//Ridiculous//
Sometimes some things can get so ridiculous that I wonder if I should feel pissed or if I should just laugh at it.
From rat to mario to holy, things can be that ridiculous.
World class instituition?
World class joke maybe.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Monday, July 09, 2007
我期待
//我期待//
Barium carbonate was in the test tube.
The test tube was being heated by the bunsen burner.
I was talking.
I felt like tears were welling up in my eyes. Was it the heat from the bunsen flame?
The test tube was still being heated by the bunsen burner.
I continued talking.
And the test tube cracked.
"My squad really deserves the BEST squad of the century award! Bonded as we are, somehow after these 2 years we haven't really passed out as sjab officers. Jeremy & Wenxuan are still the dedicated trainers in SJAB, & really can see the effort put into grooming the jnrs, esp jeremy! Really love the times our squad could sit and talk abt anything under the sun. Every SJAB camp was a gathering time for us, & the memories just kinda return back whenever I visit the juniors along with my squadmates. Maybe we've outlived our stay, as all the juniors in our NCO days gradually pass out from SJAB... but we'd forever the the one & only 2005 batch of ZAI NCOS!!!" - aaron chua
Put the test tube in the fire for too long and this is what happened. I shall not become the test tube. After what happened during the june hols...I realised it's really time to move on...
"People in the corps come and leave, it keeps changing, but your squadmates never change, they are always there for you." - pauline a.k.a my sai gung chem lab partner
thanks for doing almost everything today in the chem lab while i emo...haha...i shld feel depressed more...then don't need do prac liaoz...
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
昂首阔步
不留一丝遗憾
- 张雨生 (我期待)
Barium carbonate was in the test tube.
The test tube was being heated by the bunsen burner.
I was talking.
I felt like tears were welling up in my eyes. Was it the heat from the bunsen flame?
The test tube was still being heated by the bunsen burner.
I continued talking.
And the test tube cracked.
"My squad really deserves the BEST squad of the century award! Bonded as we are, somehow after these 2 years we haven't really passed out as sjab officers. Jeremy & Wenxuan are still the dedicated trainers in SJAB, & really can see the effort put into grooming the jnrs, esp jeremy! Really love the times our squad could sit and talk abt anything under the sun. Every SJAB camp was a gathering time for us, & the memories just kinda return back whenever I visit the juniors along with my squadmates. Maybe we've outlived our stay, as all the juniors in our NCO days gradually pass out from SJAB... but we'd forever the the one & only 2005 batch of ZAI NCOS!!!" - aaron chua
Put the test tube in the fire for too long and this is what happened. I shall not become the test tube. After what happened during the june hols...I realised it's really time to move on...
"People in the corps come and leave, it keeps changing, but your squadmates never change, they are always there for you." - pauline a.k.a my sai gung chem lab partner
thanks for doing almost everything today in the chem lab while i emo...haha...i shld feel depressed more...then don't need do prac liaoz...
Say goodbye
Say goodbye
昂首阔步
不留一丝遗憾
- 张雨生 (我期待)
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Best CPR
//Best CPR//
I remember 3 years ago, after nat comp, jeremy was complaining to me that he missed the best leader by 2 marks. The best leader (from zone 8) got 31 marks, and he got 29. Just as a number 1 would look at his leader score, I would naturally look at the CPR score, since number 3 is usually in charge of CPR.
The person with best CPR (from zone 8 too) got 44. 2 person tied for second place with a score of 40. I got 39.5, coming in third (or fourth, depending on how you look at it).
Even though my score wasn't really fantastic, I was actually quite proud of it at that time, cause I never really think I am good in CPR at all...it was just something I had to do since I was the number 3, so being 0.5 marks away from being 2nd was a great deal for me.
Best CPR wasn't something I was actively trying to get when preparing for competition, I was more concerned with overall performance, trying to get at least a top 3 position and best footdrill, which was a huge thing for us at that time, considering we haven't done well in Nat comp at all since I joined st john in sec 1.
But after looking at the scores of the CPR and I remember looking at the trophies in St John room and I saw this Best CPR trophy, I was determined to make sure that we will win that best CPR the following year, just like how jeremy really wanted the next batch to win the best leader.
To a very large extent, I wanted to help the juniors win something that I couldn't win it myself. It's kind of a mentality that even though I am not good enough to win it, at least I trained someone good enough to win it.
Unfortunately it didn't happen.
They made up for it by winning lots of other stuff though.
The batch after that (last year), which wasn't trained by me didn't manage to get the best CPR too.
Come this year, I wasn't really expecting much anymore, afterall, it's like a long lost dream for me..haha. But still, when they are announcing the results for CPR, I am still very much hoping for the emcee to announce "Zone 7".
Thank you yufan and whoever it is that trained the teams CPR, for finally making this a dream a reality.
Just heard that Wei Sheng did really well for CPR too! He got third! :) And he wasn't even the one supposed to do CPR...really proud of him.
Even though I didn't train the teams for CPR, it still ROCKS to see that Hwachong finally won that best CPR. Its marks probably didn't have a very very big impact on the overall results, but it's kind of a pride thing for me.
Being the person to do CPR for my team, and being forced by jer to judge CPR for all mock comps, I kind of grew to like it I guess. I still suck at CPR, I probably can't give a very positive demo of a good CPR, but I am still very critical of people doing CPR, I still want my juniors to do well in CPR.
I am just so glad that I get to see this trophy before I graduated from Hwa Chong.
I am not taking anything away from any other stuff that they won, cause it's equally hard too, but it's just this shuang dao lan feeling...woots!
Anyway...congrats to AC and AA! The trainers did a fantastic job too...
AC:
2nd in Footdrill
2nd in Long Case
2nd in Short Case
Overall 2nd!
AA:
Best Leader
Best Long Case
Best CPR
2nd in TOC
Overall CHAMPION!
to jeremy: you can finally sleep without having nightmares about nat comp anymore...haha..
I remember 3 years ago, after nat comp, jeremy was complaining to me that he missed the best leader by 2 marks. The best leader (from zone 8) got 31 marks, and he got 29. Just as a number 1 would look at his leader score, I would naturally look at the CPR score, since number 3 is usually in charge of CPR.
The person with best CPR (from zone 8 too) got 44. 2 person tied for second place with a score of 40. I got 39.5, coming in third (or fourth, depending on how you look at it).
Even though my score wasn't really fantastic, I was actually quite proud of it at that time, cause I never really think I am good in CPR at all...it was just something I had to do since I was the number 3, so being 0.5 marks away from being 2nd was a great deal for me.
Best CPR wasn't something I was actively trying to get when preparing for competition, I was more concerned with overall performance, trying to get at least a top 3 position and best footdrill, which was a huge thing for us at that time, considering we haven't done well in Nat comp at all since I joined st john in sec 1.
But after looking at the scores of the CPR and I remember looking at the trophies in St John room and I saw this Best CPR trophy, I was determined to make sure that we will win that best CPR the following year, just like how jeremy really wanted the next batch to win the best leader.
To a very large extent, I wanted to help the juniors win something that I couldn't win it myself. It's kind of a mentality that even though I am not good enough to win it, at least I trained someone good enough to win it.
Unfortunately it didn't happen.
They made up for it by winning lots of other stuff though.
The batch after that (last year), which wasn't trained by me didn't manage to get the best CPR too.
Come this year, I wasn't really expecting much anymore, afterall, it's like a long lost dream for me..haha. But still, when they are announcing the results for CPR, I am still very much hoping for the emcee to announce "Zone 7".
Thank you yufan and whoever it is that trained the teams CPR, for finally making this a dream a reality.
Just heard that Wei Sheng did really well for CPR too! He got third! :) And he wasn't even the one supposed to do CPR...really proud of him.
Even though I didn't train the teams for CPR, it still ROCKS to see that Hwachong finally won that best CPR. Its marks probably didn't have a very very big impact on the overall results, but it's kind of a pride thing for me.
Being the person to do CPR for my team, and being forced by jer to judge CPR for all mock comps, I kind of grew to like it I guess. I still suck at CPR, I probably can't give a very positive demo of a good CPR, but I am still very critical of people doing CPR, I still want my juniors to do well in CPR.
I am just so glad that I get to see this trophy before I graduated from Hwa Chong.
I am not taking anything away from any other stuff that they won, cause it's equally hard too, but it's just this shuang dao lan feeling...woots!
