out with and speak to, there's no motivation in me to try to mix around with other people that much, and if I really did ended up in that place after my course, I definitely definitely need to mix around more with the platoon, even those that I feel are on a complete different frequency as me. But oh well, it's only the first week, shall see how it goes.
Was talking with mingwei on the phone that day while in camp, and we were whinning to each other as usual, and I came to the conclusion that there's really no point being envious of people for their vocation. I mean he's staying out, and he's complaining, I'm in signals, and I'm complaining. Bottomline, we are all human, we will never be 100% satisfied, and what's more, this is NS, where no one in the right mind would be happy to serve, so actually no matter where you are posted to, there are bound to be stuff that you won't be happy with cause it's army afterall. So, oh well, just count down to the next bookout!
Speaking of bookouts, got to bookout on Sat morning instead of Fri which is the standard in SI thanks to guard duty. Talk about lucky. But it's a 12 hour duty, so it's not that bad I guess compared to those who got weekend 24 hour duty.
Met up with meng, cheng n rence yesterday to celebrate meng's birthday. Ate at Billy Bombers, which well cost me a bomb but the ribs are nice. Highlight of the day should be this $10Family KTV at Chinatown which is superhard to find. When we finally found it, we were led to this small room just beside their kitchen. Though small, it's really cosy and the sofa's comfortable, and there's free flow of drinks and even shark fins' soup (seriously!), though it tasted like...hmm..nevermind. But all these only for $10++ for 7 to 10, which is seriously quite cheap, and the songs there are actually very updated, and for some reason, we just got very high randomly over random songs. The 2pm to 7pm slot is even cheaper cause it's 10 bucks nett. Highly recommended!
Saturday, March 22, 2008
Cooking
//Cooking//
Block leave is ending soooon! zzzzz.
Finally met up with cheng, meng and terence yesterday. It's really exciting meeting up with them, cause we always end up doing the most random thing at the very last minute. We were just eating Delifrance breakfast buffet, and for some reason, decide that we should each cook a dish for lunch at my house! (after checking our posting result, which was our original plan).
So off we went to NTUC to do some grocery shopping. I actually really like to do grocery shopping. I just find the idea of doing grocery shopping with your loved ones (be it friends, mum or whatsoever) very sweet. I like this homely feeling. Though I must admit it's kind of funny for 4 guys to be doing this together, seeing how our "inner-auntie" emerge.
The cooking process itself was kind of a mess, since none of us have really cooked b4, and we are all relying on what we can remember when we see our mums cook. I conclude I am so not cut out for cooking cause I'm seriously clumsy.
Anyway, here are the photos of sumptous meal we cook!
Green curry chicken cooked by yours truly! Actually, I didn't have to do much, it's like cooking instant noodles, I just dumped the curry powder into the water, dump in the chicken, and other stuff...and tada! It's done!
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Steamed fish by terence! (which surprisely is edible)
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VEGG!!! By cheng...
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姜葱猪肉 by cheng again! He's seriously the only one that looks like he can remotely cook.
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Our meal! (plus omelette)
Block leave is ending soooon! zzzzz.
Finally met up with cheng, meng and terence yesterday. It's really exciting meeting up with them, cause we always end up doing the most random thing at the very last minute. We were just eating Delifrance breakfast buffet, and for some reason, decide that we should each cook a dish for lunch at my house! (after checking our posting result, which was our original plan).
So off we went to NTUC to do some grocery shopping. I actually really like to do grocery shopping. I just find the idea of doing grocery shopping with your loved ones (be it friends, mum or whatsoever) very sweet. I like this homely feeling. Though I must admit it's kind of funny for 4 guys to be doing this together, seeing how our "inner-auntie" emerge.
The cooking process itself was kind of a mess, since none of us have really cooked b4, and we are all relying on what we can remember when we see our mums cook. I conclude I am so not cut out for cooking cause I'm seriously clumsy.
Anyway, here are the photos of sumptous meal we cook!
Green curry chicken cooked by yours truly! Actually, I didn't have to do much, it's like cooking instant noodles, I just dumped the curry powder into the water, dump in the chicken, and other stuff...and tada! It's done!
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Steamed fish by terence! (which surprisely is edible)
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VEGG!!! By cheng...
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姜葱猪肉 by cheng again! He's seriously the only one that looks like he can remotely cook.
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Our meal! (plus omelette)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Pointless Ramblings
//Pointless Ramblings//
It's just another story caught up in another photograph I found
And it seems like another person lived that life
A great number of years ago from now
- Photograph (Jamie Cullum)
Been reading through some of my older entries lately, because well, I'm just too bored, and I was actually quite surprised at some of the things I wrote. Not that it was even remotely good writing or what, but at least there was something, I actually put some thoughts into what I wanna write. But I was kind of glad I did capture down what I felt at that period of time, at least I was reminded that I was once optimistic about some stuff.
Lately, I don't know whether it's the lack of time, no inspiration or what, I just can't be bothered to even try to translate those incoherent thoughts and ramblings in my mind into words anymore. I'm just lazy I guess. Or maybe I should say that I hardly have such reflections and thinking process going on in my brain anymore since my life has been all about following orders.
"If the commander ask you to jump, you jump", to quote one of my commanders.
Shall not blame it entirely on NS, and I decided I shall stop blogging about it too, at least not during my block leave, because I want to feel like a real civilian for once. *try to ignore the fact that posting is coming out tomorrow and i will be back by monday*
Been discussing with quite some people about uni applications lately too. Reading up on all the modules and stuff made me kind of pumped up and excited about uni education. Of course I was slapped back into reality really soon.
Admist all these discussions, the issue of moral courage was suddenly raised. Don't ask me how, it was kind of random I agree. Do you stand up for what you believe in? Apparently, someone commented that my friend lack moral guts? Kind of made me wonder what that someone thought of me too with regards to this, but I would be more than willing to admit I'm not the kind that will fight aggressively for my rights or what I think is right. Not proud of it, but yea, that's me. That's not to say I condone stuff that I think is morally wrong tho.
Of course I'm not talking about really serious stuff like condoning crimes or whatsoever. But let's say someone cut my queue, my typical reaction would be to just let it be. And that's basically my attitude towards a lot of stuff. I mean 多一事不如少一事, so why get worked up over trivial stuff like that? I am just the type of person that prefer peace, nothing wrong with that I guess. People may see it as a sign of weakness or what, but at the end of the day, as long as I'm happy, who are they to judge?
Ok, I think I am getting into the rambling mode already. Shall talk about something happier.
Finally, I watched a movie! "Vantage Point" wasn't exactly mind-blowing fantastic, but it was worth the money at least. I felt that a lot of parts could have been developed further, like the media reporting part, or the backstory of some of the characters. The narration was quite interesting. reminded me of the movie "Memento", which is a movie with a very simple plot narrated in a fascinating manner. So just like what I felt about "Memento", take away the narration plot device, and "Vantage Point" is actually a very simple and straightforward movie. I kind of wished there was more twists actually, and the excessive use of this mode of narration from the different point of view, made it feel a bit gimmicky. But all in all, I did enjoy it.
On a totally unrelated note, I read this article on zaobao the other day, about the current trend of people changing the lyrics to current pop songs. Kind of funny cause I was just telling meng about how both my bro and sis actually write their own songs, and that I wanna try writing some lyrics too some time.
For me, lyrics of a song is far more important than the melody itself. I can find myself growing to really love a song with a very average tune, but awesome lyrics, but I just can't bring myself to listen to songs with crap lyrics. Granted it's the tune that usually attract me to a song in the first place, it's the lyrics that determine whether it's just another song I will sing along to or one that I really like.
One of these days...I will write something...when inspiration strikes.
It's just another story caught up in another photograph I found
And it seems like another person lived that life
A great number of years ago from now
- Photograph (Jamie Cullum)
Been reading through some of my older entries lately, because well, I'm just too bored, and I was actually quite surprised at some of the things I wrote. Not that it was even remotely good writing or what, but at least there was something, I actually put some thoughts into what I wanna write. But I was kind of glad I did capture down what I felt at that period of time, at least I was reminded that I was once optimistic about some stuff.
Lately, I don't know whether it's the lack of time, no inspiration or what, I just can't be bothered to even try to translate those incoherent thoughts and ramblings in my mind into words anymore. I'm just lazy I guess. Or maybe I should say that I hardly have such reflections and thinking process going on in my brain anymore since my life has been all about following orders.
"If the commander ask you to jump, you jump", to quote one of my commanders.
Shall not blame it entirely on NS, and I decided I shall stop blogging about it too, at least not during my block leave, because I want to feel like a real civilian for once. *try to ignore the fact that posting is coming out tomorrow and i will be back by monday*
Been discussing with quite some people about uni applications lately too. Reading up on all the modules and stuff made me kind of pumped up and excited about uni education. Of course I was slapped back into reality really soon.
Admist all these discussions, the issue of moral courage was suddenly raised. Don't ask me how, it was kind of random I agree. Do you stand up for what you believe in? Apparently, someone commented that my friend lack moral guts? Kind of made me wonder what that someone thought of me too with regards to this, but I would be more than willing to admit I'm not the kind that will fight aggressively for my rights or what I think is right. Not proud of it, but yea, that's me. That's not to say I condone stuff that I think is morally wrong tho.
Of course I'm not talking about really serious stuff like condoning crimes or whatsoever. But let's say someone cut my queue, my typical reaction would be to just let it be. And that's basically my attitude towards a lot of stuff. I mean 多一事不如少一事, so why get worked up over trivial stuff like that? I am just the type of person that prefer peace, nothing wrong with that I guess. People may see it as a sign of weakness or what, but at the end of the day, as long as I'm happy, who are they to judge?
Ok, I think I am getting into the rambling mode already. Shall talk about something happier.
Finally, I watched a movie! "Vantage Point" wasn't exactly mind-blowing fantastic, but it was worth the money at least. I felt that a lot of parts could have been developed further, like the media reporting part, or the backstory of some of the characters. The narration was quite interesting. reminded me of the movie "Memento", which is a movie with a very simple plot narrated in a fascinating manner. So just like what I felt about "Memento", take away the narration plot device, and "Vantage Point" is actually a very simple and straightforward movie. I kind of wished there was more twists actually, and the excessive use of this mode of narration from the different point of view, made it feel a bit gimmicky. But all in all, I did enjoy it.
On a totally unrelated note, I read this article on zaobao the other day, about the current trend of people changing the lyrics to current pop songs. Kind of funny cause I was just telling meng about how both my bro and sis actually write their own songs, and that I wanna try writing some lyrics too some time.
For me, lyrics of a song is far more important than the melody itself. I can find myself growing to really love a song with a very average tune, but awesome lyrics, but I just can't bring myself to listen to songs with crap lyrics. Granted it's the tune that usually attract me to a song in the first place, it's the lyrics that determine whether it's just another song I will sing along to or one that I really like.
One of these days...I will write something...when inspiration strikes.
Sunday, March 09, 2008
Lost
//Lost//
I am very happy with my results. Very.
Not so excited about the fact that I still have absolutely no idea what to study. What's worse is I am totally not motivated to find out more about the options I have. There's the issue of what to study, whether to study local or overseas, whether to apply for scholarships or not, if yes, what scholarship should I go for.
But seriously, I really really really am in the mood to think about all this.
My mind is more preoccupied with POP this coming wednesday and the 12 day bloc leave, and more importantly what I'm going to do during this 12 days.
Perhaps NS has really eroded my brain in just a matter of 12 weeks.
I really envy those people who know what they want.
Lost. :(
I am very happy with my results. Very.
Not so excited about the fact that I still have absolutely no idea what to study. What's worse is I am totally not motivated to find out more about the options I have. There's the issue of what to study, whether to study local or overseas, whether to apply for scholarships or not, if yes, what scholarship should I go for.
But seriously, I really really really am in the mood to think about all this.
My mind is more preoccupied with POP this coming wednesday and the 12 day bloc leave, and more importantly what I'm going to do during this 12 days.
Perhaps NS has really eroded my brain in just a matter of 12 weeks.
I really envy those people who know what they want.
Lost. :(
Sunday, March 02, 2008
Happy Faces
//Happy Faces//
Was browsing through my photos cause we are supposed to print out a photo of us with hair for our PS to see, and came across this photo.
Genuinely happy faces of us....on this day
A day to remember.
Was browsing through my photos cause we are supposed to print out a photo of us with hair for our PS to see, and came across this photo.
Genuinely happy faces of us....on this day
A day to remember.
Saturday, March 01, 2008
My February
//My February//
In case you think I died in Tekong or something, I didn't. I was just too lazy to update this blog, cause there's seriously nothing much going on in my life now anyway.
It certainly doesn't help when 2 of my precious weekends since my last update have been eaten up by fieldcamp and sit test.
BMT life since my last update is...well..like that lor. Had the fieldcamp, which according to my sgt is supposed to be omg-so-shagged, and sit test which is supposed to be omg-even-more-shagged. Of course there's lots of IPPT, SOC, and route marches going on coupled with the usual PT like strength training, speed training and AGR. Did my live range too, so basically I am only left with one last major event for BMT which is the 24km route march.
I realised I kind of enjoy outfield, at least I kind of like my fieldcamp and sit test (when it didn't rain). I mean it's not like I love outfield or what, in fact there are lots of things that I hate about fieldcamp, like all the proning during stand 2, all the tekaning etc, but somehow, time seems to pass much faster. Like during fieldcamp, an entire afternoon can be spent on practising fire movement or urban ops stuff, and admist all the waiting, eating (yes eating!), and getting scolded by sgts, the afternoon is over just like that.
And I loooove sit test, not for the test itself, but for all the free time we had. The test usually ends at 12+ and it's free time for the rest of the day! And it's quite nice to sit around and talk cock while munching on the biscuits from the accessory pack.
Somehow we just eat so so much during fieldcamp and sit test that we think we will gain weight after fieldcamp. Speaking of food during fieldcamp, I absolutely love the desserts in our combat rations, especially the red bean with wintermelon and red bean with logan. i LOVE the peanut with lotus roots too. I love the oat digestive biscuit in the accessory pack too, oh and the fruit bars! It's kind of funny that before the sit test, some of my bunkmates and I were talking about how excited we are about sit test cause we get to eat field rations again.
Live range was another slack affair. It's a lot of sitting around and waiting, and of course, eating (again). Thank god for the ninja van for selling all the snacks and stuff if not I think I would have died of boredom. I did pretty ok for my day shoot, scoring 15/16, but I am such a bobo shooter at night scoring only 6/16. But as long as I passed I'm happy.
Can't say the same for my IPPT though. Had my IPPT last mon, I was quite glad that I've improved in all stations, chin ups from 0 when I first enlist to 7 now, and 2.4 from 13.12 to 10.58. Sadly, I just can't jump. The sgt was like "JUMP LIKE A FROG!!" when I went for the IPPT re-test with Kestrel coy on fri, but no matter how hard I tried I still can't pass lar. I was quite touched though when almost all my platoon mates who went for the retest was encouraging me and telling me I can do it. It's funny that there's 2 of us from the platoon that can't pass SBJ, and no one really cared about the other person.
Speaking of "that person", I am really amazed at how NS can make me re-evaluate myself as a person. I used to think I am a very mild-tempered person, with a very high level of tolerance. I guess I was wrong, cause "that person" actually made me do things I don't think I would usually do. I really really cannot stand "that person" (and I think the same can be said for almost the whole platoon), and I think he's the first person that can make me say such sacarstic comments right in his face. I mean normally I just keep those comments to myself, but with him, it just comes out of my mouth, there's no control.
10 more days to POP and I can't wait to get that person completely out of my life. I swear if he manage to get into OCS, I would absolutely completely lose faith in how our army operates. That being said, though I certainly won't miss him, I am sure I would miss my bunkmates and platoonmates for sure. I would miss Rocky Hill Camp for the serenity. I would miss my big big bunk compared to those at Ladang. I would even miss some of my commanders.
10 more days, hope it's a memorable 10 days.
In case you think I died in Tekong or something, I didn't. I was just too lazy to update this blog, cause there's seriously nothing much going on in my life now anyway.
It certainly doesn't help when 2 of my precious weekends since my last update have been eaten up by fieldcamp and sit test.
BMT life since my last update is...well..like that lor. Had the fieldcamp, which according to my sgt is supposed to be omg-so-shagged, and sit test which is supposed to be omg-even-more-shagged. Of course there's lots of IPPT, SOC, and route marches going on coupled with the usual PT like strength training, speed training and AGR. Did my live range too, so basically I am only left with one last major event for BMT which is the 24km route march.