Anyway...congrats to AC and AA! The trainers did a fantastic job too...
AC:
2nd in Footdrill
2nd in Long Case
2nd in Short Case
Overall 2nd!
AA:
Best Leader
Best Long Case
Best CPR
2nd in TOC
Overall CHAMPION!
to jeremy: you can finally sleep without having nightmares about nat comp anymore...haha..
Friday, July 06, 2007
End
//End//
This Sunday shall be the last time.
Last time I ever go for a tkd grading...unless I ever find the motivation in me to pick it up in the future...though I doubt so. Kind of relieved that it's the last grading for me actually, kind of regretted going for this grading in the first place, but I guess it's a bit too late to regret now, shall do my best on Sun anyway...probably to compensate for my performance during comp...
Last time I ever go down to support National Comp...I think it's about time I move on...st john gave me lots and lots of fond memories...but I can't keep clinging on the the past..clinging on the things like comp team trainings and stuff...MOVE ON!
I probably wouldn't get the chance to go next year to support anyway cause of NS...and a few years down the road...I guess I wouldn't even be able to recognise the juniors...
i would cling on tight to my squadmates tho. haha. esp yc...for the sake of durians. haha.
This Sunday shall be the last time.
Last time I ever go for a tkd grading...unless I ever find the motivation in me to pick it up in the future...though I doubt so. Kind of relieved that it's the last grading for me actually, kind of regretted going for this grading in the first place, but I guess it's a bit too late to regret now, shall do my best on Sun anyway...probably to compensate for my performance during comp...
Last time I ever go down to support National Comp...I think it's about time I move on...st john gave me lots and lots of fond memories...but I can't keep clinging on the the past..clinging on the things like comp team trainings and stuff...MOVE ON!
I probably wouldn't get the chance to go next year to support anyway cause of NS...and a few years down the road...I guess I wouldn't even be able to recognise the juniors...
i would cling on tight to my squadmates tho. haha. esp yc...for the sake of durians. haha.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
平淡
//平淡//
BT 完了。
Literally and figuratively.
这三个星期来，我的生活只可以用平淡来形容。
但其实平淡也没什么不好啦。平淡中的精彩反而更精彩。
Watched a movie called "Zodiac" during the holidays. Although I wasn't exactly thrilled or super excited about it, I wasn't hating it like my friends were. In fact, I was actually quite pleasantly surprised by it.
It's based on a true story, about a series of murders conducted by a guy who called himself "Zodiac" in US in the 1960s and 70s.
Reading the synopsis, I was expecting a thriller, with a clever plot that is full of twists and turns (like The Prestige). And it turned out quite the oppsite.
The narration was quite "one note", or like what our Chinese teacher used to say, 流水帐. There wasn't much twists and turns to the story like I thought there would be. And most importantly, there was no resolution in the end. The murderer was not found.
And usually I would feel very let down by a movie like that, but surprisely, I didn't felt that way. I actually felt that the simple narration, and lack of contrived twists and turns helped to make the story much more believable and real. Instead of feeling like I'm watching a movie, I actually felt like I was a bystander, witnessing the whole event unfold in front of me.
The narration may not be very exciting, but I think the story itself, for me, is intriguing enough. He allowed the story to be told in the most direct and honest manner, and I appreciate that because it prevented the movie from becoming one of the many Hollywood thrillers.
I may not be kept at the edge of my seat throughout the movie, but like I mentioned, I actually felt like I was living in that time, watching this drama unfold (that spanned over 4 decades) in just 2+ hours, and the movie showed a lot of real aspects of real life investigaton, like how inefficient the US police can be, especially since this case span over a few states.
The lack of a definite resolution in the end was kind of disappointing at first, but since the fact is the real murderer was never really truly found, I can understand why the director end the movie on that note. However, watching the process of how the police and that cartoonist try to crack the case is interesting enough for me already, as cheesy and cliche as it sounds, it's not always the end that counts, it's the process.
So the movie is just like what I said, 平淡也可以很精彩。
最近迷上了陈绮贞和Jack Johnson 的歌。
他们的歌曲都有一个共同点，就是都很简单，很舒服。
特别喜欢陈绮贞声音。虽然她没有很华丽的外表或是很绚丽的歌声，但她就是简单，很诚恳地把每一首歌唱好，听起来有一种 "我只唱给你听" 的感觉，就是会让人感动。她也不用复杂的编曲，不卖弄技巧，就是一把吉他，一份诚恳，让我们陶醉在她的歌曲中。
这里的景色像你变幻莫测
这样的午后我坐在九份的马路边
这里的空气很新鲜
这里的感觉很特别
- 陈绮贞 (九份的咖啡店）
其中，我对这首“九份的咖啡店”特别有感觉，可能是它让我想起去年去台湾的点点滴滴吧，特别是让我回味起在九份那短短的半天。
望着朦胧的海岸线
是否还能回到从前
- 陈绮贞 (九份的咖啡店）
It's kind of sad listening to those 2 lines, and looking at this picture at the same time, it's taken in 九份 by the way.
我的心是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味
- 陈绮贞 (九份的咖啡店）
最喜欢歌曲里这两句歌词，也没什么特别的原因，可能就让我感同身受吧，用两句简单的歌词，就能把我心中的感受很直接易懂地表达出来。
Jack Jackson is similar in the sense that his lyrics are simple, yet it's so true, and sometimes it really reflects what I feel perfectly...it's not really fanciful, and it may even appear blatently obvious and retarded to some...but its simpleness just hits me...
And there has always been laughing, crying, birth, and dying
Boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break
And heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture
But then hurt from time to time like these
And times like those
And what will be will be
And so it goes
And it always goes on and on...
On and on it goes
- Jack Johnson (Times Like These)
What will be will be, and so it goes...my facourite lines...I know it sounds a bit like fatalism that we studied last time, fate decides our life, etc...but you know there are always moments and times in life that we would feel like everything is beyond our control...what will be will just be...
I think that's largely how I see life in general...not that I feel like I have no control over my life or whatsoever, but just that I just like to take it easy...I don't like to live in the present frantically trying to plan for my future...like what I wanna be in the future...I know it's bad but that's just me...when the time comes...i will just deal with it...
And there's a part of me that really craves this certain "平淡"ness in my life...i don't need like exciting stuff to happen, just a good book or a good movie, or even chatting with friends, having a good lunch will make my day, just find me something simple to pass time, and I'll be happy...
Like today...spent an hour plus at this CD shop at Taka B2...listening to lots of different songs...I really love that feeling..putting on those headphones, and immersing myself in the music, it's almost like I don't really notice what's going on around me anymore....
A good lucnch with classmates followed by spending some time at Kino looking at random books, was a nice feeling too...it's like we don't need to always go out to watch movie and stuff...I enjoy this kind of moments as much as anything else too...
Milkrun...well..it's just running...but still I enjoyed it...these times spent with classmates...especially when I know there's not much time left for us as a class...
Ok...离题了...I think this entry is rather fragmented...and incoherent...but oh well..that's me...full of incoherent and random thoughts in my mind...shall end here...
I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
-Jack Johnson (Breakdown)
BT 完了。
Literally and figuratively.
这三个星期来，我的生活只可以用平淡来形容。
但其实平淡也没什么不好啦。平淡中的精彩反而更精彩。
Watched a movie called "Zodiac" during the holidays. Although I wasn't exactly thrilled or super excited about it, I wasn't hating it like my friends were. In fact, I was actually quite pleasantly surprised by it.
It's based on a true story, about a series of murders conducted by a guy who called himself "Zodiac" in US in the 1960s and 70s.
Reading the synopsis, I was expecting a thriller, with a clever plot that is full of twists and turns (like The Prestige). And it turned out quite the oppsite.
The narration was quite "one note", or like what our Chinese teacher used to say, 流水帐. There wasn't much twists and turns to the story like I thought there would be. And most importantly, there was no resolution in the end. The murderer was not found.
And usually I would feel very let down by a movie like that, but surprisely, I didn't felt that way. I actually felt that the simple narration, and lack of contrived twists and turns helped to make the story much more believable and real. Instead of feeling like I'm watching a movie, I actually felt like I was a bystander, witnessing the whole event unfold in front of me.