I realised I kind of enjoy outfield, at least I kind of like my fieldcamp and sit test (when it didn't rain). I mean it's not like I love outfield or what, in fact there are lots of things that I hate about fieldcamp, like all the proning during stand 2, all the tekaning etc, but somehow, time seems to pass much faster. Like during fieldcamp, an entire afternoon can be spent on practising fire movement or urban ops stuff, and admist all the waiting, eating (yes eating!), and getting scolded by sgts, the afternoon is over just like that.
And I loooove sit test, not for the test itself, but for all the free time we had. The test usually ends at 12+ and it's free time for the rest of the day! And it's quite nice to sit around and talk cock while munching on the biscuits from the accessory pack.
Somehow we just eat so so much during fieldcamp and sit test that we think we will gain weight after fieldcamp. Speaking of food during fieldcamp, I absolutely love the desserts in our combat rations, especially the red bean with wintermelon and red bean with logan. i LOVE the peanut with lotus roots too. I love the oat digestive biscuit in the accessory pack too, oh and the fruit bars! It's kind of funny that before the sit test, some of my bunkmates and I were talking about how excited we are about sit test cause we get to eat field rations again.
Live range was another slack affair. It's a lot of sitting around and waiting, and of course, eating (again). Thank god for the ninja van for selling all the snacks and stuff if not I think I would have died of boredom. I did pretty ok for my day shoot, scoring 15/16, but I am such a bobo shooter at night scoring only 6/16. But as long as I passed I'm happy.
Can't say the same for my IPPT though. Had my IPPT last mon, I was quite glad that I've improved in all stations, chin ups from 0 when I first enlist to 7 now, and 2.4 from 13.12 to 10.58. Sadly, I just can't jump. The sgt was like "JUMP LIKE A FROG!!" when I went for the IPPT re-test with Kestrel coy on fri, but no matter how hard I tried I still can't pass lar. I was quite touched though when almost all my platoon mates who went for the retest was encouraging me and telling me I can do it. It's funny that there's 2 of us from the platoon that can't pass SBJ, and no one really cared about the other person.
Speaking of "that person", I am really amazed at how NS can make me re-evaluate myself as a person. I used to think I am a very mild-tempered person, with a very high level of tolerance. I guess I was wrong, cause "that person" actually made me do things I don't think I would usually do. I really really cannot stand "that person" (and I think the same can be said for almost the whole platoon), and I think he's the first person that can make me say such sacarstic comments right in his face. I mean normally I just keep those comments to myself, but with him, it just comes out of my mouth, there's no control.
10 more days to POP and I can't wait to get that person completely out of my life. I swear if he manage to get into OCS, I would absolutely completely lose faith in how our army operates. That being said, though I certainly won't miss him, I am sure I would miss my bunkmates and platoonmates for sure. I would miss Rocky Hill Camp for the serenity. I would miss my big big bunk compared to those at Ladang. I would even miss some of my commanders.
10 more days, hope it's a memorable 10 days.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Confinement
//Confinement//
So I had my first taste of how confinement feels like.
Well, at least it was the entire company being confined.
Today is book out day. Today is also book in day.
When we first heard the rumour on Monday, everyone is devasted, but somehow when the official announcement was made on Thursday, I was kind 0f okay with it. In fact, for some weird arcane reason, everyone's spirits were rather high on Friday. Maybe not everyone, but the people around me were zi-highing.
Booking in in 2 hours time, and I won't be back for 2 full weeks. Will be having my fieldcamp from 25th Jan to 30th Jan. The commanders are making the fieldcamp sound so so scary, don't know what to expect actually, the only thing I asked for is that we won't make some stupid mistakes and get confined again.
On a sidenote, I want to watch Cloverfield! Hope it's still on when I book out on 2nd Feb.
51 days to POP
So I had my first taste of how confinement feels like.
Well, at least it was the entire company being confined.
Today is book out day. Today is also book in day.
When we first heard the rumour on Monday, everyone is devasted, but somehow when the official announcement was made on Thursday, I was kind 0f okay with it. In fact, for some weird arcane reason, everyone's spirits were rather high on Friday. Maybe not everyone, but the people around me were zi-highing.
Booking in in 2 hours time, and I won't be back for 2 full weeks. Will be having my fieldcamp from 25th Jan to 30th Jan. The commanders are making the fieldcamp sound so so scary, don't know what to expect actually, the only thing I asked for is that we won't make some stupid mistakes and get confined again.
On a sidenote, I want to watch Cloverfield! Hope it's still on when I book out on 2nd Feb.
51 days to POP
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Home
//Home//
Went back to Hwa Chong right after I booked out on Friday night for the J1 O1 campfire. It feels weird walking up to the class bench again, the last time I did that was on 22nd Nov.
Standing at the Central Plaza again feels great. Even the dark night sky looks better than the one in Tekong. Singing the familiar songs, dancing the familiar mass dance, it feels good, but I know very well in my heart that it's just a fleeting moment kind of thing, I mean afterall, I have already graudated, I am already a NSF. Looking at the J1s running around in their Orientation T-shirt, I feel nothing but envy.
Sitting at my favourite spot at the class bench feels surreal. I mean just a few hours before that I was still sitting in my bunk waiting to get out. 心态上的落差感真的很大。
Witnessed the "watermelon-smashing" ceremony for 08S71. They seem like a cool bunch of people. I think the best part of going back is still seeing 06s71, though only a miserable 6 other poeple turned up. Learnt some shocking news, like Hannah is now teaching at Nanyang Primary! Saw Miss Wong and Gene Tan too, they haven't changed much, I mean it's been only a few months.
Will be going back in a few more weeks time I guess to get results. Nerve-wrecking.
Went back to Hwa Chong right after I booked out on Friday night for the J1 O1 campfire. It feels weird walking up to the class bench again, the last time I did that was on 22nd Nov.
Standing at the Central Plaza again feels great. Even the dark night sky looks better than the one in Tekong. Singing the familiar songs, dancing the familiar mass dance, it feels good, but I know very well in my heart that it's just a fleeting moment kind of thing, I mean afterall, I have already graudated, I am already a NSF. Looking at the J1s running around in their Orientation T-shirt, I feel nothing but envy.
Sitting at my favourite spot at the class bench feels surreal. I mean just a few hours before that I was still sitting in my bunk waiting to get out. 心态上的落差感真的很大。
Witnessed the "watermelon-smashing" ceremony for 08S71. They seem like a cool bunch of people. I think the best part of going back is still seeing 06s71, though only a miserable 6 other poeple turned up. Learnt some shocking news, like Hannah is now teaching at Nanyang Primary! Saw Miss Wong and Gene Tan too, they haven't changed much, I mean it's been only a few months.
Will be going back in a few more weeks time I guess to get results. Nerve-wrecking.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
When It All Falls Apart
//When It All Falls Apart//
And it's been yet another week in Tekong.
First day in Tekong after the book in on Sunday night is pretty bad. My theory is that they purposely chose to tekan us badly on this day because they think we are fresh from the bookout, no muscle aches and so on, so at least we can do standard pushups and so on. Imagine them tekaning us on Friday, with more than half the people doing half-fucked pushups because of the muscle ache from a week of training.
The funny thing is while we were being tekan in the Parade Square outside the cookhouse, staring at the red ground on the parade square at one moment doing pushups, then staring at the starry dark morning sky at the next moment doing that shutter kick or something, the song that was playing on the radio in the cookhouse was this...
I'm having a day from hell
It wasn't all going so well
- When It All Falls Apart (The Veronicas)
And it became sort of the theme for the day, and the entire day did sort of became the day from hell.
Subsequent days were defintely much better though. I looove the long long admin time at night after RO. I espeically love the moment when I lie down on my bed to sleep, cause it feels that the day is officially over and I'm one day closer to bookout day.
Went out with my section mates today for lunch, sort of as a farewell for mark who's posted out since he's already down pes, and as a opportunity for us to see wai kit too. Section 2, down to 11 people from the original 13.
It's quite an eye-opener, or rather it's quite interesting to hear from some of them about who they dislike in the platoon and so on.
I feel really lucky to be in section 2, cause I think among all the not-so-pleasant people in the whole platoon, or to put it more crudely, among all the people I dislike in the platoon, none of them are from section 2.
59 days to POP. 1 more bookout before my fieldcamp. Feeling kind of nervous about the fieldcamp.