The narration may not be very exciting, but I think the story itself, for me, is intriguing enough. He allowed the story to be told in the most direct and honest manner, and I appreciate that because it prevented the movie from becoming one of the many Hollywood thrillers.
I may not be kept at the edge of my seat throughout the movie, but like I mentioned, I actually felt like I was living in that time, watching this drama unfold (that spanned over 4 decades) in just 2+ hours, and the movie showed a lot of real aspects of real life investigaton, like how inefficient the US police can be, especially since this case span over a few states.
The lack of a definite resolution in the end was kind of disappointing at first, but since the fact is the real murderer was never really truly found, I can understand why the director end the movie on that note. However, watching the process of how the police and that cartoonist try to crack the case is interesting enough for me already, as cheesy and cliche as it sounds, it's not always the end that counts, it's the process.
So the movie is just like what I said, 平淡也可以很精彩。
最近迷上了陈绮贞和Jack Johnson 的歌。
他们的歌曲都有一个共同点，就是都很简单，很舒服。
特别喜欢陈绮贞声音。虽然她没有很华丽的外表或是很绚丽的歌声，但她就是简单，很诚恳地把每一首歌唱好，听起来有一种 "我只唱给你听" 的感觉，就是会让人感动。她也不用复杂的编曲，不卖弄技巧，就是一把吉他，一份诚恳，让我们陶醉在她的歌曲中。
这里的景色像你变幻莫测
这样的午后我坐在九份的马路边
这里的空气很新鲜
这里的感觉很特别
- 陈绮贞 (九份的咖啡店）
其中，我对这首“九份的咖啡店”特别有感觉，可能是它让我想起去年去台湾的点点滴滴吧，特别是让我回味起在九份那短短的半天。
望着朦胧的海岸线
是否还能回到从前
- 陈绮贞 (九份的咖啡店）
It's kind of sad listening to those 2 lines, and looking at this picture at the same time, it's taken in 九份 by the way.
我的心是一杯调和过的咖啡
怀念着往日淡薄的青草味
- 陈绮贞 (九份的咖啡店）
最喜欢歌曲里这两句歌词，也没什么特别的原因，可能就让我感同身受吧，用两句简单的歌词，就能把我心中的感受很直接易懂地表达出来。
Jack Jackson is similar in the sense that his lyrics are simple, yet it's so true, and sometimes it really reflects what I feel perfectly...it's not really fanciful, and it may even appear blatently obvious and retarded to some...but its simpleness just hits me...
And there has always been laughing, crying, birth, and dying
Boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break
And heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture
But then hurt from time to time like these
And times like those
And what will be will be
And so it goes
And it always goes on and on...
On and on it goes
- Jack Johnson (Times Like These)
What will be will be, and so it goes...my facourite lines...I know it sounds a bit like fatalism that we studied last time, fate decides our life, etc...but you know there are always moments and times in life that we would feel like everything is beyond our control...what will be will just be...
I think that's largely how I see life in general...not that I feel like I have no control over my life or whatsoever, but just that I just like to take it easy...I don't like to live in the present frantically trying to plan for my future...like what I wanna be in the future...I know it's bad but that's just me...when the time comes...i will just deal with it...
And there's a part of me that really craves this certain "平淡"ness in my life...i don't need like exciting stuff to happen, just a good book or a good movie, or even chatting with friends, having a good lunch will make my day, just find me something simple to pass time, and I'll be happy...
Like today...spent an hour plus at this CD shop at Taka B2...listening to lots of different songs...I really love that feeling..putting on those headphones, and immersing myself in the music, it's almost like I don't really notice what's going on around me anymore....
A good lucnch with classmates followed by spending some time at Kino looking at random books, was a nice feeling too...it's like we don't need to always go out to watch movie and stuff...I enjoy this kind of moments as much as anything else too...
Milkrun...well..it's just running...but still I enjoyed it...these times spent with classmates...especially when I know there's not much time left for us as a class...
Ok...离题了...I think this entry is rather fragmented...and incoherent...but oh well..that's me...full of incoherent and random thoughts in my mind...shall end here...
I hope this old train breaks down
Then I could take a walk around
And, see what there is to see
And time is just a melody
-Jack Johnson (Breakdown)
Monday, June 25, 2007
The Effects Of Block Test
//The Effects Of Block Test//
If this is what block test can do, imagine what my high score will be during A lvl period.
If this is what block test can do, imagine what my high score will be during A lvl period.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Maths
//Maths//
I need help!
Ken had $20 more than Mingli at first. After Ken had given 1/5 of his money to Mingli, Mingli had $64. How much did Mingli have at first?
Three girls shared a sum of money. Cathy received $180 more than Betty. The total amount Betty and Cathy received was 3 times the amount Alice received. The amount Alice and Cathy received was 5 times the amount Betty received. What was the sum of money shared by the 3 girls?
Someone help me! I am able to solve both questions, but in both, I used simultaneous equation! Anyone who knows how to solve these 2 questions in such a way that a P5 students can understand, tell me!
I need help!
Ken had $20 more than Mingli at first. After Ken had given 1/5 of his money to Mingli, Mingli had $64. How much did Mingli have at first?
Three girls shared a sum of money. Cathy received $180 more than Betty. The total amount Betty and Cathy received was 3 times the amount Alice received. The amount Alice and Cathy received was 5 times the amount Betty received. What was the sum of money shared by the 3 girls?
Someone help me! I am able to solve both questions, but in both, I used simultaneous equation! Anyone who knows how to solve these 2 questions in such a way that a P5 students can understand, tell me!
Saturday, June 09, 2007
十八岁的第二天
//十八岁的第二天//
Remember I mentioned that my buddy said that he will be sending a gift over from Taiwan?? He even mentioned in the message on the jigsaw puzzle that "我要送给你你最爱的生日礼物"...and I received it yesterday!
My brother got the package while I was bathing...look at the stamps!
Filled with anticipation...I brought the package to my room, it's not very heavy by the way...0.9kg....
And I ripped open the packaging and saw this box!! I ripped the box open too... and when I open the box...I saw....
MY FAVOURITE TIDBITS FROM TAIWAN!
Remember I mentioned that my buddy said that he will be sending a gift over from Taiwan?? He even mentioned in the message on the jigsaw puzzle that "我要送给你你最爱的生日礼物"...and I received it yesterday!
My brother got the package while I was bathing...look at the stamps!
Filled with anticipation...I brought the package to my room, it's not very heavy by the way...0.9kg....
And I ripped open the packaging and saw this box!! I ripped the box open too... and when I open the box...I saw....
MY FAVOURITE TIDBITS FROM TAIWAN!
I took out those first 2 packets and saw 2 other types...
And I saw 3 more packets!!! Haha...I was so so so so excited! Cause I actually bought 1 packet from Taiwan myself when I went in Dec last year, but I still haven't eaten it yet cause I can't bear to open it...now I got like 5 packets!
So I lined them up with my bear (which is still yet to be named! BB? Last time my blue BB is baby bear..maybe this BB is BIG bear! ahahha) and took a photograph! The bear looks so 幸福 right??
Another birthday gift that I got...from mann ying...
AND THIS! I can't believe terence, meng and cheng (well, technically meng and terence chose it) bought me this! UNBELIEVABLE! And it doesn't even have a compactment for me to put coins!
What were they thinking! I can't say I love it...but I shall use it since it's from them...fortunately..they bought me a shirt too...haha..may be to offset my disappointment???
Not a very productive week for me in terms of mugging...too lazy and unmotivated...Shall TRY to work harder!
Thursday, June 07, 2007
十八岁的第一天
//十八岁的第一天//
I was just thinking about what the title of this entry should be when my sister said this.
First day of being 18. Actually it feels the same.
17. 18. 17 sounds young, 18 sounds old. Therein lies the difference I guess. I wonder how ancient I will feel by the time I hit 20 or 21.
I am legally 18, legally able to do a lot more things, but at the same time, I feel like being 18 means that I am no longer entitled to a lot of things to some extent.
It's a weird feeling, to know that I not realy a teenager anymore, not a kid, yet I'm not really adult too. Haha, I feel like this entry is going no where.
It's been a really really nice birthday this year. Not as in just today itself, but over the last couple of days as well.
It's really a nice feeling when people just do something out of a sudden, something that you weren't expecting at all, something really sweet and nice, or to sum it up, a pleasant surprise.