And it's been yet another week in Tekong.
First day in Tekong after the book in on Sunday night is pretty bad. My theory is that they purposely chose to tekan us badly on this day because they think we are fresh from the bookout, no muscle aches and so on, so at least we can do standard pushups and so on. Imagine them tekaning us on Friday, with more than half the people doing half-fucked pushups because of the muscle ache from a week of training.
The funny thing is while we were being tekan in the Parade Square outside the cookhouse, staring at the red ground on the parade square at one moment doing pushups, then staring at the starry dark morning sky at the next moment doing that shutter kick or something, the song that was playing on the radio in the cookhouse was this...
I'm having a day from hell
It wasn't all going so well
- When It All Falls Apart (The Veronicas)
And it became sort of the theme for the day, and the entire day did sort of became the day from hell.
Subsequent days were defintely much better though. I looove the long long admin time at night after RO. I espeically love the moment when I lie down on my bed to sleep, cause it feels that the day is officially over and I'm one day closer to bookout day.
Went out with my section mates today for lunch, sort of as a farewell for mark who's posted out since he's already down pes, and as a opportunity for us to see wai kit too. Section 2, down to 11 people from the original 13.
It's quite an eye-opener, or rather it's quite interesting to hear from some of them about who they dislike in the platoon and so on.
I feel really lucky to be in section 2, cause I think among all the not-so-pleasant people in the whole platoon, or to put it more crudely, among all the people I dislike in the platoon, none of them are from section 2.
59 days to POP. 1 more bookout before my fieldcamp. Feeling kind of nervous about the fieldcamp.
Sunday, January 06, 2008
Anticipation
//Anticipation//
My bunkmate was telling me the best part about booking out is not the actual bookout, but the anticipation of it, especially a few hours just before the bookout. I agree wholeheartedly because we always hype things up to make ourselves feel better.
Likewise, the worst part of booking in is not the part where we fall in at Pasir Ris Interchange at the stipulated timing. The worst part is the few hours right before booking in as you are about to change out of your civilian clothing into your smart 4. The transition from civilian to soldier is indeed painful.
On a side note, we were asked to bring a photo in during our last book in, and I wanted to bring a photo of my cute cousin mao mao. Unfortunately, to my horror, I can't find a photo of him! (aside from those in the comp that is)...so in the end, I brought in this photo!
I can't find a family photo, SJAB photo or anything, so this is the closest and most significant photo I can find that actually means something to me.
1 more week to 1 month anniversary of enlisting.
65 days to POP.
My bunkmate was telling me the best part about booking out is not the actual bookout, but the anticipation of it, especially a few hours just before the bookout. I agree wholeheartedly because we always hype things up to make ourselves feel better.
Likewise, the worst part of booking in is not the part where we fall in at Pasir Ris Interchange at the stipulated timing. The worst part is the few hours right before booking in as you are about to change out of your civilian clothing into your smart 4. The transition from civilian to soldier is indeed painful.
On a side note, we were asked to bring a photo in during our last book in, and I wanted to bring a photo of my cute cousin mao mao. Unfortunately, to my horror, I can't find a photo of him! (aside from those in the comp that is)...so in the end, I brought in this photo!
I can't find a family photo, SJAB photo or anything, so this is the closest and most significant photo I can find that actually means something to me.
1 more week to 1 month anniversary of enlisting.
65 days to POP.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
2008
//2008//
So this is Christmas
And what have you done
Another year over
And a new one just began
- Happy Christmas War Is Over (John Lennon)
I know Christmas was over already, but the lyrics is still quite apt. Another year over, and a new one just began.
What have you done in the past year?
2007 flew by just like that, from the very beginning of the year, the thought of A levels has been weighing on all our minds. Then it was block test after block test and before we knew it, it was prelims already. The year was filled with lots of mugging, but still it was bearable and enjoyable cause of the company I get.
Both JC and NS take up 2 years of our life, but I think the biggest difference between the 2 is one will fly by very quickly while the other will slowly crawl past bit by bit.
Met up with the class on New Year's eve. We went cycling at ECP, followed by dinner at Crystal Jade at Suntec and dessert at MOF (ministry of food) at Marina Square. Seeing them again really make me miss the class bench and school in general.
Booking in in 7 hours time. Bookout times always pass so so fast. I don't know if I will be able to book out the next weekend or not since the supposedly remedial training is beginning for those that fail the IPPT cat test.
70 days 12 hours and 7 min 30 seconds to POP! Feels awfully similar to that time when I'm counting down to the start of A levels, cause I only started counting down to A levels with about 70 + days left. A levels have came and gone, let's just hope BMT will too!
So this is Christmas
And what have you done
Another year over
And a new one just began
- Happy Christmas War Is Over (John Lennon)
I know Christmas was over already, but the lyrics is still quite apt. Another year over, and a new one just began.
What have you done in the past year?
2007 flew by just like that, from the very beginning of the year, the thought of A levels has been weighing on all our minds. Then it was block test after block test and before we knew it, it was prelims already. The year was filled with lots of mugging, but still it was bearable and enjoyable cause of the company I get.
Both JC and NS take up 2 years of our life, but I think the biggest difference between the 2 is one will fly by very quickly while the other will slowly crawl past bit by bit.
Met up with the class on New Year's eve. We went cycling at ECP, followed by dinner at Crystal Jade at Suntec and dessert at MOF (ministry of food) at Marina Square. Seeing them again really make me miss the class bench and school in general.
Booking in in 7 hours time. Bookout times always pass so so fast. I don't know if I will be able to book out the next weekend or not since the supposedly remedial training is beginning for those that fail the IPPT cat test.
70 days 12 hours and 7 min 30 seconds to POP! Feels awfully similar to that time when I'm counting down to the start of A levels, cause I only started counting down to A levels with about 70 + days left. A levels have came and gone, let's just hope BMT will too!
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
NS Life
//NS Life//
It's been 10 days since I enlisted.
Lots of people has sms-ed me to wish me luck for NS, and many have asked me how's NS whenever they see me online when I bookout. I'm really touched and it really means a lot to me...but a lot of times, I really don't know how to reply.
To quote from the letter I received from the previous person sleeping in the bed I'm sleeping on now in the bunk "BMT is not as fun as people make it out to be, but it is certainly no hell also."
I mean there would definitely be some shit times in there, like certain times when I can't cope with certain physical training and so on. But there are definitely moments inside that can make my day too, like having more admin time than usual, or when we encourage each other to do more pullups during our free time even though our muscle already aches like mad.
I didn't adapt quite as well as I thought I would initially. I was mentally prepared for a lot of things, like the regimentation of army life, the vulgarities from the commanders and so on. What I didn't expect is how a lack of friends can put a toll on my mind.
I really miss my family and friends in there. I have always coped rather well with home sickness issues whenever I have to leave my home for a extended period of time. But whatever the situation may be, I still had my friends with me. Like in Taiwan, I'm still surrounded by people I know, and even during the home stay, I was very much welcomed by my buddy's family.
That's what I didn't anticipate in NS, at least for the first couple of days. It was rather lonely, and I just can't deal with that very well. What's worse is I usually take a long time to warm up to people, so it feels even worse when I see other people starting to chat around more, getting along better.
I remembered I felt that way back in sec 1 too. It took me weeks to adjust to secondary school life.
And to make matters worse, it's a friggin' 13 week programme. Unlike St John camps or stuff like that, the whole BMT lasts for so long, and it just seems to never end, especially during the first few days.
Right now, I have already booked out twice, and I'm booking in soon. And just like I mentioned it's been 10 days since I enlisted. I'm definitely getting along much much better with my bunkmates and platoon mates right now. That's probably why I was happier the last couple of days. (or maybe it was the thought of booking on Christmas) Whatever it is, I'm just glad that I'm finally starting to get used to NS life.
On a side note, I must say I spent my bookout days rather efficiently. Met up with ever, wilson & xinyi for KBox yesterday from 11 to 2, and went to watch "Alvin & The Chipmunks" with the TIP people after that, followed by watching "National Treasure" with the St John people. Then I went back to meet the TIP people for Christmas countdown.
But I was left with a slight fever, and a sorethroat now a few hours before booking in. I'm not exactly thrilled about it, cause I just feel feverish, with the generalised body aches you get for fever, but my temperature is not above 37.5 degrees, so this means I can't go to see the Medical Officer (MO). So I'm really praying that I will get well really soon.
I just changed my countdown timer on my comp again, now I'm counting down to POP (Passing Out Parade).
77 days 6 hours 20 mins to POP!
It's been 10 days since I enlisted.
Lots of people has sms-ed me to wish me luck for NS, and many have asked me how's NS whenever they see me online when I bookout. I'm really touched and it really means a lot to me...but a lot of times, I really don't know how to reply.
To quote from the letter I received from the previous person sleeping in the bed I'm sleeping on now in the bunk "BMT is not as fun as people make it out to be, but it is certainly no hell also."
I mean there would definitely be some shit times in there, like certain times when I can't cope with certain physical training and so on. But there are definitely moments inside that can make my day too, like having more admin time than usual, or when we encourage each other to do more pullups during our free time even though our muscle already aches like mad.
I didn't adapt quite as well as I thought I would initially. I was mentally prepared for a lot of things, like the regimentation of army life, the vulgarities from the commanders and so on. What I didn't expect is how a lack of friends can put a toll on my mind.
I really miss my family and friends in there. I have always coped rather well with home sickness issues whenever I have to leave my home for a extended period of time. But whatever the situation may be, I still had my friends with me. Like in Taiwan, I'm still surrounded by people I know, and even during the home stay, I was very much welcomed by my buddy's family.
That's what I didn't anticipate in NS, at least for the first couple of days. It was rather lonely, and I just can't deal with that very well. What's worse is I usually take a long time to warm up to people, so it feels even worse when I see other people starting to chat around more, getting along better.
I remembered I felt that way back in sec 1 too. It took me weeks to adjust to secondary school life.
And to make matters worse, it's a friggin' 13 week programme. Unlike St John camps or stuff like that, the whole BMT lasts for so long, and it just seems to never end, especially during the first few days.
Right now, I have already booked out twice, and I'm booking in soon. And just like I mentioned it's been 10 days since I enlisted. I'm definitely getting along much much better with my bunkmates and platoon mates right now. That's probably why I was happier the last couple of days. (or maybe it was the thought of booking on Christmas) Whatever it is, I'm just glad that I'm finally starting to get used to NS life.
On a side note, I must say I spent my bookout days rather efficiently. Met up with ever, wilson & xinyi for KBox yesterday from 11 to 2, and went to watch "Alvin & The Chipmunks" with the TIP people after that, followed by watching "National Treasure" with the St John people. Then I went back to meet the TIP people for Christmas countdown.
But I was left with a slight fever, and a sorethroat now a few hours before booking in. I'm not exactly thrilled about it, cause I just feel feverish, with the generalised body aches you get for fever, but my temperature is not above 37.5 degrees, so this means I can't go to see the Medical Officer (MO). So I'm really praying that I will get well really soon.
I just changed my countdown timer on my comp again, now I'm counting down to POP (Passing Out Parade).
77 days 6 hours 20 mins to POP!
Friday, December 14, 2007
Post A Levels
//Post A Levels//
There were lots of things I have been wanting to post here, but since I was out like almost everyday, I can't really find the time, and even if I'm at home, I would rather take that time to slacka and nua instead of blogging.
I mean there are lots of others things to do too, like seletctively throwing away notes and so on.
But with 18 hours, 44 mins and 30 seconds left of freedom before I enlist, I decided that I have to do this. If not I wouldn't have the time or energy to do this even when I book out.
So let's rewind...back to the day A levels ended on 22nd Nov......I know this is going to be boring, but I really want to record all this now, I mean afterall, there'll only be 1 "post-A-lvl" period in your life...
22nd Nov (Thursday)
A levels ended! Watched Stardust with the class. There were like 19 of us, haha, we never had such good attendance for any class activities, except maybe JTS earlier on this year. Stardust was great!
23rd Nov (Friday)
Went running in the morning, and had breakfast together with my parents at this Bedok hawker, which apparently they used to bring me there when I was 2 . Shocking discovery! My mum used to be in a band, and my dad used to go to those beach parties! My aunts (one of them is 60+ now) are frequent clubbers back when they were younger and they would lie to my grandma whenever they go clubbing! That's the kind of stuff you can dig out when you have breakfast with your parents like everyday after A levels.
25th Nov (Sunday)
Did prom shopping with mingwei. Learnt something new that day: do not ever ever shop with lee mingwei alone. But it's not entirely his fault, I mean that's what you get when 2 guys who don't really shop a lot go out shopping together.
26th Nov (Monday)
First Sentosa outing for H4! It started to rain just after we arrived at Siloso beach. We still managed to entertain ourselves by eating grass, doing forward rows, doing star jumps at the Bus terminal there. Went to Palawan beach later on in the afternoon after the rain stopped. Played frisbee...and surprisely...mingwei is the winning factor! Whoever teamed up with him will always win!
We spent a long long time trying to bury ying cheng with him sitting down...to bury him in sand to such a height...it requires a really big base...
Stupid terence with really short hands, I was supposed to be in this photo too, but terence's zi pai skills suck, you can see a bit of my hair though next to mingwei. Speaking of this, Lee Ming Wei, I want the photos from sentosa! Please upload them soon!
Terence tried to make ying cheng a tourist attraction by constantly shouting "5 bucks per photo!" when the tourists came out from Dolphin Lagoon.
27th Nov (Tuesday)
KBox outing with the class! Rebecca and Edmund who don't usually go to Kbox with us came along too! Song of the day has to go to Edmund for his "Phantom of the Opera", where he sung both the girl and guy's part. His "Re Dai Yu Ling" was pretty entertaining too, considering how he can't read the Chinese words.
28th Nov (Wednesday)
Prom shopping again, this time with my mum. Surprisely, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Finally bought my vest at Topman Suntec, with a 20 bucks discount thanks to ying cheng's voucher.
29th Nov (Thursday)
Malaysia trip to see my beloved cousin. I decided to call him Julien Mao from now on. Did some more prom shopping there, bought my shirt at Espirit there...and pants from this shop called Padini I think. Never underestimate the power of aunties! My mum actually managed to "con" the salesperson into giving us a 25% discount voucher! She was just telling that salesperson what a pity it is that I forgot to bring my Espirit card (which I borrowed from ying cheng), and that if I have that card (which gives me 10% discount) I will definitely buy more. And that salesperson just gave her a 25% discount voucher!
Apparently, according to my mum who heard from her friend, sometimes these salesperson will keep these vouchers (cause they will be given vouchers since they are staff) and give them to customers who seem to be inclined to buy a lot (for some shops, they do earn commissions), so as to increase the incentives for them to buy more. So...I got a 25% discount...by doing nothing!
30th Nov to 3rd Dec (Friday to Monday)
Class Chalet! It was really quite fun. We didn't plan anything, and we just ended up doing things on impulse, like going to Escape, which was a totally random idea raised during our breakfast at BK. Really enjoyed the midnight stoning session at the beach too.
The highlight of the chalet for me is probably the mini foodtour that ever, pauline, mitchell and I went on while the rest went for Lan. Speaking of this...Everlyn! I want the photos! We even went to Clarke Quay after the mini foodtour for a walk (and we ended up sitting down by the river...haha). The rushing to Punggol so that we don't miss the last bus to Downtown East was pretty hilarous, especially the part where we played with the doors at Punggol MRT.
Went for the tea session for SPH scholarship on 3rd Dec too. Still comtemplating if I should even apply for it. Saw terence there...and apparently he was really really shocked to see me there, and that I'm even considering for the SPH scholarhsip.
I was really pissed at some of the things he said, well, actually not at the things he said, but I was more upset by the fact that as a close friend for almost 6 years, it seems like his perception of me and who I think I am seems to be very different. I was upset at myself too, for always always being so passive in whatver things I am interested in. Maybe I have been potraying this "image" of myself around them, or they just don't know me well enough, but whatever the case may be, I was kind of upset and at the same time, inspired to be more active in pursuing my interests.
4th Dec (Tuesday)
Prom day itself! I'm not going to forgive myself if I don't blog about this, cause it's like my one and only prom in my life.
It was kind of like A levels all over again! The "preparation" part sucks, cause I really hate shopping, and though I can't wait to get it over and done with because of all the hassles associated, I kind of didn't want to come so soon, cause it's afterall the last Hwa Chong event I'm attending, the last time the whole class will be gathered in one place. I'm rather pleased with myself for keeping within my budget, I didn't think it was possible at first.