I got a pleasant surprise when I went out with TIP-pers on Monday when they suddenly sang me a birthday song, or rather they dian-ed this ultra long birthday song in KBox. Haha, it really made my day, cause I was totally not expecting it. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside..haha..I guess it's simple yet sweet gestures like this that really made me feel blessed.
Got another pleasant surprise that night when jer wished me happy birthday in advance. Maybe cause I wasn't really expecting birthday greetings this early. It really put a smile on my face, espeically at that time when I'm having a really bad night trying to do Series and Sequence.
Got yet another surprise on Tue when I received the jigsaw puzzle from my buddy from Taiwan. He bought this small jigsaw puzzle thing which he wrote on, and sent it all the way from Taiwan to me, and I have to fix the jigsaw puzzle to write his birthday greeting, and supposedly he will be sending a gift over soon...haha. It's really sweeeeet...
Got the big big teddy bear (yet to be named) from the class and a small little bear hp holder from mann ying on Wed. It's kind of funny to be receiving the first teddy bear of my life for my 18th birthday when I am supposed to grow out of the "cuddle-teddy-bear" phase of my life. It looks really very cuddly though...oooh..and I got this ultra lame CD..haha..I shan't mention much about it here..haha...but it's really funny...really sweet...thanks to all those who "participated" in the production of this CD, especially the act cute "te bie lai bin" and everlyn who compiled it...
It was H4 outing today, nice company for a day like this...watched Zodiac (which I am so going to write a review for)...it's just a simple nice happy day for me...
When I got home, the first thing I checked was the fridge, and lo and behold, the cake was there! Haha...every year I would tell my mum to stop buying cake for next year but every year she will still go ahead and buy it...but it's much better this year, at least no more birthday songs or birthday wishes...but still I really appreciate it, like I mentioned the umpteen times, it's really sweet...
Thanks to everyone who sent me greetings, be it on msn, through sms, friendster or in person.
And just as I post this, my birthday is over.
it's a sweet sweet birthday, happy and contented i am.
I was just thinking about what the title of this entry should be when my sister said this.
First day of being 18. Actually it feels the same.
17. 18. 17 sounds young, 18 sounds old. Therein lies the difference I guess. I wonder how ancient I will feel by the time I hit 20 or 21.
I am legally 18, legally able to do a lot more things, but at the same time, I feel like being 18 means that I am no longer entitled to a lot of things to some extent.
It's a weird feeling, to know that I not realy a teenager anymore, not a kid, yet I'm not really adult too. Haha, I feel like this entry is going no where.
It's been a really really nice birthday this year. Not as in just today itself, but over the last couple of days as well.
It's really a nice feeling when people just do something out of a sudden, something that you weren't expecting at all, something really sweet and nice, or to sum it up, a pleasant surprise.
I got a pleasant surprise when I went out with TIP-pers on Monday when they suddenly sang me a birthday song, or rather they dian-ed this ultra long birthday song in KBox. Haha, it really made my day, cause I was totally not expecting it. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside..haha..I guess it's simple yet sweet gestures like this that really made me feel blessed.
Got another pleasant surprise that night when jer wished me happy birthday in advance. Maybe cause I wasn't really expecting birthday greetings this early. It really put a smile on my face, espeically at that time when I'm having a really bad night trying to do Series and Sequence.
Got yet another surprise on Tue when I received the jigsaw puzzle from my buddy from Taiwan. He bought this small jigsaw puzzle thing which he wrote on, and sent it all the way from Taiwan to me, and I have to fix the jigsaw puzzle to write his birthday greeting, and supposedly he will be sending a gift over soon...haha. It's really sweeeeet...
Got the big big teddy bear (yet to be named) from the class and a small little bear hp holder from mann ying on Wed. It's kind of funny to be receiving the first teddy bear of my life for my 18th birthday when I am supposed to grow out of the "cuddle-teddy-bear" phase of my life. It looks really very cuddly though...oooh..and I got this ultra lame CD..haha..I shan't mention much about it here..haha...but it's really funny...really sweet...thanks to all those who "participated" in the production of this CD, especially the act cute "te bie lai bin" and everlyn who compiled it...
It was H4 outing today, nice company for a day like this...watched Zodiac (which I am so going to write a review for)...it's just a simple nice happy day for me...
When I got home, the first thing I checked was the fridge, and lo and behold, the cake was there! Haha...every year I would tell my mum to stop buying cake for next year but every year she will still go ahead and buy it...but it's much better this year, at least no more birthday songs or birthday wishes...but still I really appreciate it, like I mentioned the umpteen times, it's really sweet...
Thanks to everyone who sent me greetings, be it on msn, through sms, friendster or in person.
And just as I post this, my birthday is over.
it's a sweet sweet birthday, happy and contented i am.
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Semi-depressed
//Semi-depressed//
I am in a semi-depressed mood today.
Depressed over what? Actually nothing. Ha.
This always happens when I'm too free or rather, when I am slacking my day away.
When I'm not doing anything in particular, my mind will wander off, hu si luan xiang, think till I get depressed. Bad.
That's a good thing about mugging. It keeps my mind off stuff that I shouldn't be thinking about.
Oh, and I am actually looking forward to my evening jogs..haha...
It's a nice feeling, to be jogging while listening to music, when the sun is setting, and gradually it gets dark...and I jog on...I enjoy that half an hour everyday, especially on days like these, cause in the half an hour, there's literally nothing on my mind, the music fills my world, and my mind is just...jogging, jog on! It's a peaceful half an hour for me.
And this time round, I will be determined, to keep this evening jog thing for the entire holiday.
Oooh, and my luck is turning around! I found my Galvanic Cell notes!! It's stuck in my bro's messy pile of worksheets, god knows how it got there, the main pt is I found it!
Woots, my luck is turning around!
I am in a semi-depressed mood today.
Depressed over what? Actually nothing. Ha.
This always happens when I'm too free or rather, when I am slacking my day away.
When I'm not doing anything in particular, my mind will wander off, hu si luan xiang, think till I get depressed. Bad.
That's a good thing about mugging. It keeps my mind off stuff that I shouldn't be thinking about.
Oh, and I am actually looking forward to my evening jogs..haha...
It's a nice feeling, to be jogging while listening to music, when the sun is setting, and gradually it gets dark...and I jog on...I enjoy that half an hour everyday, especially on days like these, cause in the half an hour, there's literally nothing on my mind, the music fills my world, and my mind is just...jogging, jog on! It's a peaceful half an hour for me.
And this time round, I will be determined, to keep this evening jog thing for the entire holiday.
Oooh, and my luck is turning around! I found my Galvanic Cell notes!! It's stuck in my bro's messy pile of worksheets, god knows how it got there, the main pt is I found it!
Woots, my luck is turning around!
Saturday, May 26, 2007
End
//End//
Woots! The 1 month "mug-for-BT2" holiday is here!
Haha..how oxymoronic...got such word? adjective to oxymoron...like how moronic is the adjective to moron...
Unlike most people, I wasn't really looking forward to the end of term. I wasn't excited at the prospect of the hols. I sort of gotten used to going to school (after 11 years of life as students), and actually enjoy going to school! *gasp* It would be like my last term of actual school life come term 3. I actually don't want it to end...
There are actually lots of perks for being a student....concession rates...I mean..45 cents for a MRT ride regardless of where you are going is really cheap! Then you get all the student packages...like student meals at Macs/KFC/BK...KStudent...and all these is going to end like in a few months time! Can't believe it...
And as a student...you get paid (by your parents) to do nothing but study and get good grades!
Went for comm serve for the last time (officially) on Thur...it's kind of a weird feeling...knowing that it will probably be one of the last time I would be seeing the kids and teaching them...
It has been a fulfulling year at BHS for me...teaching all the kids..though I know I probably didn't make an impact in terms of studies...since most of them don't have the motivation to study anyway...at least I was there like once a week...to accompany them and talk crap with them...played lots and lots of hangman...drew for them...folded paper boats for them...
It may not seem much...and it probably didn't do much to impact their lives in anyway...but the very fact that they are there means that they won't be loitering around after school...hanging out with god knows who...at least they are hanging out with good people (like me! haha) at the centre...
And going for comm serve for me isn't just about the kids for me...through all the comm serve over the year...it became sort of a routine thing for a couple of us in the class too...so it's about going to comm serve with them too...