I was very glad that the whole class came, and I managed to take photos with every single one of them individually. Or at least I thought I did, till I looked through my prom photos, and I realised I didn't take one with Jason!
The food was average, not really worth the 90 bucks, but I guess food's really secondary on Prom night. I felt so blinded by all the flashlights from the camera.
06S71 at Shangri-La! Lih Hern's not in this photo cause he had to leave early (at 10+) since he's going China. The girls all dressed up really nicely, while the guys were mostly wearing black and white.
Guys of 06S71!
St John photo of those whoe went for Prom! Minghao, somehow mysteriously disappeared from this photo, though he claimed to be there. I really liked this photo, and like ying cheng said, it feels like we all 长大了, especially when compared to those sec 1 sec 2 photos.
H4 photo! I'm kind of glad we stuck to the name H4, instead of some lame suggestions like Pi Sa Dan Ta, if not I would be typing "Pi Sa Dan Ta photo!"instead.
Mingwei and I...worked with him a lot...be it on St John matters, or our Chem project. Thanks for the "hahahahhahahha"-ing. Makes me feel a lot better.
Me and Ying Cheng! Took a lot of free rides from your Dad! And lots of mugging sessions together at Cathay and SRC...thanks!
Me and Terence! Bling Bling! As annoying and irritating as you can be sometimes, I FORGIVE YOU! HAHAHA! But seriously, we all have flaws, and with close friends, we look past and beyond each other's flaws, that's why we (as in the 4 of us) are still friends. You are already in Tekong as I am typing this...but good luck anyway.
A "America's Next Top Model"-inspired photo.
Taiwan Immersion people!!!
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Remember this 九份 photo?
九份 redux at Prom!
Me and Nicholas wearing the same vest! I can only say we both have great taste! Hahaha...
5th Dec (Wednesday)
Stayed overnight at Gary's house after prom, and stayed for the whole day there due to the rain. Had quite a fun time playing Munchkins, I was so close to winning...but too bad. Haha. Yahoo Graffiti that night with the class was quite imba, like this one "Tues, $1"...and the answer is.....HOTDOG!
6th Dec (Thursday)
Movies day! Watched "The Golden Compass" with the class in the afternoon, and "The Tattooist" with squadmates at night. Both movies sucked, the company made up for it fortunately. Here are some of the photos for the St John outing that night.
We visited The Concourse to supposedly reminisce, because it will be torn down really soon, and it really does mean something to us, especially the BK there.
Sitting outside BK drinking free Starbucks coffee, my second drink of the day.
Christmas fair at The Concourse.
Photo with Veishen, who went back for Malaysia that night.
7th, 8th, 9th Dec (Friday to Sunday)
Slacking and nuaing at home! Successfully tidy up my room (which actually isn't messy to start with)
10th Dec (Monday)
One last H4 outing before Terence and I enlist. Went PS for Cafe Cartel set lunch. Went on to watch "Mad Detective" after that, which I highly recommend! To sum up the movie, I shall just quote Terence's msn personal msg: "每个人心中都有鬼，那么你心里又有几只?"
This is terence...being himself.
11th Dec (Tuesday)
Went for one last Kbox session with ever and weixin, 3 of us sang for 5 hours, which is really bad for my throat. Refer to the previous entry for a funny incident that happened that day! This is a message to weixin if you are reading...you haven't send me the guy's photo during Prom, and send me the photos we took that day too!
12th Dec (Wednesday)
GP stuff! Not doing GP work of course, but filing up my GP stuff of course. I filed and kept them cause I thought some of those articles and stuff may come in handy in the future, and it feels really bad to throw them all away, when I didn't even read 90%of them.
13th Dec (Thursday)
Malaysia trip again to see Julien Mao! Bought some clothes too, since I anticpate that I won't have time to do CNY shopping next year.
And with that, I'm done with my longest entry ever!!!!
There were lots of things I have been wanting to post here, but since I was out like almost everyday, I can't really find the time, and even if I'm at home, I would rather take that time to slacka and nua instead of blogging.
I mean there are lots of others things to do too, like seletctively throwing away notes and so on.
But with 18 hours, 44 mins and 30 seconds left of freedom before I enlist, I decided that I have to do this. If not I wouldn't have the time or energy to do this even when I book out.
So let's rewind...back to the day A levels ended on 22nd Nov......I know this is going to be boring, but I really want to record all this now, I mean afterall, there'll only be 1 "post-A-lvl" period in your life...
22nd Nov (Thursday)
A levels ended! Watched Stardust with the class. There were like 19 of us, haha, we never had such good attendance for any class activities, except maybe JTS earlier on this year. Stardust was great!
23rd Nov (Friday)
Went running in the morning, and had breakfast together with my parents at this Bedok hawker, which apparently they used to bring me there when I was 2 . Shocking discovery! My mum used to be in a band, and my dad used to go to those beach parties! My aunts (one of them is 60+ now) are frequent clubbers back when they were younger and they would lie to my grandma whenever they go clubbing! That's the kind of stuff you can dig out when you have breakfast with your parents like everyday after A levels.
25th Nov (Sunday)
Did prom shopping with mingwei. Learnt something new that day: do not ever ever shop with lee mingwei alone. But it's not entirely his fault, I mean that's what you get when 2 guys who don't really shop a lot go out shopping together.
26th Nov (Monday)
First Sentosa outing for H4! It started to rain just after we arrived at Siloso beach. We still managed to entertain ourselves by eating grass, doing forward rows, doing star jumps at the Bus terminal there. Went to Palawan beach later on in the afternoon after the rain stopped. Played frisbee...and surprisely...mingwei is the winning factor! Whoever teamed up with him will always win!
We spent a long long time trying to bury ying cheng with him sitting down...to bury him in sand to such a height...it requires a really big base...
Stupid terence with really short hands, I was supposed to be in this photo too, but terence's zi pai skills suck, you can see a bit of my hair though next to mingwei. Speaking of this, Lee Ming Wei, I want the photos from sentosa! Please upload them soon!
Terence tried to make ying cheng a tourist attraction by constantly shouting "5 bucks per photo!" when the tourists came out from Dolphin Lagoon.
27th Nov (Tuesday)
KBox outing with the class! Rebecca and Edmund who don't usually go to Kbox with us came along too! Song of the day has to go to Edmund for his "Phantom of the Opera", where he sung both the girl and guy's part. His "Re Dai Yu Ling" was pretty entertaining too, considering how he can't read the Chinese words.
28th Nov (Wednesday)
Prom shopping again, this time with my mum. Surprisely, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Finally bought my vest at Topman Suntec, with a 20 bucks discount thanks to ying cheng's voucher.
29th Nov (Thursday)
Malaysia trip to see my beloved cousin. I decided to call him Julien Mao from now on. Did some more prom shopping there, bought my shirt at Espirit there...and pants from this shop called Padini I think. Never underestimate the power of aunties! My mum actually managed to "con" the salesperson into giving us a 25% discount voucher! She was just telling that salesperson what a pity it is that I forgot to bring my Espirit card (which I borrowed from ying cheng), and that if I have that card (which gives me 10% discount) I will definitely buy more. And that salesperson just gave her a 25% discount voucher!
Apparently, according to my mum who heard from her friend, sometimes these salesperson will keep these vouchers (cause they will be given vouchers since they are staff) and give them to customers who seem to be inclined to buy a lot (for some shops, they do earn commissions), so as to increase the incentives for them to buy more. So...I got a 25% discount...by doing nothing!
30th Nov to 3rd Dec (Friday to Monday)
Class Chalet! It was really quite fun. We didn't plan anything, and we just ended up doing things on impulse, like going to Escape, which was a totally random idea raised during our breakfast at BK. Really enjoyed the midnight stoning session at the beach too.
The highlight of the chalet for me is probably the mini foodtour that ever, pauline, mitchell and I went on while the rest went for Lan. Speaking of this...Everlyn! I want the photos! We even went to Clarke Quay after the mini foodtour for a walk (and we ended up sitting down by the river...haha). The rushing to Punggol so that we don't miss the last bus to Downtown East was pretty hilarous, especially the part where we played with the doors at Punggol MRT.
Went for the tea session for SPH scholarship on 3rd Dec too. Still comtemplating if I should even apply for it. Saw terence there...and apparently he was really really shocked to see me there, and that I'm even considering for the SPH scholarhsip.