I always enjoyed the dinner/sweet talk/old chang kee sessions with them....it became a habit for us to walk to Tiong Bahru Plaza after comm serve...and we would have dinner tgt sometimes...if not we would buy sweet talk...or old chang kee...and sit down at some corner and start eating and talking...
There's lots of different combination...like there was once me mitch and ever sat at some corner with our sweet talk and just crap talked for quite some time..and there were a couple other times which we stayed qte late after comm serve at tiong bahru plaza too....and I remember this year, during the CNY week, me mitch and cheryl just sat the macs from 7+ to almost 9...just because it was CNY celebrations in school tmr so we don't want to go home early...there was even once when it's just me and mitch...and once when it's just me and ever...
other combi includes me mitch yuming ever....me mitch yuming and pauline....and earlier on there was xinyi, wilson, mann ying and a couple others too...just permuate and rearrange it...and you get the different combinations...
I am really really going to miss all the times spent at Tiong Bahru Plaza after comm serve...at some level, maybe that is why I feel closer to certain people in the class than others...I really doubt we can afford the time in term 3 even if we go for comm serve anymore...
So on the very last official comm serve day...me and mitch just went to sit at the different spots which we sat down and talked before...haha...kind of lame...but i think it kind of provided a closure for me...
Mitch told me it's not like we won't ever go comm serve again...but it's just like the last day of school in primary school...or secondary school...or last training in st john...I know it won't be the last time I would see my classmates, I know it won't be the last time I would be in the school, I know it won't be my last time at a St John training...but I also know that it won't feel the same anymore...
I hate for things to end...but I guess if I know it won't end, I won't treasure it as much, would I?
All good things must come to an end...
Woots! The 1 month "mug-for-BT2" holiday is here!
Haha..how oxymoronic...got such word? adjective to oxymoron...like how moronic is the adjective to moron...
Unlike most people, I wasn't really looking forward to the end of term. I wasn't excited at the prospect of the hols. I sort of gotten used to going to school (after 11 years of life as students), and actually enjoy going to school! *gasp* It would be like my last term of actual school life come term 3. I actually don't want it to end...
There are actually lots of perks for being a student....concession rates...I mean..45 cents for a MRT ride regardless of where you are going is really cheap! Then you get all the student packages...like student meals at Macs/KFC/BK...KStudent...and all these is going to end like in a few months time! Can't believe it...
And as a student...you get paid (by your parents) to do nothing but study and get good grades!
Went for comm serve for the last time (officially) on Thur...it's kind of a weird feeling...knowing that it will probably be one of the last time I would be seeing the kids and teaching them...
It has been a fulfulling year at BHS for me...teaching all the kids..though I know I probably didn't make an impact in terms of studies...since most of them don't have the motivation to study anyway...at least I was there like once a week...to accompany them and talk crap with them...played lots and lots of hangman...drew for them...folded paper boats for them...
It may not seem much...and it probably didn't do much to impact their lives in anyway...but the very fact that they are there means that they won't be loitering around after school...hanging out with god knows who...at least they are hanging out with good people (like me! haha) at the centre...
And going for comm serve for me isn't just about the kids for me...through all the comm serve over the year...it became sort of a routine thing for a couple of us in the class too...so it's about going to comm serve with them too...
I always enjoyed the dinner/sweet talk/old chang kee sessions with them....it became a habit for us to walk to Tiong Bahru Plaza after comm serve...and we would have dinner tgt sometimes...if not we would buy sweet talk...or old chang kee...and sit down at some corner and start eating and talking...
There's lots of different combination...like there was once me mitch and ever sat at some corner with our sweet talk and just crap talked for quite some time..and there were a couple other times which we stayed qte late after comm serve at tiong bahru plaza too....and I remember this year, during the CNY week, me mitch and cheryl just sat the macs from 7+ to almost 9...just because it was CNY celebrations in school tmr so we don't want to go home early...there was even once when it's just me and mitch...and once when it's just me and ever...
other combi includes me mitch yuming ever....me mitch yuming and pauline....and earlier on there was xinyi, wilson, mann ying and a couple others too...just permuate and rearrange it...and you get the different combinations...
I am really really going to miss all the times spent at Tiong Bahru Plaza after comm serve...at some level, maybe that is why I feel closer to certain people in the class than others...I really doubt we can afford the time in term 3 even if we go for comm serve anymore...
So on the very last official comm serve day...me and mitch just went to sit at the different spots which we sat down and talked before...haha...kind of lame...but i think it kind of provided a closure for me...
Mitch told me it's not like we won't ever go comm serve again...but it's just like the last day of school in primary school...or secondary school...or last training in st john...I know it won't be the last time I would see my classmates, I know it won't be the last time I would be in the school, I know it won't be my last time at a St John training...but I also know that it won't feel the same anymore...
I hate for things to end...but I guess if I know it won't end, I won't treasure it as much, would I?
All good things must come to an end...
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Bad Luck
//Bad Luck//
I cast this spell to find good luck
and hope my life will cease to suck
- Charmed
How I wish the spell really work.
When you hit with bad luck, it really does stick with you for a while doesn't it. No wonder they call it a streak of bad luck.
I dropped my burger on the floor during dinner.
I had a pimple on my nose, right at the same time when I start to have runny nose again. Imagine, rubbing my nose, with that pimple there.
1 word. PAIN.
I lost my Galvanic Cell notes. Realised it this afternoon at 4+.
I lost my wallet. Probably lost it yesterday night after Dance Night while on the way home (I clearly did take a bus home, and it was still there then), since I have been at home this whole time today.
Argh. I need some good luck in my life right now.
I cast this spell to find good luck
and hope my life will cease to suck
- Charmed
How I wish the spell really work.
When you hit with bad luck, it really does stick with you for a while doesn't it. No wonder they call it a streak of bad luck.
I dropped my burger on the floor during dinner.
I had a pimple on my nose, right at the same time when I start to have runny nose again. Imagine, rubbing my nose, with that pimple there.
1 word. PAIN.
I lost my Galvanic Cell notes. Realised it this afternoon at 4+.
I lost my wallet. Probably lost it yesterday night after Dance Night while on the way home (I clearly did take a bus home, and it was still there then), since I have been at home this whole time today.
Argh. I need some good luck in my life right now.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
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Monday, May 14, 2007
Over
//Over//
So it’s over.
It feels kind of weird, that after weeks of training, the competition is over. I complain and complain and complain about doing pattern during training. But now that it’s over, I kind of missed it. It’s sort of became a habit I guess.
My leg is itching to do that side kick in my first pattern the whole day, especially after seeing how most of the people in the competition can’t seem to do it.
I wanted to win something so badly this year. Last year, I didn’t take the competition really seriously, didn’t train hard. Despite being in the category with the least amount of participants, I manage to screw up. So I told myself, next year, I must and will win something, for the lost opportunity last year, for myself, and for hc tkd.
So I participated, and did train hard. I fought hard for that individual spot because I really wanted to achieve what I didn’t manage to do last year. And when I did get it in the end, it sort of act as a confidence booster for me, and at the same time it gave me motivation to work even harder, cause in a way, I’m depriving someone else of this chance, so I don’t want to waste this individual slot that I worked hard for.
But things don’t really go our way in our life do they?
I didn’t manage to achieve my goal.
In the first round, I was unexpectedly calm actually. With 7 judges, 4 in front, 3 behind, and me alone on the big mat, I thought I would crumble under pressure, I thought I would screw up like I did last year. Surprisingly, my heart wasn’t beating faster, I wasn’t trembling, and I just did the pattern. I was disappointed when I saw the scores, 6.36.
With that score, I barely made it to the finals; I’m probably the bottom 3 of the top 8. I must say my morale was really low at that point. In the finals, I really wanted to give it my all, all my strength in the punches and blocks, get all my stances right, but this time round, I can’t really keep my calm anymore. Maybe it’s the results from the last round that affected me so much, but I couldn’t get my 100% focus.
I got a 6.72.
5th (out of 10 people)
Beating the 6th person by 0.02 (he got 6.70) and losing to the 4th person by 0.04 (he got 6.76). It was actually all pretty close, the person who got second got 6.88.
I am glad I manage to beat out 3 other people, but I really wonder if I am better than them, or if those 4 who beat me were really better than me?