I was really pissed at some of the things he said, well, actually not at the things he said, but I was more upset by the fact that as a close friend for almost 6 years, it seems like his perception of me and who I think I am seems to be very different. I was upset at myself too, for always always being so passive in whatver things I am interested in. Maybe I have been potraying this "image" of myself around them, or they just don't know me well enough, but whatever the case may be, I was kind of upset and at the same time, inspired to be more active in pursuing my interests.
4th Dec (Tuesday)
Prom day itself! I'm not going to forgive myself if I don't blog about this, cause it's like my one and only prom in my life.
It was kind of like A levels all over again! The "preparation" part sucks, cause I really hate shopping, and though I can't wait to get it over and done with because of all the hassles associated, I kind of didn't want to come so soon, cause it's afterall the last Hwa Chong event I'm attending, the last time the whole class will be gathered in one place. I'm rather pleased with myself for keeping within my budget, I didn't think it was possible at first.
I was very glad that the whole class came, and I managed to take photos with every single one of them individually. Or at least I thought I did, till I looked through my prom photos, and I realised I didn't take one with Jason!
The food was average, not really worth the 90 bucks, but I guess food's really secondary on Prom night. I felt so blinded by all the flashlights from the camera.
06S71 at Shangri-La! Lih Hern's not in this photo cause he had to leave early (at 10+) since he's going China. The girls all dressed up really nicely, while the guys were mostly wearing black and white.
Guys of 06S71!
St John photo of those whoe went for Prom! Minghao, somehow mysteriously disappeared from this photo, though he claimed to be there. I really liked this photo, and like ying cheng said, it feels like we all 长大了, especially when compared to those sec 1 sec 2 photos.
H4 photo! I'm kind of glad we stuck to the name H4, instead of some lame suggestions like Pi Sa Dan Ta, if not I would be typing "Pi Sa Dan Ta photo!"instead.
Mingwei and I...worked with him a lot...be it on St John matters, or our Chem project. Thanks for the "hahahahhahahha"-ing. Makes me feel a lot better.
Me and Ying Cheng! Took a lot of free rides from your Dad! And lots of mugging sessions together at Cathay and SRC...thanks!
Me and Terence! Bling Bling! As annoying and irritating as you can be sometimes, I FORGIVE YOU! HAHAHA! But seriously, we all have flaws, and with close friends, we look past and beyond each other's flaws, that's why we (as in the 4 of us) are still friends. You are already in Tekong as I am typing this...but good luck anyway.
A "America's Next Top Model"-inspired photo.
Taiwan Immersion people!!!
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Remember this 九份 photo?
九份 redux at Prom!
Me and Nicholas wearing the same vest! I can only say we both have great taste! Hahaha...
5th Dec (Wednesday)
Stayed overnight at Gary's house after prom, and stayed for the whole day there due to the rain. Had quite a fun time playing Munchkins, I was so close to winning...but too bad. Haha. Yahoo Graffiti that night with the class was quite imba, like this one "Tues, $1"...and the answer is.....HOTDOG!
6th Dec (Thursday)
Movies day! Watched "The Golden Compass" with the class in the afternoon, and "The Tattooist" with squadmates at night. Both movies sucked, the company made up for it fortunately. Here are some of the photos for the St John outing that night.
We visited The Concourse to supposedly reminisce, because it will be torn down really soon, and it really does mean something to us, especially the BK there.
Sitting outside BK drinking free Starbucks coffee, my second drink of the day.
Christmas fair at The Concourse.
Photo with Veishen, who went back for Malaysia that night.
7th, 8th, 9th Dec (Friday to Sunday)
Slacking and nuaing at home! Successfully tidy up my room (which actually isn't messy to start with)
10th Dec (Monday)
One last H4 outing before Terence and I enlist. Went PS for Cafe Cartel set lunch. Went on to watch "Mad Detective" after that, which I highly recommend! To sum up the movie, I shall just quote Terence's msn personal msg: "每个人心中都有鬼，那么你心里又有几只?"
This is terence...being himself.
11th Dec (Tuesday)
Went for one last Kbox session with ever and weixin, 3 of us sang for 5 hours, which is really bad for my throat. Refer to the previous entry for a funny incident that happened that day! This is a message to weixin if you are reading...you haven't send me the guy's photo during Prom, and send me the photos we took that day too!
12th Dec (Wednesday)
GP stuff! Not doing GP work of course, but filing up my GP stuff of course. I filed and kept them cause I thought some of those articles and stuff may come in handy in the future, and it feels really bad to throw them all away, when I didn't even read 90%of them.
13th Dec (Thursday)
Malaysia trip again to see Julien Mao! Bought some clothes too, since I anticpate that I won't have time to do CNY shopping next year.
And with that, I'm done with my longest entry ever!!!!
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Planets
//Planets//
I promised weixin that I will post this on the blog.
Yesterday, ever, weixin and I went kbox...kind of like a last kbox session before I enlist, and weixin happened to be singing this new song by f.i.r, "第十行星". So and it sparked off this convo between us...(of course I cannot remember the exact the dialouge, this is a rough transcript)
me: hey, now that pluto is not a planet anymore, shouldn't this song be "第九行星"?
weixin: yar lor!
ever: wait, how many planets are there now that pluto is not a planet? 10 right?
me and weixin: ?!?!?!?
weixin: Oh my god ever! It's primary 3 science!!!
me: okay okay, let me test you, what is the planet closest to the sun?
ever: erm...jupiter?
me and weixin: OHMYGOD!
ever: wait wait, that's the smallest planet!!
me and weixin: -_-" *speechless
ever: not the smallest meh?!
I guess I am in no position to laugh at her, since I can't tell what's after S T U V _ .
But you must admit that was pretty funny.
I promised weixin that I will post this on the blog.
Yesterday, ever, weixin and I went kbox...kind of like a last kbox session before I enlist, and weixin happened to be singing this new song by f.i.r, "第十行星". So and it sparked off this convo between us...(of course I cannot remember the exact the dialouge, this is a rough transcript)
me: hey, now that pluto is not a planet anymore, shouldn't this song be "第九行星"?
weixin: yar lor!
ever: wait, how many planets are there now that pluto is not a planet? 10 right?
me and weixin: ?!?!?!?
weixin: Oh my god ever! It's primary 3 science!!!
me: okay okay, let me test you, what is the planet closest to the sun?
ever: erm...jupiter?
me and weixin: OHMYGOD!
ever: wait wait, that's the smallest planet!!
me and weixin: -_-" *speechless
ever: not the smallest meh?!
I guess I am in no position to laugh at her, since I can't tell what's after S T U V _ .
But you must admit that was pretty funny.
Monday, December 10, 2007
Random
//Random//
I was packing my stuff, in fact I still am, that's why my room is in a state of mess right now at 1.20 am.
I found this list of topics for each subject that I need to mug for A levels, and suddenly I remembered that A level just ended like a few weeks ago. So much time seemed to have passed for some reason.
I have been pretty busy since A lvls ended, I was out almost everyday, with the exception of fri till now, and the 2 days right after A lvls. I was either out doing prom shopping, singing at Kbox, chalet, stayovers, Prom, and the list goes on. I felt like I've done so much in this short amount of time since A levels ended.
I've been to Kbox (which I've been craving for a looong time), I've watched 3 movies, I've been to Malaysia, I've been to Sentosa...I've basically made up for the lack of social life for the past few months.
Actually I've no idea what I'm writing, I was just a bit 'inspired', for the lack of a better word, by that list of topics. I'm not like "Oh I miss mugging so much!" mode, but there's definitely a part of me kind of not adjusted to the total lack of mugging. I'm enjoying life right now, but I find myself, from time to time, thinking about my mugging sessions from the past 2 years. Maybe I don't really miss mugging, I just miss the mugging session itself.
I miss my classmates. I miss my squadmates. Don't know what's wrong with me. Received a sms from mitch wishing me luck for ns...since he will be off to indonesia with some of the class guys, and won't be back until after I enlist.
It feels like official goodbye to my student life. At least right now I still enjoy student meals, student specials, but come 15th Dec, I'm officially no longer a student. It's hard saying goodbye to this life, that I've been living for so long.
I don't think I'm making much sense now, this is really not a good time to blog, not at this kind of time, and with the mess in my room staring at me. Will try to blog about Prom...about the chalet...the food tour..and basically what's been going on in my life for the past few weeks soon.
I was packing my stuff, in fact I still am, that's why my room is in a state of mess right now at 1.20 am.
I found this list of topics for each subject that I need to mug for A levels, and suddenly I remembered that A level just ended like a few weeks ago. So much time seemed to have passed for some reason.
I have been pretty busy since A lvls ended, I was out almost everyday, with the exception of fri till now, and the 2 days right after A lvls. I was either out doing prom shopping, singing at Kbox, chalet, stayovers, Prom, and the list goes on. I felt like I've done so much in this short amount of time since A levels ended.
I've been to Kbox (which I've been craving for a looong time), I've watched 3 movies, I've been to Malaysia, I've been to Sentosa...I've basically made up for the lack of social life for the past few months.
Actually I've no idea what I'm writing, I was just a bit 'inspired', for the lack of a better word, by that list of topics. I'm not like "Oh I miss mugging so much!" mode, but there's definitely a part of me kind of not adjusted to the total lack of mugging. I'm enjoying life right now, but I find myself, from time to time, thinking about my mugging sessions from the past 2 years. Maybe I don't really miss mugging, I just miss the mugging session itself.
I miss my classmates. I miss my squadmates. Don't know what's wrong with me. Received a sms from mitch wishing me luck for ns...since he will be off to indonesia with some of the class guys, and won't be back until after I enlist.
It feels like official goodbye to my student life. At least right now I still enjoy student meals, student specials, but come 15th Dec, I'm officially no longer a student. It's hard saying goodbye to this life, that I've been living for so long.
I don't think I'm making much sense now, this is really not a good time to blog, not at this kind of time, and with the mess in my room staring at me. Will try to blog about Prom...about the chalet...the food tour..and basically what's been going on in my life for the past few weeks soon.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Over
//Over//
Finally, it's over.
I didn't anticipate that I would be overjoyed, or esctatic after my last paper, which happen to be Biology Paper 1.
Perhaps this long 23 days has been been too taxing on my mind to even feel any joy.
Perhaps I am too numbed by this feeling of "liberation" since this is the 6th time I am having this feeling in the past 2 years.
Perhaps like Ying Cheng said, "played" too much during A levels period liao, which is kind of true for me, since I still surf you tube almost every day, I still log into facebook, basically just what I do everyday (though to a much lesser extent), I mean that's what happen when you have 3 exams in 2 days, then a 7 day break.
Whatever the reason is, I knew I wasn't going to be like too excited when I hand in my last paper. But when the examiner announced "time's up, pen's down", at that very moment, I still feel a sense of liberation. It's not a "Yay it's over!" kind of liberation, more like "*Sigh*, it's finally over...." kind of feeling. Liberation nonetheless.
I daydream a lot during the A level period and slightly prior to it, cause I think I mentioned it before, when I mug, I get bored easily, and that's when I daydream the most. The scene of me handing in my last paper to the invigilator keeps playing in my mind, especially at the beginning of A levels, and that's seriously one of the main motivator that kept me going all the way, cause I always feel sooo happpy just imagining myself handing in that last paper. Maybe that's why the real thing doesn't feel as good, I mean, when something is so hyped up, it's hard to beat the hype I guess?
Nearing the end of A levels, I have even more time to daydream, since my last 3 papers are Chem MCQ, Bio MCQ and Bio paper 3, which aren't really very intensive when it comes to mugging. Instead of thinking about the last paper, I start to think more about the past. I try to remember all the mugging/crapping sessions I had with my friends, some of the more memorable tutorial sessions...just random stuff like these.
The fact that A level, and JC school life in general, is ending seems more and more real. Before that, it was something that I dream about, at that point, it was something was really going to happen soon.
I mean I talk with my friends so much about how school is ending, how this is the last tutorial session, how this is the last this and last that, but 22nd Nov is really going to be the end. I just can't quite reconcile with that fact it is really ending.
As I stepped out of the school gate that day, it was kind of a mixed feeling. Afterall, that has been my school for my past 6 years. I won't be stepping back into the school compound feeling that same way ever again.
I will miss complaining to my friends that 151 takes 30 mins to come and half of them are non air-con. I will miss the ugly brown uniform. I will miss Evelyn Ong's SMB message with 1001 different attachments. I will miss Pauline's sms from mrs ong to remind us to go to IVLE to check her newly uploaded econs articles. I will miss the 1 hour long tutorial discussing just 1 Bio MCQ. I will miss playing bridge at the class bench everyday after school. I will miss stoning at the class bench for hours before deciding what to do after every exam. I will even miss the Malay stall's curry chicken.
Okay, I think I am crazy. I will probably forget about these stuff soon, but still anyone who knows me will know that I hate changes, so it will probably take me a while to adjust myself mentally.
If my 12 years in this education is glycolysis, and NS is Krebs Cycle, then this 23 days before my enlistment is definitely the Link Reaction, which is kind of useless, but still necessary for me to adjust my mindset before I stepped onto Tekong to contribute to the nature by feeding the mosquitos.
Please don't mind my Bio analogy, I would forget most of these stuff soon anyway, so let me use them as much as possible before they get erased permanently from my memory.
Finally, it's over.
I didn't anticipate that I would be overjoyed, or esctatic after my last paper, which happen to be Biology Paper 1.
Perhaps this long 23 days has been been too taxing on my mind to even feel any joy.
Perhaps I am too numbed by this feeling of "liberation" since this is the 6th time I am having this feeling in the past 2 years.
Perhaps like Ying Cheng said, "played" too much during A levels period liao, which is kind of true for me, since I still surf you tube almost every day, I still log into facebook, basically just what I do everyday (though to a much lesser extent), I mean that's what happen when you have 3 exams in 2 days, then a 7 day break.
Whatever the reason is, I knew I wasn't going to be like too excited when I hand in my last paper. But when the examiner announced "time's up, pen's down", at that very moment, I still feel a sense of liberation. It's not a "Yay it's over!" kind of liberation, more like "*Sigh*, it's finally over...." kind of feeling. Liberation nonetheless.
I daydream a lot during the A level period and slightly prior to it, cause I think I mentioned it before, when I mug, I get bored easily, and that's when I daydream the most. The scene of me handing in my last paper to the invigilator keeps playing in my mind, especially at the beginning of A levels, and that's seriously one of the main motivator that kept me going all the way, cause I always feel sooo happpy just imagining myself handing in that last paper. Maybe that's why the real thing doesn't feel as good, I mean, when something is so hyped up, it's hard to beat the hype I guess?
Nearing the end of A levels, I have even more time to daydream, since my last 3 papers are Chem MCQ, Bio MCQ and Bio paper 3, which aren't really very intensive when it comes to mugging. Instead of thinking about the last paper, I start to think more about the past. I try to remember all the mugging/crapping sessions I had with my friends, some of the more memorable tutorial sessions...just random stuff like these.
The fact that A level, and JC school life in general, is ending seems more and more real. Before that, it was something that I dream about, at that point, it was something was really going to happen soon.
I mean I talk with my friends so much about how school is ending, how this is the last tutorial session, how this is the last this and last that, but 22nd Nov is really going to be the end. I just can't quite reconcile with that fact it is really ending.
As I stepped out of the school gate that day, it was kind of a mixed feeling. Afterall, that has been my school for my past 6 years. I won't be stepping back into the school compound feeling that same way ever again.
I will miss complaining to my friends that 151 takes 30 mins to come and half of them are non air-con. I will miss the ugly brown uniform. I will miss Evelyn Ong's SMB message with 1001 different attachments. I will miss Pauline's sms from mrs ong to remind us to go to IVLE to check her newly uploaded econs articles. I will miss the 1 hour long tutorial discussing just 1 Bio MCQ. I will miss playing bridge at the class bench everyday after school. I will miss stoning at the class bench for hours before deciding what to do after every exam. I will even miss the Malay stall's curry chicken.
Okay, I think I am crazy. I will probably forget about these stuff soon, but still anyone who knows me will know that I hate changes, so it will probably take me a while to adjust myself mentally.
If my 12 years in this education is glycolysis, and NS is Krebs Cycle, then this 23 days before my enlistment is definitely the Link Reaction, which is kind of useless, but still necessary for me to adjust my mindset before I stepped onto Tekong to contribute to the nature by feeding the mosquitos.
Please don't mind my Bio analogy, I would forget most of these stuff soon anyway, so let me use them as much as possible before they get erased permanently from my memory.
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