Who knows, with a different set of judges, I may have been first, I could have gotten last. The fact that I got 4.1 out of 5 from 1 judge for accuracy and 2.4 from another just proves how subjective it is.
I got last (4th out of 4 pairs) in the pair category. I was okay with it, because I don’t think I did well. I wasn’t in the right mindset because it was just after my individual finals.
But when others come to tell you that we were much better than some of the other pairs, it kind of makes me wonder if we were that bad afterall.
I have seen it for myself yesterday, some blatant mistakes from some people who got ridiculously high undeserved marks. After my pair competition (my last event), I was really really really hoping and praying that both blue belt guys and girls team will do well.
I feel really bad and sad for the blue belt girls and guys team, and blue belt girls individual especially. They don’t deserve the placing they got in my opinion. They deserved much better than that based on yesterday's performance. But that's just my biased opinion, and obviously I am not the judge, so oh well.
I was really pissed yesterday, with some of the judging. Thinking back now, I wonder, are the judges biased? Or am I the one that is biased just because we are from the same school?
I guess with competition like this, where the difference in marks are usually so small, and the judging is totally subjective, things like this are bound to happen. Maybe they really do feel like those blatant mistakes are not worth making the team down or something. They gave the scores, we just have to accept it and move on.
At least I get to do my pattern 3 times yesterday. That's 3 minutes of pattern on the competition mat after weeks and weeks of training.
Oh well. Life goes on.
So it’s over.
It feels kind of weird, that after weeks of training, the competition is over. I complain and complain and complain about doing pattern during training. But now that it’s over, I kind of missed it. It’s sort of became a habit I guess.
My leg is itching to do that side kick in my first pattern the whole day, especially after seeing how most of the people in the competition can’t seem to do it.
I wanted to win something so badly this year. Last year, I didn’t take the competition really seriously, didn’t train hard. Despite being in the category with the least amount of participants, I manage to screw up. So I told myself, next year, I must and will win something, for the lost opportunity last year, for myself, and for hc tkd.
So I participated, and did train hard. I fought hard for that individual spot because I really wanted to achieve what I didn’t manage to do last year. And when I did get it in the end, it sort of act as a confidence booster for me, and at the same time it gave me motivation to work even harder, cause in a way, I’m depriving someone else of this chance, so I don’t want to waste this individual slot that I worked hard for.
But things don’t really go our way in our life do they?
I didn’t manage to achieve my goal.
In the first round, I was unexpectedly calm actually. With 7 judges, 4 in front, 3 behind, and me alone on the big mat, I thought I would crumble under pressure, I thought I would screw up like I did last year. Surprisingly, my heart wasn’t beating faster, I wasn’t trembling, and I just did the pattern. I was disappointed when I saw the scores, 6.36.
With that score, I barely made it to the finals; I’m probably the bottom 3 of the top 8. I must say my morale was really low at that point. In the finals, I really wanted to give it my all, all my strength in the punches and blocks, get all my stances right, but this time round, I can’t really keep my calm anymore. Maybe it’s the results from the last round that affected me so much, but I couldn’t get my 100% focus.
I got a 6.72.
5th (out of 10 people)
Beating the 6th person by 0.02 (he got 6.70) and losing to the 4th person by 0.04 (he got 6.76). It was actually all pretty close, the person who got second got 6.88.
I am glad I manage to beat out 3 other people, but I really wonder if I am better than them, or if those 4 who beat me were really better than me?
Who knows, with a different set of judges, I may have been first, I could have gotten last. The fact that I got 4.1 out of 5 from 1 judge for accuracy and 2.4 from another just proves how subjective it is.
I got last (4th out of 4 pairs) in the pair category. I was okay with it, because I don’t think I did well. I wasn’t in the right mindset because it was just after my individual finals.
But when others come to tell you that we were much better than some of the other pairs, it kind of makes me wonder if we were that bad afterall.
I have seen it for myself yesterday, some blatant mistakes from some people who got ridiculously high undeserved marks. After my pair competition (my last event), I was really really really hoping and praying that both blue belt guys and girls team will do well.
I feel really bad and sad for the blue belt girls and guys team, and blue belt girls individual especially. They don’t deserve the placing they got in my opinion. They deserved much better than that based on yesterday's performance. But that's just my biased opinion, and obviously I am not the judge, so oh well.
I was really pissed yesterday, with some of the judging. Thinking back now, I wonder, are the judges biased? Or am I the one that is biased just because we are from the same school?
I guess with competition like this, where the difference in marks are usually so small, and the judging is totally subjective, things like this are bound to happen. Maybe they really do feel like those blatant mistakes are not worth making the team down or something. They gave the scores, we just have to accept it and move on.
At least I get to do my pattern 3 times yesterday. That's 3 minutes of pattern on the competition mat after weeks and weeks of training.
Oh well. Life goes on.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Irritated
//Irritated//
It's super irritating that 1 bad move, or rather dumb move in this case, by 1 person, left 3 people pissed and mad, including that very person who made the wrong move.
If that person didn't make that wrong move, it would have been happy ending for all 3 of us.
Dumb mistake.
It's super irritating that 1 bad move, or rather dumb move in this case, by 1 person, left 3 people pissed and mad, including that very person who made the wrong move.
If that person didn't make that wrong move, it would have been happy ending for all 3 of us.
Dumb mistake.
Monday, April 30, 2007
Footdrill
//Footdrill//
The recent zone comp inspired me to look at the photos of my own zone comp...like 3 years ago...and I realised our atrocious our footdrill was then...
If you are a junior participating in comp this year, who instead of training is wasting time reading blogs....please take a close good look at the mistakes...and also this will explain some of the things your NCOs keep emphasizing...
First up...kekena lurus...mingwei's and my posture is extremely bad...we are leaning back far too much...+ the way we turn/tilt our heads look very very different...(note: ignore the person on the far left...)
Reporting...woa...jeremy is so much taller now!
Once again, bad posture from mingwei and i...and to a lesser extent, jeremy...mingwei's the worst....leaning back too much....
Wooo..look at our dressing...not that bad huh...
Ok, but this one dressing damn off...I am sure this is not parallex error...but at least we raised our hands to the same level.
The recent zone comp inspired me to look at the photos of my own zone comp...like 3 years ago...and I realised our atrocious our footdrill was then...
If you are a junior participating in comp this year, who instead of training is wasting time reading blogs....please take a close good look at the mistakes...and also this will explain some of the things your NCOs keep emphasizing...
First up...kekena lurus...mingwei's and my posture is extremely bad...we are leaning back far too much...+ the way we turn/tilt our heads look very very different...(note: ignore the person on the far left...)
Reporting...woa...jeremy is so much taller now!
Once again, bad posture from mingwei and i...and to a lesser extent, jeremy...mingwei's the worst....leaning back too much....
Ok, this is the very very important one....we all raised our legs high enough...but sadly, it's not 90 degrees!!! So other than fact that the leg must be raised high enough, the angle is very important!. And the next thing, pointing your feet down. Most of us weren't pointing our feet down enough.
There's a reason whenever I tell the juniors to take note of raising leg 90 degrees and pointing feet down, I always say "must get ying cheng to demo for you guys to see one of these days"...cause look at his! PERFECT EXAMPLE of how it should be done.
Wooo..look at our dressing...not that bad huh...
Ok, but this one dressing damn off...I am sure this is not parallex error...but at least we raised our hands to the same level.
Marching! Not bad, our dressing seemed to be in, even our legs seem to be bent at the same angle and stuff...but look at the hand! Swing back 45 degrees! Guess whose hand is that that is sticking out! MINE! HAHAHA.
Haha...footdrill is actually fun...can't wait to go back after tkd comp is over to do some drill!
Saturday, April 21, 2007
CCA
//CCA//
Yep. Double champs for zone competition again :)
It's really a weird feeling watching them compete in competition.
"Our" sec 1s so to speak, are actually competing in the very same competition, that I competed in 3 years ago. And the scary thing is I can actually remember very very clearly what happened during zone competition and national competition that year, and how I felt then. All the nerves, the adrenaline rush just as we march off for a case or footdrill. As cliche as it may seem, it really really did feel like yesterday when I was still training and participating in competition.
I can still very clearly that time when we did 100 kekena lurus to train our bangs and dressing, or the countless times which we would be in the ridiculous attire of the yellow PE shirt, khaki shorts, white socks and black boots doing footdrill at the red tile area or parade square. I can still remember the scenes of us doing case in 2nd floor of EP3 block and EP203.
And one thing for sure, I will never ever forget the moment they announced the results. I remembered during National Competition, we started off by screwing up footdrill, and then screwing up short case. We tried to be optimistic and think about how we can nail TOC. And the world came crashing down when TOC was something really unexpected, TOC without stretcher.
So our lives depended on the long case then. I tried to remain optimistic by deluding all of us by saying "hey, who knows, maybe we will nail the long case, which made up 50% of the whole score" And I will always remember what Jeremy said at that time "If we can't ever do the short case, you expect us to do well in long case?" I knew he was right, but I still cling on to that tinnie winnie bit of hope.
A miracle did happen in the end. I never felt so good coming out of a case before. Usually, I would come out from a case, thinking, I should have done that or this...but that case, it was really really one of the best we did in my opinion.
This is why the moment the results was released will always be remembered. We were not the top 2 in any of the 4 categories, so logically speaking, there's really a low chance for us to be in the overall top 3. I wasn't feeling sad at the moment for losing, I was disappointed that all the 6 months of training ultimately amoutned to nothing. So you can imagine how stunned and shocked I was when they announced "AA2" as the 2nd-runners up.
Stunned ---> Disbelief ---> Heart beats faster ---> Joy ---> Beyond words
Looking back, I will never say I enjoyed competition trainings, cause obviously trainings are not meant to be enjoyable. But if I have learnt anything through my 2 years in JC, it's that it is actually a good thing to have something that you feel is worth fighting and working hard for. It is something that I haven't never really had ever since I left St John.
Training a competition team is another entirely new experience. After competition ended, I was really really eager to share my experience with my juniors at that time, to teach them not only the things I've learnt from the seniors, but from the things I've discovered myself and gain throughout the whole competition training.
One thing that I felt both as a trainee and trainer though is the helpless feeling. Training for competition, I always felt out of my depth, like I'm thrown into a deep pool and struggling to keep afloat. I felt like I was never able to achieve what I'm supposed to.
Training a competition team, I felt the same way in the sense that I cannot achieve that I set out to. No matter how hard I try, the same few mistakes still keep popping up in the team, because ultimately, it is up to them to correct their mistakes after we pointed them out. I know it's hard to correct all those mistakes and try to improve because I went through the same thing too, but I also know that as a trainer, I cannot simply let it go because mistakes are still mistakes, it is my job to make sure the team improves. So we tried all sorts of way....from 1 to 1 specialised training (haha...with my fav cadet) to special training on how to speak fluently...but still, effort is not always proportional to results.
But ultimately, I am glad the team that we trained managed to win Champion in National Competition for the 1st time ever (or at least in a long long time i think...) I did not win the champion, but I am happy that I did contribute in my own little way to the win.
And it's not just the competition, it's everything else. A few of us had a mass convo on msn the other day, and it's scary how we still remember so many things that happened years ago during training and camps.
No matter what or how others perceive st john to be, I still think it gave me one of the most memorable parts of my entire sch life (now that it's ending), and I will say I am proud to be a member of HC st john.
Tkd will never match up to what I had I guess. I feel like it's a screwed up cca in so many different ways. I don't really care anymore what others in the club may think if they read this anymore...i know i am very anti-social when it comes to tkd, i am very dao and stuff, but if I only behave this way in certain situations such as this, i guess a big part of it has to do with the people in the club itself. Or rather, maybe it's just like oil and water, nobody's fault, we just can't mix.
Competition is in less than a month's time, I'm gonna train hard to prove somebody wrong. At least I can't say I didn't try this time like last year.
Yep. Double champs for zone competition again :)
It's really a weird feeling watching them compete in competition.
"Our" sec 1s so to speak, are actually competing in the very same competition, that I competed in 3 years ago. And the scary thing is I can actually remember very very clearly what happened during zone competition and national competition that year, and how I felt then. All the nerves, the adrenaline rush just as we march off for a case or footdrill. As cliche as it may seem, it really really did feel like yesterday when I was still training and participating in competition.
I can still very clearly that time when we did 100 kekena lurus to train our bangs and dressing, or the countless times which we would be in the ridiculous attire of the yellow PE shirt, khaki shorts, white socks and black boots doing footdrill at the red tile area or parade square. I can still remember the scenes of us doing case in 2nd floor of EP3 block and EP203.
And one thing for sure, I will never ever forget the moment they announced the results. I remembered during National Competition, we started off by screwing up footdrill, and then screwing up short case. We tried to be optimistic and think about how we can nail TOC. And the world came crashing down when TOC was something really unexpected, TOC without stretcher.
So our lives depended on the long case then. I tried to remain optimistic by deluding all of us by saying "hey, who knows, maybe we will nail the long case, which made up 50% of the whole score" And I will always remember what Jeremy said at that time "If we can't ever do the short case, you expect us to do well in long case?" I knew he was right, but I still cling on to that tinnie winnie bit of hope.
A miracle did happen in the end. I never felt so good coming out of a case before. Usually, I would come out from a case, thinking, I should have done that or this...but that case, it was really really one of the best we did in my opinion.
This is why the moment the results was released will always be remembered. We were not the top 2 in any of the 4 categories, so logically speaking, there's really a low chance for us to be in the overall top 3. I wasn't feeling sad at the moment for losing, I was disappointed that all the 6 months of training ultimately amoutned to nothing. So you can imagine how stunned and shocked I was when they announced "AA2" as the 2nd-runners up.
Stunned ---> Disbelief ---> Heart beats faster ---> Joy ---> Beyond words
Looking back, I will never say I enjoyed competition trainings, cause obviously trainings are not meant to be enjoyable. But if I have learnt anything through my 2 years in JC, it's that it is actually a good thing to have something that you feel is worth fighting and working hard for. It is something that I haven't never really had ever since I left St John.
Training a competition team is another entirely new experience. After competition ended, I was really really eager to share my experience with my juniors at that time, to teach them not only the things I've learnt from the seniors, but from the things I've discovered myself and gain throughout the whole competition training.
One thing that I felt both as a trainee and trainer though is the helpless feeling. Training for competition, I always felt out of my depth, like I'm thrown into a deep pool and struggling to keep afloat. I felt like I was never able to achieve what I'm supposed to.
Training a competition team, I felt the same way in the sense that I cannot achieve that I set out to. No matter how hard I try, the same few mistakes still keep popping up in the team, because ultimately, it is up to them to correct their mistakes after we pointed them out. I know it's hard to correct all those mistakes and try to improve because I went through the same thing too, but I also know that as a trainer, I cannot simply let it go because mistakes are still mistakes, it is my job to make sure the team improves. So we tried all sorts of way....from 1 to 1 specialised training (haha...with my fav cadet) to special training on how to speak fluently...but still, effort is not always proportional to results.
But ultimately, I am glad the team that we trained managed to win Champion in National Competition for the 1st time ever (or at least in a long long time i think...) I did not win the champion, but I am happy that I did contribute in my own little way to the win.
And it's not just the competition, it's everything else. A few of us had a mass convo on msn the other day, and it's scary how we still remember so many things that happened years ago during training and camps.
No matter what or how others perceive st john to be, I still think it gave me one of the most memorable parts of my entire sch life (now that it's ending), and I will say I am proud to be a member of HC st john.
Tkd will never match up to what I had I guess. I feel like it's a screwed up cca in so many different ways. I don't really care anymore what others in the club may think if they read this anymore...i know i am very anti-social when it comes to tkd, i am very dao and stuff, but if I only behave this way in certain situations such as this, i guess a big part of it has to do with the people in the club itself. Or rather, maybe it's just like oil and water, nobody's fault, we just can't mix.
Competition is in less than a month's time, I'm gonna train hard to prove somebody wrong. At least I can't say I didn't try this time like last year.
Monday, April 16, 2007
Mao-ism
//Mao-ism//
This is such a cute pic that I feel obliged to post it.
Look at the BIG BIG eyes and innocent look....aww...
This is such a cute pic that I feel obliged to post it.
Look at the BIG BIG eyes and innocent look....aww...
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Weird Me
//Weird Me//
So I was tagged by Minghao to do this "6 weird things about me" game. I think the title is self-explanatory.
Actually I wanted to write this entry once I knew I was tagged (which was a few days away), but I realised there's not a lot of weird things about me that my friends don't already know, but since I really can't think of anything else to write, this is just for those who don't know me that well...
1) I suffer from sleep paralysis (or hypnagogic paralysis to be exact)
Sometimes before I sleep, or rather in the process of falling asleep, while I'm half awake half asleep, I will suddenly be paralysed, as in I know I'm still awake, but I couldn't move my body, I couldn't shout. So I'm basically I'm just lying there, paralysed.
The paralysis usually lasts for a couple of minutes, but I remember there was once it lasted quite long, for like an hour? But that was when I was really young.
Well, according to Chinese superstition, this kind of thing is called "Bei gui ya"...I didn't really bother going to find out what this condition is actually called until recently, when I went on Wiki and read about it here.
Apparently my father, mother and sister all have this condition too, the only one in the family that is free from it is my brother. So I was quite shocked when my friends all told me that they never had this kind of sleep paralysis experience before. I thought it was rather common.
2) I am obssessed with Idol shows around the world.
I think this one is no surprise to most people who know me, but it's still something weird about me. As of now, after deleting some of the idol video files from my computer, I got 18.2 GB of Idol videos on my com now. The Idol show videos I got include shows from America (6 seasons), Canada (3 seasons), Australia (4 seasons), Malaysia (2 seasons), Singapore (2 seasons), Holland (1 season), UK (1 season), and miscellenous stuff from New Zealand, and countries I can't even name.
3) I don't watch a locally produced show anymore
I simply don't like local production, be it movie or TV Show. The only locally-produced show I watch now is Project Superstar/Campus Superstar (which can be linked to my obsession with Idol shows I guess).
I can't even remember the last local TV show I watch on a regular basis...I think I stopped watching after Primary school. The last local movie I watched was "Money Not Enough". I did not catch "I Not Stupid" or any of the other Jack Neo's production. It was kind of funny when I went over to Taiwan, and ALL the taiwan students there watched "I Not Stupid" before, while me, being a Singapore haven't.
4) I used to believe in the "End Of The World" prophecy kind of thing
I remember when I was in primary 2 (1997), my cousin told me about this doomsday prophecy thing, that the world will end in year 2000. I actually believed him and got really scared, sad and worried for the next few months, like I would think about it almost every night before I sleep.
When I told my mum about it, she just laughed at me, and told me a story of her own (which I'm too lazy to type), and convinced me not to worry about such unnecessary things.
Now, I obviously don't really care much about these prophecies stuff. But every now and then, I will still think about the world ending. Like when there's a really heavy rain, lightning and thunder gets really bad, I will wonder if it's a sign that the world is going to end. Or when I hear strange loud noises (probably caused by air planes, or fireworks..haha) I will wonder if the aliens are gonna invade us (i.e War of the worlds).
5) I enjoy Geography and History.
Kind of weird that I chose Economics as my contrasting subject when I do like Geography and History. The funny thing here is I never realised I like these 2 subjects until recently. Maybe in secondary school, I was too caught up in getting good grades for these subjects that I study for the sake of studying. But looking back now, I realised I really did thoroughly enjoyed all the Geography modules I took in sec 3 and 4, and even the History module on WWII.
At least I find myself reading chapters that are not tested in that thick thick history text book last time, and spending hours reading about geography-related stuff that are not tested. You will never find me reading Appendices of Bio notes (unless it is absolutely necessary).
6) I believe in aliens, and ghost.
I guess I will just lump everything together. Nothing weird, but I just believe in the existence of ghosts, and aliens UFOs and stuff like that. I used to go the library to borrow books on UFOs, supernatural occurence like sightings of ghosts and stuff to read. Ironically, I hate to watch horror movie.
Won't tag anyone in particular, you can just do this if you're bored, and said that I tagged you.
So I was tagged by Minghao to do this "6 weird things about me" game. I think the title is self-explanatory.
Actually I wanted to write this entry once I knew I was tagged (which was a few days away), but I realised there's not a lot of weird things about me that my friends don't already know, but since I really can't think of anything else to write, this is just for those who don't know me that well...
1) I suffer from sleep paralysis (or hypnagogic paralysis to be exact)
Sometimes before I sleep, or rather in the process of falling asleep, while I'm half awake half asleep, I will suddenly be paralysed, as in I know I'm still awake, but I couldn't move my body, I couldn't shout. So I'm basically I'm just lying there, paralysed.
The paralysis usually lasts for a couple of minutes, but I remember there was once it lasted quite long, for like an hour? But that was when I was really young.
Well, according to Chinese superstition, this kind of thing is called "Bei gui ya"...I didn't really bother going to find out what this condition is actually called until recently, when I went on Wiki and read about it here.
Apparently my father, mother and sister all have this condition too, the only one in the family that is free from it is my brother. So I was quite shocked when my friends all told me that they never had this kind of sleep paralysis experience before. I thought it was rather common.
2) I am obssessed with Idol shows around the world.
I think this one is no surprise to most people who know me, but it's still something weird about me. As of now, after deleting some of the idol video files from my computer, I got 18.2 GB of Idol videos on my com now. The Idol show videos I got include shows from America (6 seasons), Canada (3 seasons), Australia (4 seasons), Malaysia (2 seasons), Singapore (2 seasons), Holland (1 season), UK (1 season), and miscellenous stuff from New Zealand, and countries I can't even name.
3) I don't watch a locally produced show anymore
I simply don't like local production, be it movie or TV Show. The only locally-produced show I watch now is Project Superstar/Campus Superstar (which can be linked to my obsession with Idol shows I guess).
I can't even remember the last local TV show I watch on a regular basis...I think I stopped watching after Primary school. The last local movie I watched was "Money Not Enough". I did not catch "I Not Stupid" or any of the other Jack Neo's production. It was kind of funny when I went over to Taiwan, and ALL the taiwan students there watched "I Not Stupid" before, while me, being a Singapore haven't.
4) I used to believe in the "End Of The World" prophecy kind of thing
I remember when I was in primary 2 (1997), my cousin told me about this doomsday prophecy thing, that the world will end in year 2000. I actually believed him and got really scared, sad and worried for the next few months, like I would think about it almost every night before I sleep.
When I told my mum about it, she just laughed at me, and told me a story of her own (which I'm too lazy to type), and convinced me not to worry about such unnecessary things.
Now, I obviously don't really care much about these prophecies stuff. But every now and then, I will still think about the world ending. Like when there's a really heavy rain, lightning and thunder gets really bad, I will wonder if it's a sign that the world is going to end. Or when I hear strange loud noises (probably caused by air planes, or fireworks..haha) I will wonder if the aliens are gonna invade us (i.e War of the worlds).
5) I enjoy Geography and History.
Kind of weird that I chose Economics as my contrasting subject when I do like Geography and History. The funny thing here is I never realised I like these 2 subjects until recently. Maybe in secondary school, I was too caught up in getting good grades for these subjects that I study for the sake of studying. But looking back now, I realised I really did thoroughly enjoyed all the Geography modules I took in sec 3 and 4, and even the History module on WWII.
At least I find myself reading chapters that are not tested in that thick thick history text book last time, and spending hours reading about geography-related stuff that are not tested. You will never find me reading Appendices of Bio notes (unless it is absolutely necessary).
6) I believe in aliens, and ghost.
I guess I will just lump everything together. Nothing weird, but I just believe in the existence of ghosts, and aliens UFOs and stuff like that. I used to go the library to borrow books on UFOs, supernatural occurence like sightings of ghosts and stuff to read. Ironically, I hate to watch horror movie.
Won't tag anyone in particular, you can just do this if you're bored, and said that I tagged you.
Monday, April 02, 2007
Kiwi
//Kiwi//
Ying Cheng recommended me to watch this. And you know what, I got really depressed and sad after watching this. Typical me.
You should go watch this too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdUUx5FdySs
After you watched that, you should watch this, same video, but edited in a different order, and with different music, and the whole mood feels different.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SUbryU_XfX0&mode=related&search
I love that song. Mad World indeed.
Ying Cheng recommended me to watch this. And you know what, I got really depressed and sad after watching this. Typical me.
You should go watch this too.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdUUx5FdySs
After you watched that, you should watch this, same video, but edited in a different order, and with different music, and the whole mood feels different.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SUbryU_XfX0&mode=related&search
I love that song. Mad World indeed.
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